Two People. Two Worlds. One Soul. [Complete]
by 1_dream
Chapter 7
The Word 'Sorry'
"Charmaine," the person called out.
"Kevin what are you doing here?" startled by his appearance.
"I want to talk to you."
"It's late; I really need to get home."
"I won't be long, I promise," he said as he grabbed a hold of my arm not letting me leave.
"Okay, you have ten minutes."
We walked over to the park near my house and sat on the bench. "So what did you want to talk about?" I asked him.
"Charmaine, I'm sorry," he apologized.
"Sorry for what?"
"I didn't mean to be with Gigi, it's just that you were so indecisive about our relationship all the time, and Gigi, she was different, she opened up her feelings towards me."
Feelings? What feelings could Gigi possibly have towards him; they just met the day before they were officially going out.
"I still like out Charmaine, I really do," he continued. "I didn't mean to hurt you. I really want to be with you still. Charmaine I love you."
I didn't say anything, what did I have to say? I had fallen deep into his trap. His words, his expression, I hate myself. I kept telling myself that he's Gigi's boyfriend now, not mine, and to leave him alone.
Suddenly his arms came around me, and my arms didn't listen to what my brain was telling it. I hugged him in return. It was like my brain was overloaded with thoughts and shut down.
"Does that mean you're not mad at me no more," he asked.
I shook my head.
He walked me back home after and we parted ways. As I watched him walk away I noticed that there was a car parked at the curb, it looked like Raymond's, but how is that possible? The guy went home a while ago. I shrugged my shoulders and just went inside the house.
The next morning I woke up pretty early. My parents had already left for work, and as for me I was in my PJs making breakfast for myself. As I was eating I thought back to last night, and how perfect everything seemed when I was with Kevin, but after thinking of how perfect that very moment was, I thought about how stupid I was to let everything happen.
Suddenly my phone rang, "Beep! Beep!" It was a text message, "Good morning sleepy head. Are you awake yet? I miss you." It was from Kevin. I felt so guilty doing this all behind my friends back. I keep telling myself to stop, but it seemed like there was nothing to keep me back, or maybe it was just that my blindness allowed me to walk forward into a deeper pit.
"Miss you too. I've woken up, have you eaten breakfast yet?" I sent back to him.
Not to long my phone rang again,”Ring! Ring!" this time it was an incoming call.
I picked up the phone, "Hello," I greeted.
"Good morning Ms. Sheh, would you like to join me for lunch this lovely afternoon?" Kevin asked.
"What about Gigi?" I asked, "Don't you have to eat lunch with her?"
"Don't worry about it. She's working today; I don't see her until tonight."
It felt so wrong, and I felt so guilty. Love is can be such a good and bad thing. I sighed. "I don't know Kevin, I don't know if this is all such a good idea."
"It's not a good idea, because it's a great idea. I'll come pick you up in half an hour. Go get dressed, it'll be my treat."
After we hung up I got changed, and sat on my couch. So many thoughts were going on in my head. I knew it was wrong, yet I don't know why I did it. Every time he spoke to me, his words were so sweet. I don't know what to do. I keep telling myself to tell him that we have to stop this and that he has Gigi now but something keeps holding me back. It's like I don't want to truly let him go. Now I understand why people say, "Love is blind."
Not too long after Kevin was at my door, "I see you're all dressed," he said, "Let's go," he finished as he grabbed my hand.
"Wait," I said. I wanted to say something, but all I did was look at him. It was as though there was a frog in my throat preventing me from saying what I thought about our little relationship.
"What's wrong Charmaine? Are you not feeling well?" he asked as he held me by the shoulders.
I shook my head, and along with it my thoughts of stopping my stupidity. "Nothing, I just need to lock the door."
We got into his car and went to a restaurant down by the lake. The restaurant was quiet, and there weren't that many people. After we finished ordering he looked at me.
"Is there something you want to ask me?" I asked him.
He reached over and held my hand. "You know Charmaine, I really like you. I'm sorry that I hurt you."
I moved my hand away from his, his words were all wrong, how could he say that to me? He has Gigi. He has Gigi, I kept telling myself. "Kevin, this is all wrong, you have Gigi, and we can't be -"
He cut me off, "You have that guy of yours too, but I don't mind."
"What guy?"
"The guy that was with you at the store yesterday. He even drove you home at night, and said that he was your boyfriend."
Realizing that Raymond had pretended to be my boyfriend yesterday I wanted to explain to him what had actually happened. Then again, I felt like there was no need to explain to him anything. If he truly likes me, he should believe me. "He's not my boyfriend," I said abruptly. "He was just pretending to be my boyfriend."
"Well he was a weird guy. It wasn't even sunny yesterday, nor was it cold and he was in these huge shades and a hat. I don't think you should hang around him too much."
