| Fan Fiction |
by Re Réee
They were training for their Asia Tour and Jaejoong told the other two members what had happened between Yoochun and Yunho. Changmin felt felt really angry at Yunho, he fooled them! But the he felt so sad...He understood Yunho's pain and wanted to help him to win Yoochun back. In front of everyone and in front of the reporters they acted like they were best friends but at home and in the recording studios Yoochun ignores Yunho's words and didn't care about what he said or thought. “It's all my fault.” Said Yunho seating on the floor resting from their practice; the other members seat next to him with worried looks on their faces. Yunho had gotten tinner and people could see he hadn't been sleeping well; he had black marks under his eyes and they were always red. “Hyung...you can't blame yourself anymore...” Said Junsu trying to relax their leader. Yunho gave a really small smile knowing his friends were always trying their best to make everything look positive. “Thanks Junsu...But it is my fault...I was so focused in my own hatred I could see what was right in front of me...” “Yunho...” Whispered Jaejoong seeing tears running from Yunho's eyes. Yunho since that day has been crying every single night with guilt and Jaejoong couldn't take it anymore. He knew Yunho had been a total jackass but anyone could see how he regretted everything, every single word that camed from his mouth for the past years. “If you want, we can talk to Yoochun-hyung!” Started Changmin with a hopeful smile. “I'm sure he'll listen to us!” “Don't do a thing like that.” “W...Why?” “I don't want him to think you're against him...maybe this is the way things should be...” “You mean you heart broken and a emotionless Yoochun?” Started Junsu not understanding why his hyung's were like that. Yes, they had both suffered but know they should get together...right?
“Hyung, we must do something!” said Junsu grabbing Yunho's hands. He looked to the cute man who was now with tears coming from his eyes. “You noticed how Yoochun sings now...he doesn't show emotion at all, not even when we sing 'Balloons', the happiest song we have...he just stays there with a serious face singing it...he's not the same.” Yunho knew all of this but what could he do? Yoochun wouldn't look to his face not even if his life dependent on it.
Yunho didn't said a word, he just got up and left the members alone with worried faces. They didn't know what to do to help their friends. Walking around the building Yunho heard a piano melody and he only knew one person who could play like that so he followed the melody until he saw Yoochun playing. Yunho could see him from outside even thought he wanted to open the door he didn't; he just stood there looking at the beautiful man. 'Yoochun...I want to hold you...I want to hold you just one last time, please.' He thought seeing how much pain was in the melody and Yunho felt even guiltier; then the melody stopped and Yunho saw Yoochun crying so much. “Yunho, what did I do to you? I always respected you...I never did anything for you to hate me so much....” Yunho was able to listen to everything and runned away from there the fastest as he could; he just didn't want to hear those things anymore, especially because he knew they were all truth. 'I'm sorry Yoochun! I'm sorry!' He screamed on his mind; he got a shower, got dressed and then went home walking, seeing the snow falling from the sky; the last time snow had followed it was when he and Yoochun shared that sweet it painful moment. He continued walking and saw the night life almost dead. The only thing you could see right now was the lights of the few cars and from people on their houses, with warm and loving feelings. “What should I do? I know you won't ever forgive me...But I just love you so much, I would do anything for you. If I could I would get the moon itself just to see you smile; Even if I create hundreds of songs I wouldn't be able to tell you how I much I need you....” Yunho stopped feeling his legs and felt on his knees on the floor not caring if people saw him in that state.
He looked to the dark sky and tears camed to his eyes. “Yoochun...please forgive me. You're the only thing I have in this world...I can't leave without you...” His eyes went blanc and he fainted there in the middle of the street but no one was passing at that time so his body started to be covered by snow and getting colder and colder.
