| Fan Fiction |
by Erika
"Changmin, can I talk to you ?"
I look up from spooning soup into Junghoon's mouth and come face to face with Tiffany. She has been in this school for only a mere few hours and already, she has followers. A line of boys are hanging out behind her, waiting for her to notice them. Tiffany smiles down at me. I stare back at her, pondering on whether I should agree or not. It might be awkward.
"Appa, you're putting soup on my clothes !" I hear Junghoon shout. I tear my gaze away from Tiffany and glance down at Junghoon's shirt. Sure enough, a big stain is slowly spreading from his chest to the other parts of the shirt. I take back the spoon and ______ glares at me.
"Min ?" Tiffany repeats.
____ wiping Junghoon's shirt with a napkin, I decide to just agree. After all, what's the worst that could happen ?
Besides, I trust Tiffany. She was my childhood friend and i was once in love with her. What bad things could she do to me ? I'm sure she's not a rapist or a murderer or something.
"Wait here," Quite hesitantly, I get up from the cafeteria bench and follow Tiffany to the school garden. For a while, I quietly walk behind her, watching as she occasionally bends down to sniff at the flowers. Finally, she stops at the end of the garden and turn around on the spot to face me.
"Changmin ..."
"Tiffany ..." I humour her.
She ignores that. "For quite some time, since we first met, I've been hiding my true feelings from you, because I'm afraid that if you knew about it, you won't feel the same thing. And that will just jeopardise our friendship. So I kept quiet."
My eyebrows furrowed at what she just said. Mainly because I didn't quite understand everything that she just told me. "What ?"
Tiffany sighs before stepping up to me. "I thought that when I came back, I'd be brave enough to tell you everything. And I am. But then ... You have her ..."
I step back as Tiffany steps closer.
"I love you, Min ... I've always have. You and ______, that's all a joke. I can see that she doesn't love you back, so what's the point trying to make her to ? Changmin, I know you loved me last time and I hope that somewhere, deep inside, your love for me is still there." She takes a deep breath. "Is it ?"
Horrified, I continue staring at her, gradually backing away as she moves even closer. I can't force myself to love her, like what she said: You can't make people to love you. I know ______ doesn't love me but I'll always keep on trying. And I will never give up.
If only she can understand that.
"Tiffany, I-I'm sorry but the past is all gone. I no longer have any feelings for you. I only like you as a friend. And although I know _____ doesn't love me, I'll keep on trying and if in the end, I don't succeed ... Okay, you know what ? I WILL succeed. _____ WILL love me !"
Tiffany, for a few moments, says nothing but out of the blue, before I can react, she rushes forward and hugs me, resting her head on my chest. My hands stay limp on my side. Long ago, I would've been ecstatic when Tiffany confesses that she has feelings for me but now, it's all gone. The feeling's all gone. And I don't know what to do.
"App- !"
"Junghoon, let's go !"
Sharply, I break out from Tiffany's grip and spin around, long enough to catch Junghoon and _____ running away. Something steel-like grips my heart as I watch _____, her hair billowing against the breeze, dashing out from the garden and for a moment, I stand there, paralyazed and clueless on what to do.
She saw.
Going back to reality and ignoring Tiffany, I start running to catch up with them. "______ ! Stop, please ! It isn't what you think !"
Upon hearing my voice, _____ runs faster, desperately dragging Junghoon along from behind. Junghoon glances at me.
"Umma, Appa is over there. Stop running ! Appa is tired !" Junghoon, with a hint of desperation in his voice, shouts. ________, who is a long way from me, stops and lets go of Junghoon's hand before running off again. Junghoon, his eyes flooded with tears, runs up to me. I scoop him up in my arms and begin running again.
The bell rings. _____ is nowhere to be seen. But we're in the same class after this. I'll have the opportunity to talk to her, explain to her about what she saw. Tell her that it was just a misunderstanding and Tiffany had made the first move, not me.
Carrying Junghoon, I trudge up the stairs, and into the classroom. I spot ______ on her seat, which was 5 seats away from mine. Her head is slumped on her desk. Yunho and Junsu are trying to comfort her, asking her what had happened. At that moment, Junsu glares at me. I look away.
Still carrying Junghoon, I walk to my seat and place Junghoon on the empty seat next to mine. Jaejoong, fortunately is absent today so Junghoon can temporarily take his seat. Yoochun, who is sitting at my left side, leans sideways.
"Dude, what happened ?" He whispers out from the corner of his mouth, trying hard to look inconspicuous as the teacher walks in.
"She saw Tiffany hugging me," I stare down at my hands and take a deep shaky breath. I hope this doesn't ruin the plan because really, I'm badly in love with her.
[Your POV]
My head still slumped on my desk, the image of Changmin and Tiffany hugging plays over and over again inside my mind. For some reason, although I know that we're just pretending, when I saw them hugging, I felt jealous. I kept telling myself, when I was running away from him, that it was just a game. A pretend game. It's not even real.
So why do I feel like this ? Why do I feel jealous ? Why do I feel like I want to throttle Tiffany, tie her on the railway track and watch as the train squishes her into a messy pulp ?
Am I in love with Changmin ?
Not long ago, we were enemies, now we're pretending to go out.
