| Fan Fiction |
by changminXmc (COMPLETE)
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Selina Lee is a girl who is not a perfect girl but can be fun and outgoing at times. 18 years old and has good grades. She can be shy around people when she meet them for the first time but then not when you get to know her. Selina is a girl who has had a crush on Jaejoong for quite a while but whenever she tries to confess her love to him he changes the topic. But everything changed when he starts to like this person and actually tries to get her. That was when I knew I could never be with him.
Selin pov: Today was another day at school and with Jaejoong who I longed and had a crush on since we were childhood friends. I walked to school and met Jaejoong half way. "Hey! Oppa!" I yelled and ran as I saw the man who I loved ever since we were childhood friends.
I saw yet another girl with him but still he said hi to me because we are always together and we knew each other very good. "Hey Nana" He said as he was hugging the girl but still looking at me. "Hey Selina" His girlfriend said as I ran over to them. "Hi" I said and smiled even though I was happy.
Of course I had to fake a smile for him because he was the person I loved. If he was happy then I would be happy too. That's what I thought until he met this one girl.
"Come on, let's walk to school together." Jaejoong said but I insisted. "Nah, I'm ok. I'll walk alone." I said and walked ahead them. "Nana" Jaejoong called but I didn't answer. All I did was wave bye but didn't turn around since I was a bit teary from seeing him with another girl.
Of course I was used to him having girlfriends but I would be teary everytime I see him with another girl. If I couldn't be with him I at least remain friends with him forever.
At school I took my seat next to my best friend Min-ja. "Hey Min-ja" I said as I walked to her and took my seat. "Hey Selina!" She said as she saw me. "So you saw that girl right?" Min-ja said. "Jaejoong girl?" I asked. "Yeah that girl" Min-ja said. "Yeah why?" I asked. "Nothing just because you know." Min-ja said and I knew what she was talking about. Min-ja was one of my best friend.
Since I couldn't tell all my problem to Jaejoong cause I had a one sided love on him, I had to tell someone else. And Min-ja was there for me when I needed someone to listen to my problem, she was always supporting me and keeping secrets that I told her.
Like my one sided love. "I know Min-ja" I said and a frown appeared on my face. "I'm sorry Selina. I shouldn've never talked about that in the first place." Min-ja said and was sad. "It's ok. It's now your fault." I told her and she smiled a little. I showed a small smile too and waited for the teacher to come.
I forgot to tell you, Jaejoong was in the same class at me so I would see him all day. Although Jaejoong knew I liked him he only saw me as a little sister. I saw Jaejoong come in class with his black and silky beautfiul hair. Every girl was always crazy over him but it seems that he didn't like all the girls that he dated nor did he find love in them.
I watch him as he take his seat. All the girls ran over to him but I didn't. I knew that even if I ran over to him he wouldn't date me and the girls will won't even let me get near him. "Selina, why won't you go over?" Min-ja asked. "Because I know that it will never come true." I told Min-ja.
"Oh come on, just try. Even though he changed the topic you still have to confess to him." Min-ja said and gave me a considerate look. "Sigh, I don't know about this." I told Min-ja. "Why not? You love him right?" Min-ja said. "I do but it's not that easy like you think." I told her. "Ok, ok. Let's stop talking about this and just enjoy our time at school." Min-ja said and I nodded.
Of course, I would never be with him. He didn't really like me as much as I did. Soon after a few minutes the teacher came in and we all quiet down. "Hello class, I have some news for you all." The teacher said. "Omo! What is it?" I thought to myself and all the students whispered to each other.
"Quiet down class. We have a new student transfer here. She is from the state and just came back the day before yesturday. Come in." The teacher said and she came in. "Please introduce yourself to the class." The teacher said and she nodded. "Hello, My name is SooJin. I just came from the state the day before yesturday as the teacher already said. I'm hoping to get along with everyone." She said and gave a bow.
"Ok SooJin, you can sit next to Kim Jaejoong." The teacher said as she looked at our name tags who was Jaejoong. She walked to Jaejoong and sat next to him. "Why do I feel like crying all of the sudden?" I asked myself and saw that Jaejoong and Soojin was talking so comfortable with each other.