Preparing to go home, the four man went to the car until they found out Yunho was no where to be seeing. “Do you know where hyung went, Joongie?” Asked Junsu looking to his boyfriend but he shocked his head. “No, I didn't saw him since practice...” “Me either...” Said Changmin and all of them started to worry. “Where do you think he is...” “I don't know...it's really cold outside, he can get sick!” After hearing this Yoochun felt a pain in his heart and just knew something bad had happened to Yunho. “I'm going to look for him.” He said and was about to leave until Junsu stopped him. “Are you crazy? It's freezing outside and it's dangerous and you don't know where to start looking for him!” “I need to try!” Junsu saw Yoochun's eyes and he saw fear, but at the same time he saw love towards the other man so he letted him go not caring about what the other men could say. “Why did you let him go?” Asked Changmin really worried. “If you saw his eyes....you would do the same thing, believe me.” They didn't say anything else, they just nodded and hoped that Yoochun could find Yunho before it was too late.
He was running so fast, not caring about anything else than finding Yunho. 'Why do I even care? When the thought of him being in danger camed to my mind I just wanted to panic. He can't be in danger.' Yoochun was running even more until he saw someone on the floor with difficulty to breath and the pain in heart got even worst. 'Please don't be you...please don't.' He got closer and tears camed to his eyes when he saw Yunho's pale face. He touched his check and didn't know what to do, he was cold just like the snow.
He grabbed the older man on his arms trying to warm him and looked to his pale face. “Please Yunho wake up! Wake up! Don' t let the cold take over you, I beg you don't. Just wake up! Now!” Yoochun cried and cried but he wasn't waking up, and he entered in panic; He took his jacket and covered Yunho but he still didn't made a single move. “Please Yunho...wake up....” Yoochun was tired but what could he do? He already called the others but with this snow it would be difficult to them to get there! Yoochun looked to Yunho and he was afraid of loosing him; he didn't care about the fights and Yunho's plans for revenge...he just wanted the older man to live. Getting closer Yoochun kissed softly Yunho's forehead still crying and then the lips who were cold as ice. “Yunho...Yunho....” He hold the leader and felt his breath coming to normal and a hope returned to Yoochun's eyes. Slowly Yunho opened his eyes and looked to Yoochun's face who was filled with tears. “Ch...Chunnie.....” He whispered with a small smile on his face. “Yunho! Thank god you're awake.” “I...I'm sorry...forgive me...” “Don't talk right now...” “I have to...I know if I don't talk now I won't be able to talk other time...” He paused taking a deep breath; This wasn't what he wanted, to confess under the snow in this state! Almost dying! “I want you to forgive me...I want you to forgive everything I did to you...I just can't live anymore if you don't forgive me...” “Yunho don't talk that way, please.” “Let me finish...I...I...Love you Yoochun...” Yunho was waiting for a answer but Yoochun just stood there trying to warm him. “I forgive you. I forgive everything, but now please don't talk...” “Chunnie...do you love me?” “Don't talk right now. Save your strength.” Yunho felt heart broken; Yoochun didn't loved him...But at least he had his forgiveness...then why he felt worst than before...
They arrived home and the first thing they did was call a doctor, but thank god it was just a small thing, he was just weak by lack of sleep and eating really bad. The four man seat in the living room and looked to each other. “I thought he was going to die...” Whispered Yoochun trying his best not to cry but when Changmin hugged him he burst into tears. “I thought he was going to die in my arms....” “He's fine hyung! He's just weak and....” “Whose fault is it?” He asked getting up and looking at all. “It's mine! He stopped eating, he stopped sleeping and it's all my fault!” “It's not your fault Yoochun!” “It is! He even...He said...He said he loves me....” No one spoke and saw Yoochun crying even more. “Do you...do you answered him?” “No...” “How do you feel about him?” Asked Jaejoong and everyone looked at Yoochun who shocked his head. “I don't...I don't know...The thought of loosing him is the most painful thing I ever experienced...But I don't know if that's love...I just don't want to lose him....”
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wow! two chapters (three with the one in the other fic) in one day. I blame the songs!!