Fan Fiction |
by BBG and LL
From all this time, she never realized that she like Edison until now. From all the things Edison had done for her, now she just realized it. But the reaction Edison just had done had crushed her heart. It hurt her mentally as well as physically. She thought that she could trust Edison. Even though Edison like her, but she never realized or expect he can do such a thing to her. She thought that Edison was her friend, but turn out, all her trusts for him are gone now.
As she tried her best to walk in the rain and go home, behind her, Edison was yelling out her name. Walking in the rain, she tried her best to not hear what Edison saying. She keep walking and act like she didn’t hear anything from him. She doesn’t want to hear his voice again. She doesn’t want to think about what he had done to her. She doesn’t want to remember the pain he brought to her as well as the pain Jordan brought in the past. She tried to not to fall in love again, but now ending up, she like Edison. But why does Edison need to break her heart once again.
Edison quickly saw Gillian and he immediately run up to her. His face expressing his guiltiness of what he had been doing.
“Gillian!” He yelled. He yelled really loud and try to get Gillian’s attention. Gillian keep ignoring him by covering her ears. She quickly walk away fast and not letting Edison catching up with her. Edison now is catching up with Gillian.
“Gillian” Edison repeated. “I’m really sorry! I…I…I don’t know what I was doing tonight. I am…I don’t know what to say. I’m…”
“Do you think your sorry help? What if someone slap you and say sorry later? You still feel the pain. Sorry doesn’t help and heal the pain. Do you think I can accept your apologize? I…I…I don’t know what to tell you either. I thought you my friend! I thought you the guy I can trust and be friends with. I guess my judgment was wrong. You don’t need to say anything else. The only thing to do right now is to leave me alone. I really need time to think of what I had done and making you do this to me. Why God is being so unfair to me. First, my parents die. Later, the guy that I love the most hurt me. And now you do the same thing like he did. Is it true that all guys are such a jerk? Why do you people want to break someone else heart and laugh when they are in the misery. You guys are so stupid…” Gillian cried. She doesn’t know why she cry. The tears just come out of nowhere and down to her cheek. She quickly turn away and not letting Edison see she crying.
“Gillian, my heart is same as your right now. My feelings are mix up and I am confusing myself too. What do you want me to do Gillian? I don’t know why am I so stupid and I could do such a thing.” Edison slapped himself as he finish the last sentence.
“Edison, let me tell you about me. When I was 16, I like this guy that was 34 years old. I love him more than my life. People say I’m crazy for going out with him and I don’t mind. You asked me so many times why am I acting so cold and mean to you. Do you know why? Is all because of him. He broke my heart, leaving me all alone by myself and later come back and stirred up the pain inside. I loosed a big part of myself I have come to realize. Someone has come in, made a crack in my defenses and manage to escape with something valuable to me. My heart. What should I do? Should I let this criminal go or chase after him and demand what’s rightfully mine? The choices that are on offer, and he is thief! A deceitful person, yet at the same time he is like everyone else. I know I should not trust him but I have. I thought I can trust you, but now I find out that I can’t. You just like him. What will become of me? What do you want me to do Edison I could end up heartbroken and weak or happy and maybe the luckiest girl alive. Only time will tell. Just save it Edison. You don’t need to do anything right now. Just leave my heart alone.”
Gillian’s tears dropped down her cheek, as she covered her mouth to suppress a sob. Walking away with the rain falling down her body, she can feel that her cleanness are now gone.
Gillian quickly got home and run to the bathroom. She never kneeled down in a bathroom crying by her but she tried to end her life thinking that would be best result. From that day on, she completely changed. She have cried herself every night to sleep for a month. She doesn’t need any pity or sympathy. She think good alone, or at least so far. She think she don’t need any friend because if they were not laughing from behind, then they were faking with all the crap comfort. Since then she learned not to trust anyone but herself to stand up on my own. Turn to her best friend instead?
She didn’t even talk to Charlene after that day because she think Charlene had change. Charlene now has a boyfriend and never call Gillian anymore. Gillian hate herself and her life. She hate the incident that night and she do not want to think about it again.
First she learned to get used to things but then she know that she can't just get used to them but need to learn to live with them and ignore them as much if she can. She then started to ignore everything. She work, she eat, she do things normal people do. I just don’t' take anything serious anymore and try to forget everything from the pass. She tried to move on.
After that day, Gillian never see Edison anymore. A week later, Gillian is sick. She keep throwing. She think she is sick so she went to the doctor and check. The doctor says she…
[Written by: BBG]