Fan Fiction

Two People. Two Worlds. One Soul. [Complete]

by 1_dream

Chapter 32

Raymond's Diary: Day 13

It's been a long thirteen days since I meant Charmaine. Thirteen days might seem short, but to me, it seems like it'd been forever. I still remember the first day we met and the fact that she didn't even know me. How my feelings for her quickly developed, how I got to know her, all these memories that I will forever remember, cherish, and treasure within my heart.

The guys and I had an interview today, and the interviewer asked us about Charmaine. Was it obvious to the world that I had a thing for Charmaine, because she seemed to be targeting me and saying that there was something between us? If it is obvious to the world, why is it not obvious to Charmaine? If only she knew how much she meant to me. "Anything is possible," was the answer I gave to the interview when she had asked me if there was a possibility for me and Charmaine's relationship to advance to a new level. Anything is possible; three seemingly simple words, but could change the outcome of my future.

Shortly after the interview I received a call from my mom, she told me that my dad was ill and didn't have many days left. I knew I had to go back to the States to see him, but whether or not I would come back was an entirely different story. The guys and I had decided that our group has come to an end. The fact that we each wanted to go our separate ways to be with our families was a good enough reason to put a pause in our career.

My career wasn't of my worries, and money was definitely not a problem, what was on my mind was Charmaine. I wanted to meet up with her today and tell her how I felt about her. I called her to meet up with me but maybe that was a mistake. As I waited for her in the park, I over heard the conversation she had with Tavia. It turned out that she never liked me. Hopeless, is the only word that could describe my feelings at that time. As I walked away alone I had to carry the fear of losing my father, and carry the pain of losing a person in my heart. All I can do now is write a letter to her, I wasn't able to face her to say that I was going to leave. If I saw her, I wouldn't want to go, but what is the use of staying. What would I write to her? I guess I could apologize to her, simply apologize to her for liking her, for leading her on, for wasting her time. I just hope she doesn't forget this friend of hers.
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Well that's the last of the "Raymond's Diary" chapters. In the next chapter we shall see an insight of how Charmaine feels. Well enjoy you guys! I shall try to update again soon! =)