Two People. Two Worlds. One Soul. [Complete]
by 1_dream
Chapter 9
The Missing Element
As I wiped away my tears as I heard the telephone rang. "Hello," I greeted as I picked up the phone. It was my parents; they wanted me to stay at home for dinner. "Okay, bye," I said as I ended the call.
I walked back over the Raymond whom I left in the kitchen. He was mopping up the floor. "Raymond, don't worry about it, I'll mop it up later."
"It's okay, I was played a part in making this mess, so I should help you clean it up."
He was a really nice guy. Although we just met a few days ago, he has already helped me a lot. Our relationship started out surprisingly close, and it just seems that with every time we meet, we just get closer.
"If you say so," I told him. "Just don't complain when you are done."
With the two of us cleaning up together, it wasn't too long before we finished. When we were done we went over into the living room to sit down.
"So where should we go have dinner Charmaine?" he asked.
Realizing that my parents wanted me to stay home for dinner, I apologized, "Sorry Raymond, I don't think I can go tonight. My parents want me to stay home."
"It's okay, you’re the one saving me money," he chuckled. "I guess I better get going then."
"We'll have dinner next time then?" I said as we walked towards the door.
"If you're treating me," he joked. "Just give me a call when you're free. Remember you're not alone."
I watched his image disappear into the distance.
The next day was all cloudy and it seemed like it was going to rain making me feel all moody and depressed. Looking at my phone while I laid down on the couch I realized Kevin sent me a text message, "Charmaine, I miss you. How come you didn't reply to my text last time? Is everything okay?" I tossed the cell phone over to the other end of the couch not wanting to look at it, confront it, and deal with it at the moment.
I had a big headache, and I didn't feel like eating. I just slept on the couch and turned on the TV to keep my mind occupied. Not too long after my eyes began to shut tight, as I was falling into my deep sleep, I heard the doorbell ring, but I thought it was merely a dream.
When I had woken up two hours had already passed. I walked over to open the window, It was raining cats and dogs outside, and the clouds were darker than I could have imagined. From the window I noticed a car parked outside in my drive way. The car didn't belong to my parents, but it indeed looked familiar. Suddenly the doorbell rang, "Ding! Dong!"
I ran over to the door and opened it seeing Kevin crouched down with his back against the front wall of the house. He was soaked. Hearing me open the door his head turned around and he quickly got up.
"Charmaine," he cried. "Why didn't you answer my text messages? Why didn't you open the door for me? Are you mad at me?"
He was wet from head to toe. His hair was dripping with water as I let him in.
"I'll get you a towel," I managed to say looking at him. As I walked downstairs to the laundry room to grab him a fresh towel I was debating on what I should say to him. It was like a battle between my heart and my brain, with my heart telling me to stay with him, and my brain calling me "stupid" and to leave him.
When I went back upstairs with the towel he was still standing on the rug at the entrance. "Why didn't you come in and sit?" I asked him.
"I didn't want to wet you're floor and furniture."
I handed him the towel, "Here, dry yourself. You don't want to catch a cold."
"Thank-you." He looked at me, waiting for me to answer his long list of questions.
Trying to avoid eye-contact I spoke up, "I'll look for some dry clothes that you can change into so that I can go dry the ones you're wearing now."
I saw him nod at me as I ran upstairs. I went through my closet remembering that I once bought a unisex gym uniform when I planned to take Phy. Ed in high school which never ended up happening. I also remembered that the uniform was far too big for me. It took me a while but I found it and school tag was still on it.
Walking back downstairs I handed over the clothes to Kevin, "This should fit you." There was an awkward silence as he just looked at me. "Umm... how about you go to the bathroom and change so I can go dry your clothes."
Leading him to the bathroom downstairs by the laundry room he walked in, but then he walked back out, "Thanks."
As he was changing I was going over what to say to him when he came out. I wasn't too sure how to make it seem nice, and not hurtful, for him, and for me.
The door opened and he walked out with his wet clothes.
"Just toss them in the dryer," I said pointing over the laundry room. When he walked back out I asked, "Have you eaten yet?"
He shook his head.
"How about I make you something?" I asked. We walked back upstairs and I went to the fridge. He sat in the spot Raymond had sat in yesterday. I took out the leftover toppings we had yesterday. "What do you want on your sandwich?"
He pointed to a few things but he didn't say a word.
I finished making him the sandwich and handed it to him.
"Thanks," he said. He took the sandwich and stared at me for a while as I was cleaning up. With my back facing him, he asked, "What's going on between us? Why didn't you answer the door for me when I rang it the first time? Are you avoiding me?"
He hasn't spoken so much after he came in, and when he does he asks the lists of questions like he did at the door. Wait a minute; he said that I didn't answer the door for him, "What are you talking about? I did answer the door for you when you rang the doorbell?"
"I was out there for two hours Charmaine, and I have been ringing it every five minutes ever since I arrived," he argued back.
Thinking back I recall hearing the doorbell ringing when I fell asleep, I thought it was only a dream, but I guess it wasn't. "Sorry," I apologized. "I was asleep earlier, so I guess I didn't hear the bell."
"Why didn't you reply to my text messages then?"
"I..." I began not knowing how to answer his question. I took a deep breath a blurted, "I just couldn't answer your messages."
"Why Charmaine?"
"You and Gigi are together, what else do you want me to do? Actually be with you. It's impossible. I feel guilty every time I'm with you as happy as I may seem."
"But Charmaine, I love you."
There he goes again. His heart sinking words and that face of his, somebody kill me. When will my plan to break up with him follow through? My head tilted down, "I do too," there goes my heart talking before my brained allowed it to. "I really want to be with you, but I can't."
He walked up behind me and pulled me into his embrace. "Charmaine, we can do this. As long as you're willing to put in that little effort," he whispered into my ear.
I nodded as I leaned my head back against his chest.
"How about I help you clean the dishes?"
"What about your sandwich?"
"I'll finish it later."
As he washed the dishes, I rinsed them. When he had finished he took his bubbly hands and touched the side of my cheek.
"Hey," I squealed. I splashed water back at him.
"Oh yeah?" he said as he looked at me. "Don't think you can get away with that."
The two of us fooled around. As we did it reminded me of yesterday when I fooled around with Raymond. The feeling I had inside was a little different though, something was missing in the whole experience. I just couldn't put a foot on what it was.
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Thanks for the comments you guys! =) Well here's my update. It isn't as long as I was hoping for it to be, so I think I'll be updating again really soon.
For those who are watching DOL right now, did any of you watch the scene on the tram =D? It wasn't as long and satisfying as I hoped for, but it was still good. It's disappointing that there won't be any Charray scenes for a while... don't feel very patient.
Well anyways enjoy this chapter, and stay tuned to find out that missing element =D. Don't forget to comment.