I didn't say anything. I found him rude to judge Raymond like that. Celebrities have lives too. It's just all those reporters that prevent them from having a good time while they are going out sometimes. I realized that the life of a celebrity isn't as pretty as it might seem. After all they're humans too.
When our plates arrived, we both ate in silence. After we finished he paid the waiter, and the only things he said to me was, "Let's go."
He seemed so cold, but deep inside, I felt like it was my fault for making him mad. I ran up to him and held his arm, "Are you mad at me?" He just kept walking. We got to the car and I walked over to the passenger's side, but suddenly a car sped by.
"Careful!" Kevin yelled. "Are you okay?" He walked over to me; I was okay, but just a little startled. I nodded my head as he opened to the door for me to sit down. He helped me down to my seat slowly.
"I didn't mean to talk about you're friend like that, and I know that I shouldn't have judged you're friend like that. It just made me really frustrated to think that he was your boyfriend," Kevin finally spoke up. "I'm not mad at you, but myself. Sorry."
"It's okay, but I don't want you to say the word 'sorry' to me again, you have used it too many times already since I seen you yesterday. 'Sorry' is a meaningful, yet hurtful word. It's a word that is supposed to show one's sincere apology when they did something truly wrong. And if one knows what they are doing is wrong and still did it, they aren't that 'sorry' are they?" I joked with him.
He smiled at me, "I'll take you back home."
Though we didn't say a word on our way back to my place the atmosphere wasn't awkward, but more peaceful.
Upon arrival he said, "I'll call you sometime." Giving me a peck on the cheek, I nodded at him and got out of the car walking back home. Luckily my parents weren't home yet or they would've questioned me non-stop about Kevin driving me home.
I decided to give Tavia a call to see what she was up to. I waited on the phone hearing the dial tone repeat over and over again until finally she picked up. "What took you so long?" I complained.
"Sorry Miss Charmaine, I was doing something," she said in an exhausted tone.
"Well I don't care about what you were doing, but what are you doing right now?"
"Nothing really. Just watching TV, I'm supposed to go over to Ray's house later for dinner."
"Why do you guys always go to Ray's?"
"Because he's the only one who lives on his own. Ron lives with his sister, and Bosco is living with his parents."
"Oh, I see. Well I was thinking of going to your place and talk but since you're going out, I don't want to bother you."
"You can come along too, it's not like you don't know the guys," Tavia burst into laughter after she said that.
"What's so funny?" I wasn't too sure what she was laughing about.
"The irony of what I just said. I almost forgot you actually didn't know the guys when you first met them."
"It's not that funny. Besides, you know how I am, I don't listen to music that much, nor do I watch gossip TV and read gossip news. Even if I do listen to music, I don't know the song's name or singer 99% of the time." It's true, sometimes I feel outdated on what's going on in the entertainment circle, but that's not my business, it's not like I would expect to know the people, and their business, is not my business.
"Oh boy Charmaine, you should join the crowd sometimes. Luckily you dress good, or you won't see me walking anywhere around you," Tavia joked.
"Hey, that's mean," I said pretending that her compliment was mean. My news might not be up-to-date sometimes, but at least my wardrobe is.
When the both of us calmed down she finally asked what she has been wanting to know. "So how did the meeting with Kevin turn out today?"
I really wanted to tell her that Kevin and I are together, but then again, knowing how wrong I was to do what I have done, I felt ashamed to announce it to anyone. "I decided not to see him," I made up.
"That's good Charmaine," Tavia said relieved. "That guy isn't going to do you any good. He hurt you once, and he can definitely hurt you again."
She was right. This relationship we have now is definitely going to hurt us again.
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Hey guys, thanks for your comments! =D
lol Helen, yeah I guess we've been talking about different scenes. I'm really disappointed that TVB has cutted out Charray scenes too, I never expected that. As for Ida's fanfic, I've been skimming through her story and it's great, but I haven't had time to read it yet. I found it funny how we both used Kevin too. I didn't really want to use Kevin at first, like he wasn't a character I had in mind when I started to write this fanfic. I'm not too sure why I picked him, it wasn't like I didn't like him. I guess it's just that he was the first one that came to mind when I decided to start posting.
Thanks Amy for you're comment, but you should post up you're stories too. It's a great feeling when you hear feedback from your readers. Sorry about the typos, it's actually one of my pet peeves to see errors in my writing, and one of the reasons why I don't find myself as a good writer. I usually go back and skim through it once to check for mistakes, but I never catch them all.
Well there's no Charray in this chapter, but maybe the next one. Stay tuned, and hope you guys still are able to enjoy this Charray-less bit. Don't forget to comment! =D
I'll try to update ASAP!