"Selina, don't think too much. It's just her first day at school." Min-ja said and I nodded. It was true, maybe I was just thinking took much and sometimes I would jump to conclusions too soon. But when I looked back at Jaejoong his eyes were different. This time his eyes were as if he found something he loved and wanted really bad.
It was as if he liked her and he couldn't take his eyes off her. I just thought that she was going to end up like those other girls who Jaejoong dated and dumped after he had fun with them or never felt anything for them anymore.
"Sigh, I'll just try thinking about something else." I said and looked at the teacher as she wrote notes for us to copy.
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After school.
Selina pov: I was walking out of school and wondered what I was going to do today. "Sigh, if I go home there's nothing to do but do my homework and stay home and be bored. But I did tell Jaejoong to come over so he would come and accompany me." I said to myself.
I walked home and it was about 5:30. I decided to clean the house and prepare some food for Jaejoong when he comes over. Cause he would always come over since childhood and we would always play.
Flash back.
"Jaejoong oppa! Here!" Selina said as she handed Jaejoong a piece of paper. "What's this?" Jaejoong asked. "It's for you!" Selina said as she was very happy. "Really Selina? You love me?" Jaejoong said to the little cute kid of Selina as they were still little kids. "Yes Oppa! I love you!" Selina said with her shy face but a big smile on. "I love you too Selina." Jaejoong said and hugged her. "Yay! Oppa loves me!" Selina shouted and was happy that Jaejoong loved her. But she didn't know that Jaejoong only loved her like a little sister until they got older.
"Jaejoong Oppa, Do you still love me?" Selina asked as they were teenagers already. "Yes, I still love my little sister." Jaejoong said to Selina. "Little sister?" Selina said and looked at him with a confused face. "Yes, I love you as my little sister. Remember we loved each other when we were little kids. I said I loved you as a little sister." Jaejoong said as she was over Jaejoong house.
"Oh.......ok." Selina said as she was sad. Selina was sad because she had mistook what Jaejoong said years ago when they were kids and thought that he loved her as a girlfriend but he didn't. He only loved her as a little siser and Selina felt sad for that.
A tear fell down Selina face and Jaejoong notice that she was crying. "Selina, what's wrong?" Jaejoong asked as he cupped her face up. "It's nothing. I'm fine." She said as she wiped her tear away. "Are you sure?" Jaejoong asked. "Yes." Selina said and faked a smile. "Omo! It's time for me to go. Bye Jaejoong." Selina said as she got up and walked out of his room. "Wait Selina!" Jaejoong called her but she didn't stop.
Selina pov: "How can I be so dumb?! For all these years he was only looking at me as a little siser. What a dumn person I am!" I yelled at myself and walked home in the rain. It was pouring hard and I didn't bring a umbrella. "Aish, why do it have to rain now?" I asked myself and was soaked and wet when I was walking home.
When I got home I was all soaked and wet. My hair was drenched and my clothes we as wet as water. I hurried and took them off and went to take a hot bath. As I was in the bath I still hear those words echo in my ears in this bathroom. "Yes, I love you as my little sister. Remember we loved each other when we were little kids. I said I loved you as a little sister." Those words just kept on echoing in my ears.
"Jaejoong ah, don't you know how much I love you and how much it meant to me when you said those words to me? I thought that you love me but it was only as a sister." I was so said that I didn't even want to see Jaejoong anymore but it wasn't his fault. It was mines for thinking that he loved me as a girlfriend. From there on I knew that Jaejoong never loved me but I still try to confess to him hoping that one day he would accept me.
Flash ends.
Selina pov: It was now 7:00 and Jaejoong showed up. "Ding Dong." The door bell ring and I went to get it. "Hey Jaejoong!" I said as I saw him. "Hi Selina" He said and walked in.
"So, are we studying together today?" I asked and closed the door. "Selina, it's something I need your help with. Can you help me?" Jaejoong said as he looked at me while standing in the middle of the room.
"What is it?" I asked. "Well its......."
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Well, yeah, this is it. Hope you liked it, I'm going to post all the 8 chapters on here now. So yeah, enoy reading.
Please excuse my mistakes. Uh, The selina in this story isn't well, I don't know but this Selina is Autumndreamer. So yeah. That's it! Thanks for reading!
Quote:
"I thought I could love you but I was wrong"
11-25-08