Fan Fiction |
by BBG and LL
I walked and walked, trying to get away from him. I didn't want to stop, because for some reason something in me feels like I owe him something, for doing something I don't remember, in the past. But I don't know what it is. I saw him fall down, but I wasn't sure if I should go back. I heard him calling my name. Well, I think it is my name, "Gill". I couldn't stop myself from going back, because I know I might regret it.
I've had so many regrets in my life. I regret living in this world while my parents are dead. I hate myself for continuously thinking about him time and time again, Jordan. Somehow, I don't want to move on with my life, I keep holding on to the past. I know it's my problem. I think I'm just afraid to move on, afraid of change, and afraid of new things that might hurt me again. A person said "If you don't find the courage now, you know that you'll never find the answer and move on. Either you do that, or just find joy in another aspect of your life. The less you think about your problem, the healthier your inner self will be and you just have to try. Don't give yourself excuses to make yourself unhappy." But people will never understand what it is like to want to move on but something is pulling you back. It's not like I haven't tried to concentrate more on the other aspects of life, but everywhere I go and with everything I do, I still can see the image of the past haunting me all the time.
When I was about to let go of everything in the past, he reappeared again. Not saying a word, not speaking to me but his presence just reminded me everything we had shared together, I refused to remember, I forced myself to forget but I couldn't. My heart wouldn't let go. The stupid heart, stubborn heart, why doesn't it listen to me? And something in Nicholas makes me remember Jordan. Is it because of his cold face? I know that he wouldn't treat me like Jordan treated me. Something tells me to trust him, and that he's the person I've been looking for all my life.
I got him back to his house, putting him on his bed so he can rest. I decided to walk home. The cold breeze blew my hair up, and I felt the chilling cold of being alone. I've been living like this for years, but today I wanted to find a person to talk to. I wanted to share my feelings, I needed to get them out. I didn't want to keep this up anymore. I've been acting for my entire life, and I just wanted to be myself again. As I was walking, I heard a car horn behind me. I turn around and see who it was and saw that is was Edison.
-End Of Gillian POV-
“Gillian, what are you doing out here so late?” He asked her with worry as he stared at her clothes. Because Gillian had her clothes tore off, and Nicholas change it for her, but she completely forgot about it. While Edison surprise because for pass few hours, Gillian had a new dress on. She forgot about it and blaming or thinking that Edison being perverted by staring at her just he do that to others girls.
“What are you looking at perverted ass, staring at me like I'm not wearing any clothes.” She started to mock him, like she always did.
“Gillian, can you be nice to me today? It's my birthday, and that's why I've been asking you to come to the racetrack with me. I just wanted to spent my birthday with you, but you left me.” Edison whispered as he come closer to her.
“Oh, it's your birthday, Happy birthday, done? Can I go now?” Gillian turned around and began to leave. Edison quickly walked up to her and pulled her back. And face-to-face, he started to put his hand on her shoulder as he look down trying to finish what he wanted to say.
“Gillian, you know what, I wanted…um…” Edison stutter as he turn away, not knowing if he should tell her or not. Somehow, in front of her, he seemed so paralyzed with nervousness. He seemed mute, not knowing what to say or do. “Gillian, wait here for a second, I'll be back. He quickly walked to his car, getting himself a cigarette to calm his nerves and give him some sort of control over himself.
“Can you hurry up? Say it now or else I'm gonna go.” Gillian began to walk away, but behind her, Edison began to yell, “Gillian, will you be my girlfriend?” Gillian was shocked, she didn't know what to say or do. She didn't expect a girl like her would make a type of guy like him fall for her. She was being mean to him but he said he liked her. He began to walk closer to her as he continued speaking, “I don't know why, but every time I see you, I feel so happy. You bring me joy as much as you bring me surprise. Your madness and your stubbornness makes my heart fall for you. It never happened to me before. Normally, if I like someone, I would tell them straight up. I've been thinking about telling you when you were in school, but I thought you would freak out, so I hid my feelings. Gillian, do you believe in love at first sight? I do, I started liking you ever since I saw you, and now I cannot control it anymore, I had to tell you. Gillian, please say 'You do'”
[Written by: BBG]