| Fan Fiction |
by AlexaDBSK
Still… my ex didn’t want me to leave that soon so she asked me to go to a club so that we can talk a little more. So I did; after 20 minutes we were in a club, talking and laughing as we remembered the past. It was nothing wrong with it, but then Ayumi suddenly called.
-Hello?
-Baby, where are you??
-Uh, I am in a club right now, can’t hear you very well.
-Oh, ok, I just wanted to know when you’ll get home so I can cook something delicious for you.
-JaeJoong-ah, let’s dance!!
I thought I was going to die! She talked when Ayumi was on the phone and she heard her of course.
-Who’s that?
-Uh… just a friend!
“Damn it, why did you lie??” I said in my mind.
-What friend?
-Ayumi, you don’t have to worry, ok? It’s just a friend…
-Well, I have reasons to worry, don’t you think?
She shut my mouth up. I didn’t know what more I could say, so I just thought at something.
-Ok, I’ll be home in 30 minutes.
-Fine!
But before she hung up the phone, she heard what my ex said.
-JJ-oppa, have I told you that you look so good?
I didn’t get home after 30 minutes; I got home after 2 hours. She waited for me, staying at the table with the dinner but it was already cold.
-Uh… I’m sorry, I really am…
-Yeah… I know you are… just please stop lying to me…
-What do you mean?
-Who was that?
-Uh… my ex girlfriend…
-So you couldn’t tell me?? Jae, I really want this to work out but I still didn’t forget what you did back then.
-I said I was sorry, what else do you want??
-I want to know that I can trust you… That’s what I want!! So if you want to be with your ex more than with me, then go and be with her!!
-Oh, well, maybe I will! She asked me to meet her tomorrow again and I think I’ll go!!
I could see that she was about to cry, but was all red because she was angry. She got out from the kitchen and went upstairs, sleeping in her room, not in mine.
How stupid was I few months ago… I’m 22 and I’m still childish… I can’t believe she’s not with me anymore; I want her so bad that I could die to bring her back… Next day, she woke up before me and left to a place. Even today I still don’t know where she went. I was mad because I had a fight with her so I accepted my ex’s invitation and at 3 pm I met her at the mall. We were talking at a café store when I received a phone call…
I rushed at the hospital as fast as I could; my motorcycle was running on the street. I felt my head in pain, as I remembered what the manager told me: “Ayumi… she’s at the hospital…”
I got there in 10 minutes and when I got to the 3rd floor where she was I was stunned. She was in a coma… her breathing was sustained by the machines. The tears started to fall down on my cheeks and after a few more minutes I saw the guys coming too. I hold onto Yunho and Yoochun and started to cry as much as I could… it was the first time in my life when I cried so much…
I talked to the manager and he told me what happened… she went to the studio in the morning because she wanted to talk to Yunhee (her best friend, Yoochun’s girlfriend). She wanted to tell her everything that happened with JJ, but Yunhee wasn’t there, she went shopping. The manager saw her and as her uncle, concerned that she was crying, he asked her what happened so she told him. After that, she got out from the building, still with tears in her eyes. She didn’t pay attention that a crazy driver lost control of the car and went straight into her and another 2 people that were on the sidewalk.
Ayumi was injured the most, the other 2 persons had several bruises and wounds but they were alive… her life was in great danger…
The manager punched me really hard when I told him that I’m sorry and that I totally understand. He said I’m lucky that he doesn’t mix personal life with professional one otherwise right now I would be out of the band…
She was in coma for 3 months and still didn’t wake up… I felt like it was my entire fault! If I wouldn’t be so damn arrogant and selfish I would have never let her wait for me that night…
One day, I got in her room, I begged the doctor to go there, because I needed to see her closer. So there I am, standing besides her bed… her sweet face is full of bruises and I just can’t look at her because I feel guilty. I got closer to her ear and at first I kissed her cheek.
-Hey, baby… I know you can hear me, Ayumi… Please, I beg you… wake up… blink, please!!
I started to cry, as I was begging her to live for me, for her… for the both of us…
-Please… open your eyes, baby… look at me… feel me; feel my hand touching you…
The doctor got into the room and he took a look on her observation file. I stood up and asked him how her state is.
-Well…
-Don’t lie, doctor, please! I need to know…
-She may wake up… for the last days she responded a little to the stimulus…but still, if she wakes up there will be a lot of problems.
-Why is that?
-Well, what we know so far is that she has several brain damages. What we don’t know is how bad they are… we don’t know how she is going to be affected by this…
-She’s strong, I know she can make it… she’ll wake up!
But she didn’t… I was down at the restaurant of the hospital when I heard something.
“Doctor Furua is asked to come as quickly as possible in room number 305”. Her room…
I knew something bad happened, but when I got up her room was empty. “What’s this?” I thought and immediately my mind was full of happiness. “That means that she woke up, right??”
But I heard that sound… the terrifying sound that devices make when…
“No!! She’s not dead, she’s here somewhere”, I said angry.
Her uncle was crying as he was leaning against a wall and then I realized… she was gone…
The guys saw the scene too and they thought at the exact same thing I was thinking. They grabbed me and took me out of the hospital even though I was screaming because I wanted to see her; I wanted to tell her how much I love her… I wanted to be with her…
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“You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
I never believed until now
I know I’ll see you again I’m sure
no its not selfish to ask for more
one more night one more day one more smile on your face
but they cant take yesterday”