Fan Fiction

Beautiful Lies

by BlueBird

Chapter 7

The next day in the afternoon the three of them met at the entrance of the park. Ryo had brought things to eat from the Konbini, Erika had brought something as well, but it was homemade and now they were looking for an ideal place to sit. They wandered through the park, talking cheerily about the old times, their highschool time, without feeling awkward around each other anymore.
Ryo really missed those days. The days where he didn't have to worry about other things than doing his homework or handling his love problems.
Erika pulled him out of his thoughts. „How about over there?“ she asked smiling brightly pointing at something to her right. Ryo's gaze followed her finger and he saw a beautiful looking big tree. Yamapi and Ryo nodded at the same time and after the confirmation of her boys Erika led the way.
They prepared everything for their picnick and started talking again whilst eating the in Erikas case delicious food. Ryo's was just normal, since it was from the Konbini.
Today he had worked with Satomi again. And again he had tried to get her to open up and again he failed. But he didn`t mind if it took some time. He had to gain her trust first and that would take a lot of effort. He wanted to do the same for her as Yui and Yuta had done for him. They had made him enjoy life again and he was really grateful for that. He wanted to show Satomi that she didn't have to do that to herself and he also wanted to know the truth about the incident with her father.
He was deep in thoughts again and when Erika and Yamapi noticed that, Yamapi snapped his fingers in front of his eyes, making Ryo jump a bit in surprise.
„Oh, sorry. Didn't mean to space out like that.“ he apologized smiling sheepishly.
Then he noticed that a music band was preparing their instruments at a close by place and his smile grew wider. The two others watched confused as he stood up and went closer the group. They had started playing now and it was a really beautiful song. They followed him to the place he was standing, watching the guitarist attentively. When they had finished with the song Ryo went up to the guitarist and asked him something. They couldn't understand him, because he was speaking quietly, but the guitarist looked first surprised, but then smiled and handed Ryo the guitar. The two viewers didn't even knew that Ryo knew how to play the guitar and when they heard his play now they were amazingly stunned. He played a different song from the one they had heard before. The band looked at him in surprise as well, especially when he started to sing. Ryo was really glad that there weren't that many people that could hear him. He loved playing guitar and singing a lot and he just felt like it when he saw the band, but he doesn't feel comfortable doing it in front of many people, normally. Now it were just Yamapi, Erika, the band consisting of 3 members and two other people watching them. He closed his eyes and played his tune. Then he sang:

„itsumo yume ni erabarenaimama hi ga nobori shizundeyuku hibi
soko ni boku no sugata ga nakudemo sekai wa kantan ni mawatta
demo koushite tsunaida te hitori janai ne
mune ni Heavenly Psycho ima wa mirai ni mukau michi no tochuu da
namida ni sae mo tomadou kotonaku negai wo utau“

[Translation:
Always in dreams, without any choice, the sun would rise and set everyday,
the world simply turned even without me.
But thus my hand found yours, I’m no longer alone.
In my heart, heavenly psycho, now I’m on the road towards my future.
Even with tears I will sing of my wishes without confusion.]

