| Fan Fiction |
by AlexaDBSK
After two weeks, we met again. I got her cell phone number and asked her to go out, just like friends. I especially wanted to make up because I ruined her dress. We went to the amusement park and we had fun. I loved and still love the way she laughs. It made me feel good whenever she was laughing even without a reason. We kept in touch for another month. I was seeing her anytime I had free time and we were going out. At least, I decided to confess to her. It was still early, since we known each other for two months, but I didn’t care. I wanted to be with her.
So I took her to a place she didn’t know, my favorite place. It was a park next to the river, where you could hear birds singing and all these romantic stuff. I wasn’t really romantic but for her I could be everything. So I did. And she said yes! My heart trembled a little, because she was hesitating, but when I heard that beautiful “Yes” I was so happy that I forgot everything. She turned 18 the next day and I could never imagined that she dump her friends so that she could be with me. It was my last day in Korea; I had to go for two weeks to make a photo book with the band and that day was the only day I could spend with her before I leave… that day… June 19th, 2006… it was great! We stayed all day together, talking, laughing and enjoying each others company. When the night came, we went to a club, where we danced until 1 am. We had a great time and I said then to take her back home. But she had other plans…
We went to the park and stayed there, holding hands and kissing. I was already heating up, but I don’t know, I didn’t want to force her. I knew that someday she’ll be mine, just mine and then we’ll do everything. And by that I really meant everything…
I left her in Seoul as my heart broke apart. I guess I had a feeling that I will do something bad… In these two weeks, I… I cheated her… I know I am an idiot; I should have never done that. But I and my band mates went to a club and there was this girl… I drank a little so the alcohol made its effect. By the time I realized that she was on top of me, she already started to kiss me and I was already heated up, so I couldn’t hold back. I never knew who this girl was, but after I did what I did, I felt like shit. And all this time, she was calling me to see how I am… Damn it, you stupid JaeJoong!! I hated myself for that, still… I knew I couldn’t hide it from her. She would have notice, she already knew me like her pocket. So when I came back, I wanted to talk to her. She grabbed me and pulled me towards her and kissed me like I’ve never been kissed before… this made my job a lot more difficult…
-Uh, baby…
-What is it?
-I… I’m so sorry…
My tears came up and I saw her face getting worried as she puts her hand on my cheek.
-Jae, what is it? You’re scaring me…
-I… cheated you…
She stop from caressing my cheek and looked shocked at me. I told her everything that happened that night. In the end, a saw a tear coming down from her eye and I wanted to hug her but she didn’t let me.
-Just… just give me some time… do you love me, Jae?
-Of course I do!! Do you think I would have told you what I did if I wouldn’t? Don’t you think that I know too well that I might not be able to kiss you or hug you again because of what I did?
-Jae… I… I’ll call you tomorrow…
She left… leaving me alone there, she left while she started to cry. The next day she called me as she promised. When I heard those words from her, I felt like I was born again.
-I forgive you, JJ…
-You… what?
-I do, I really do… it’s still hurting me, but I forgive you…
I was so happy that I was with her the whole day. I loved her more than anything, more than anyone…
And so, 2 years passed and nothing special happened. No, actually it happened, she was with me, she was by my side everyday and I never wanted to let her go. I could tell she was still hurt by what I did back then but she trusted me and I never cheated her again.
She was going with me and the band everywhere, in Japan and in Korea. The media was already used with my relationship and so were the fans, surprisingly. Her birthday came in June and we were in Japan then so I took her to a restaurant and we ate there something, after that we went home. None of my friends were there, so I took her hand and walked in my room.
-Do you love me? I asked.
-What kind of question is this? Of course, baby!!
-Then, where should we go in our honeymoon?
She started to laugh as she was sitting down on floor in my arms.
-Our honeymoon? I don’t know… maybe Bali?
-Bali?? Why the hell should we go there??
-Hey, don’t talk to me like that, ok?
-Sorry, baby, but I don’t want to go to Bali.
-Fine, then… Italy! Venice, la gondola, the city of the lovers…
-Too romantic for me…
-Aish, you’re never satisfied.
-Oh yes I am… as long as you’re with me…
I started to kiss her slowly and then the kisses turn from sweet into passionate. That night she was mine… I felt she wanted too so I started to kiss more and more and soon after that I was on top of her, both naked. It was the first but also the last time when she was mine…
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“They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
they can take the music that we never play
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
they can take the future that we'll never know
they can take the places that we said we will go
all the broken dreams take everything
just take it away, but they can never have yesterday”