| Fan Fiction |
by raindrop_symphony
It’s been raining the whole day. This is the second rain I experienced here since I moved. The first one was the day after Yoochun got sick. We were so thankful that time because we got home just in time before the rain poured. Quite a coincidence that the weather is reflecting my mood today. It’s like the heavens are crying the tears that never get to reach my eyes. My friend once said that the way you can clean air is through rain and how I wish the rain could do the same for my heart—clean my heart of the pain that I’m feeling. When I walked out of my boss’s house after the renovation, there were umbrellas everywhere and now, as I look down at the many people walking down the streets I can’t help but wonder how many of them are sharing their umbrellas with their special someone. I remember one movie I watched where the couple shared a jacket to get to there destination. Although it was not as romantic since they had to run all the way, I thought it was very sweet and very special. Do I still get a chance to that? Share an umbrella with my special someone? Do I get to share an umbrella with Yoochun? Sigh. As I look out the window, I can’t help but wonder if Yoochun was under one of those umbrellas or perhaps one of the people who were running to get home fast. Sigh. I wonder how Yoochun is doing right now. I haven’t seen him in three days. Is he at work? Did he bring an umbrella? I hope he did. He was sick last week and I hope he’s more careful now. Sigh. I miss him.
Cherry
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I woke up this morning to the sound of raindrops hitting the window and I remembered the time I had lunch with Cherry and we got home just in time before it rained. Most of the times when it rains I would just stay in the apartment and sleep the whole day since going out would be a hassle. But today, I had to go somewhere and visit someone special. I decided to stop by the flower shop before going there and bought a bouquet of daisies. It was a very damp walk towards my destination. It was located a bit uphill and I was thankful that I didn’t slip on the way. When I got there, the rain was still pouring and the tombstone was in a way cleaned of dirt, making the carvings more visible. It still looked the same as I have seen the last time I visited. Aya’s name was written perfectly, her birthday and the day she died was written under her name. The last line in the tombstone was the line she told me moments before she died, “Be happy without me.” Although everything was very much the same, the only thing different was what I felt inside of me. For the first time, I visited her tomb with a lesser feeling of pain in my heart. It was easier to breath and I didn’t cry the whole time I was there. Also, for the first time, the line “Be happy without me” seemed more realistic. It used to be a very vague idea and I thought that being happy was next to impossible. Whenever I visit her, I would ask her how to be happy and the only answer that I would get was a gush of wind and distant sound of sad music. But now, I didn’t ask her that. Instead, I asked her if she was happy. I realized that I haven’t asked her that since she died. I remember what Junsu said when she died, he said that I should do my best to live without her because if I don’t she would feel sad in heaven because I was not taking care of myself. Come to think of it I’ve been quite selfish, always crying and asking why she left me, not even thinking how she felt when she left all the people she love behind. Now, for the first time since her death, I finally meant it when I promised her that I would do my best to be happy because now, I know that I won’t be doing my best alone, that I think I’ve finally found someone who could make me happy. After I made that promise, I felt a gentle gush of wind and I could smell the faint scent of vanilla—Aya’s usual perfume. Weel, I just hope that certain someone would be willing to help me. Well, here goes my everything. No guts no glory. Fighting!
Yoochun
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