Ryo opened his eyes surprised when he heard that the band started to adjust to his song. But he didn't stop. He sang the song to the end and noticed then that surprisingly many people were gathered around them.
Erika and Yamapi were still stunned when he had said his thanks to the band and returned to his two friends.
„Wow“ Erika only said when they had returned to their tree. „I didn't know you can play the guitar that well. I know that you like to sing and that you're good at it, but i didn't know about the guitar playing. What song was it?“ she asked curiously and looked him intensely in the eye, making him turn his gaze away from her eyes. He looked at Yamapi instead. He stayed silent for a while. Debating with himself wether to tell them the whole story or not. Then he began:
„A boy i met in Hokkaido taught me guitar playing. We were in the same room ... in the hospital I stayed at“ he answered, choosing his following words carefully. He really didn't like to tell his friends about it, but he knew they had to know the truth. It wasn't fair to keep it to himself when even Yui and Yuta knew everything. So he ignored the surprised and curious expressions on their faces. He layed down on his back and looked at the sky.
„When i was still living here I collapsed when I was at home.“ he started. Erika and yamapi still stayed silent, not wanting to pressure him or make him stop. „It was a week before we moved. I was sent to hospital for a day. They did examinations with me and first they told me that it was probably nothing serious. But after a few more tests they had a diagnosis for me. They told me about it on the same day when my parents came to visit me ... They told me i had a heart disease, which appears quite seldom. I was in a very serious condition then. I had had problems with my heart for a while, especially when we had PE. You hadn't noticed, since we were in different classes. But they told me i had to undergo treatment. And the best treatment I could get was in Hokkaido, since there was a doctor who specialized in my disease and the treatment of it...I left the hospital and my parents fought a lot the following week. They had told me i should travel to Hokkaido alone at first, but they would follow me later, when everything was setteled here in Nagoya. So I went alone, without saying goodbye. I know it wasn't right. I'm still sorry about that, but i was just so...afraid and confused and i've always liked to solve my problems by running away...I'm not sure what i really thought back then, but somehow i had the impression it would be better to leave without telling you whats going on...“ he stopped again for a while, staring guiltily at the sky. He didn't dare to look them in the eyes right now. Then he continued. „I had reached Hokkaido and started my treatment there. After a week had passed, i still hadn't heard anything from my parents. I assumed they were really busy with the move, but they didn't come. The hospital director, Yutas father, came to talk to me and told me that they hadn't gotten any hospital fees from my parents and I started to worry. Had something happened to them? But then a few days later I received a letter. They told me they moved somewhere else and that they hadn't thought I would cost them so much money, when they adopted me ... Of course they didn't say it in such cold words, but thats the message of the letter. Until then I hadn't even known I was adopted and it was quite a schock that they would abandon me, just because of money.“ Ryo closed his eyes, a bitter expression on his face and a scene of him fighting with his parents came to his mind. They had never been such a happy family. The adults just preteded they were, when guests where present and when they were alone they would fight a lot, but Ryo always thought it was normal and that they still loved each other. A moment passed until Ryo started talking again.
„I worked a bit in Hokkaido to earn my hospital fees, but my body didn't endure the physical effort long and I collapsed again. From that point onwards I had to stay in hospital for treatment. I had become goodfriends with Yui and Yuta then and Yuta asked his dad to pay the hospital feees for me until I am in a better condition and his father agreed. My body eventually got better and the medication treatment went well. For a few years, but then it suddenly took a turn for the worse. I had attacks often and they found out they had made a mistake in my diagnosis. It was a differtent type of disease and they started giving me a different medication. But it didn't get better. They said I would die for sure without a surgery and the surgery had a survivel percentage of 90%, so i underwent it. They succeeded, obviously. But it took me a long time to recover from it. They continued medication, since there was a possibility of the disease coming back. I started getting back to normal life in Hokkaido two years ago. I started working part time, since my body wouldn't endure a full time job yet and I earned money to pay Yuta's father back. Last month i decided then, to return to Nagoya for a while and take alook at how you're doing...“ he finished his story and waited for a response from his two friends. When minutes passed and they still hadn't said anything he got up and looked at them. Yamapi was looking at him with a pitiful expression on his face. One reason why he hadn't told them before was that expression. He hated it when others looked at him that way. He couldn't stand it, so he turned his eyes to Erika. She wasn't looking at him at all. She was looking at the ground and it seemed like she was crying again. Her shoulders were going up and down unregularly. „You ... You should have told us. Before you left i mean. We could have helped you, supported you. We wouldn't have fled from you, even though you're sick!“ she said when she finally raised her head , looking at him with red, puffy eyes. When he heard that he felt guilty again. But not only because of the things he had done 8 years ago. He also felt guilty because he hadn't told them the whole truth again. The reason why he had decided to travel to Nagoya.
Last month he had gone to a check up and the doctor had said that the disease was slowly coming back. He said Ryo had to undergo another surgery, when it was the right time and this time the survival percentage would be much smaller...
But he didn't want to tell them, to worry them. Yui and Yuta didn't know as well, since he had asked the doctor not to tell them. He still had over half a year, since the surgery was sheduled for autumn.

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I'm really sorry about the delay of this chapter. I have actually managed it to demolish my keyboard.
Now i have a new one and here is your new chapter. I hope youre not disappointed by it or because of Ryo's reason.
At first Ryo just played the guitar (since i love it when i see im play ^^) but somehow he ended up singing as well xD If you wonder, this song is Heavenly Psycho by Kanjani8. Saw a video of his solo version and i loved it.