Fan Fiction |
by BBG and LL
“Why am I here?” Gillian asked in anger.
“Are you alright?” He asked her with his eyes looking down at the floor. He didn't want to look her in the face. “Gill, you know what? After I settled down with you, I thought my life would be at peace like a lake during fall. Without a single wind touching its surface, disturbing the calm” He whispered. He began to look up at her as he continued his explanation. “But the day I met you again at the race, you talked to me like nothing ever happened. I wish nothing ever happened. Or, shall I say you gave me signals, as if you still loved me. You smiled at me, bringing me hope, enough to win the race for you. Did you know that just a nod from you made me fall for you all over again? You smiled at me and later turned away with Edison. Did you know that it really hurt? Am I the only one, the only one who is still in love with you and still cares for you as before?
“What are you rambling about? I am just asking you, why am I here?” Gillian raised her voice up with anger in her face.
“Are you listening to me Gill?” Nicholas slowly walked up to her, wrapping his arms around her in a tight hug. “I missed you so much Gill, please don't leave me again. I forgive everything you've done to me, so please say you will be by my side. I never blamed you for leaving me behind, I just blame on myself, for not giving you the best.”
Gillian was, to say the least, surprised, but it mixed with her anger. Surprised, because a type of person like him actually knows what love is worth, and is not above begging a girl for it. She was mad because somehow, she got into this house after she passed out, and doesn't know what happened. She didn't know what to do. She was unsure if it was him who raped her or if he helped her. She couldn't feel anything wrong though. She figured she should feel tired and weak after it (you know how it feels right? If not, go to hell. I don't want to explain how it feels since it's nasty and everything), but she felt fine, maybe even healthier. Maybe from a short nap after the race and the work? Is it wrong for blame him for being the person who raped her?
Suddenly, Nicholas started to kiss her as he whispered, “I love you.” Gillian refused his kiss by pushing him aside and slapped him. She ran away, but Nic followed her. He quickly caught up with her, but he fell down. Because saving Gillian made him think of his Gill again. He was completely drunk and tripped over his own feet because he was tired.
-Flashback from Nicholas POV-
I was walking down the street and I heard someone screaming. I tried to mind my own business, but somehow, I couldn't. All I wanted was to go home and forget all about this world. My feet wanted to walk away, but my heart wanted to come closer and save her. I didn't regret that I saved her, because she's the girl I was looking for all these years. She left me without giving a reason why, she just broke up with me. I always wondered what I did wrong, but the only thing I could think of, was because I'm a gang leader. But is that really the reason why she left me, or maybe I wasn't good enough for her. I heard her sister say she will get married soon, but why is she here now? And why was she at the race? As I got closer, I saw that guy tearing her shirt off and she was lying on the ground. After I saved her, I quickly took her to my house, hoping she'd be all right. It was raining hard outside, and the storm continued on, causing more blackouts all night. Car alarms went off from roaring thunder, and the sound of pounding rain fill my ears. I didn't want anything to happen to her. I was thinking to myself that should I take her to the hospital. But as I got calmer, I planned to take her to my house. I never felt this way before, it felt like it's me who is being hurt, or maybe something else. It seemed like a thousand needles stabbed my heart all at once.
I'm sitting in the dark living room, that lit by two candles, drinking and thinking. The rest of the house is empty; there is no illumination and no one is there. I want to be alone in the house, comforted by the praying darkness. Maybe its to pass the time while being unpowered, or maybe its because I enjoy writing by candlelight.
She woke up, and I'm sure she thinks that I raped her, but the main thing is that she completely forgot me. I tried to talk to her at the race, but she kept acting like she didn't know me. I didn't really care, because I knew that I truly loved her. I told her that I forgave everything that she had done in the past, and I just wanted her to be in my arms again. She slapped me, but why? She slapped me and run away from me. She is running away from me again. But this time I won't let her run again. I have to change it, I don't want to miss her again. I want her to be by my side, guiding and understanding me. But I fell, why did I fall?
-End Of Nicholas POV-
[Written by: BBG]