Everything is changing. I mean, just look at Junghoon. I never though I would have a son at the age of 17. Also, I thought I've always hated Changmin, because of his obnoxious behaviour but now, I'm jealous seeing him hugging another girl.
For the last few hours of school, my head stays glued to my desk. Somehow, I can feel Changmin turning back to look at me. Occasionally, when the teachers are not around, I can hear Junghoon whining. My chest tightens. I can't believe I'm acting like this. And just for something so idiotic.
Tiffany and Changmin are friends, okay ?! Why are you so idiotic, Park _____ ?
Finally, the dismissal bell rings.
"_____ ?" I feel Junsu's hand on my shoulder but still, I don't feel like looking up.
"You two go first. I'll stay here for a while." I heave a perplexed sigh. I listen as Yunho and Junsu, after sighing, shuffles out of the classroom. Cautiously, I wait for everyone to go out of the classroom before lifting my head up from my desk.
Changmin and Junghoon are standing in front of me, both have furtive looks on their faces.
I stand corrected.
Avoiding their gazes, I stand up and start packing my things.
"______ ?"
"Umma ?"
Keeping silent, I sling my bag over my shoulders and start walking. As I pass them, I see Junghoon's lower lip tremble, his eyes swimming in tears. Changmin scoops him up and grabs my hand, as if nothing happened between him and Tiffany.
Stiffly, I continue walking and when we're outside the school, I stop as I see the crowd at the front entrance. They appear to be waiting for something to happen. Changmin lets go of Junghoon and my hand and disappears. I look around, bewildered. Everyone's blocking the gates so I can't make a run for it. I might as well wait.
Suddenly, the crowd cheers at something behind me. Junghoon clutching my right arm, I whip around.
A big banner is hanging from the rafters of the front doors of the school. In big fonts, the words "_____, Saranghaeyo' is splashed across it. My heart thumps wildly as Changmin, grinning, steps out from behind the banner, carrying a bouquet of roses. He steps up to me and offers the flowers to me. I stand immobilised at the spot.
"I told you I'll make it official," he smiles.
"Um ..." I'm stuttering. Why am I stuttering ?!
In a loud voice, so that everyone can hear, "______, will you be my girlfriend ?"
I peer down at the flowers before accepting it. "Sure, why not ?"
The crowd goes wild.
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Sorry if it's too short.
Yes , I know it's lame, don't rub it in.
Ayv--3 July 2009 at 12:43 p.m.
Wahaha the last part make me burst into laugh lol..mm ugly lady?cool!good boy*Pat junghoon's head*haha..n the kiss,i like it..shoo schweeeet^^Ja,update soon ne^^love ya!v(^_^)v
Reply: LOL XD Ily too.
bLoOMuSiCaL--3 July 2009 at 12:20 p.m.
ahahaha that last part was funny! :p
awww he's so cute too!
we're parents!
Changmin is such a good Appa to "our" child lol
update!
Reply: He is and updated.
Daphne--3 July 2009 at 9:57 a.m.
dude. i live in singapore too. and i just came back from the asian youth games. ohmygod. guess what?!?! i saw a changmin lookalike!!! super hot!
Reply: OHMYGOD ?! WHERE ?! Which country ?!!!!!! And in which part of Singapore do you live ?
JaeSu fan--3 July 2009 at 8:44 a.m.
LOL!!!
Bad Junghoon... XD
But kids are honest and they never know how to tell a lie...
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Pic of Inhwan... aww... I wonder how he is... He's really cute and adorable!
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Update soon!!! ^_^
Reply: I know, LOL.
ime--3 July 2009 at 6:35 a.m.
sorry i taped quickly the full name of my fanfic is : 'being a tomboy forever or more feminine?'
i think u're surprised that someone who live in france can read ur fanfic lol so u have at least one reader who live in Europe ^^
Reply: YEAH :D Oh, and can you give me the link to your story ?
ime --3 July 2009 at 6:32 a.m.
wow i like this new 2 chapters and in particulary when Changmin imagine the worst when he saw that 'me' and 'our' son weren't in the classroom lol
oh and i like the sentence at the end of the chap 7 : "Appa ?" Junghoon looks up at me. "Who is that ugly lady ?" it makes me laugh lol
yeah, i really live and study in France since I was 4 but I'm Algerian! I read ur other fanfic :'Living with them' and i liked it lol but in the forewords u don't tell ur age or when do u live? so can u answered this 2 questions?
and i'm looking forward the new chapter ^^
ps : i'm also a new writer and my first fanfic is : 'being a tomboy or more feminine' so if u have time, please check it ^^
Reply: Cool, I wanna read it :] Link ?
ChulLove--3 July 2009 at 4:35 a.m.
hhahahahahaah~ "appa who is that ugly lady"
hahahahahhahahhaha that was really funny!!! xD
please please have mercy on me
and update soon ^---^"
U ROCK!!!
aja! aja!
fighting~ <3
Reply: You rock more, I bet :B
yveT.Te--3 July 2009 at 3:56 a.m.
Uwah~
Cute. ^^
Changmin actually cares for "our" son.
Haha, nice ending to the chapter. =P
Update soon~
Reply: He does, LOL.
Hope you like this chapter.
<3 Erika.