| Fan Fiction |
by j.v.L
I'm praying and I'm hoping. The entire world is.. The people who are called Cassiopeia and Bigeast, We're praying. Tomorrow.. we'll know <3
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~JaeJoong~
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"Hey Jae?"
I perked up from my bed as I heard Yoochun outside my door
"Jae? Hyung? Are you awake?" Yoochun knocked again
I sighed quietly as I looked at the door. I guess Yoochun is just asking me why I didn't join them to dinner. But how could I? I can't even face Minji now after our incident and after I had realized.. what I've been hiding inside of me, I was feeling.. ashamed. This is not what I'm suppose feel and I can't do that either. Feel like this for a girl who's scared to death because of people of the same sex as me are stupid, pysched, desperate morons..
Yeah the list is long
I was hoping and praying quietly that Yoochun would leave and that I also locked the door. I lied down again but within a second I heard the doorknob click and Yoochun was inside of my room
"Hyung?"
I shot up from my bed and looked at him
"Uh .. uh.. hi" I stuttered
"Aren't you hungry? You didn't eat anything for breakfast and now no lunch.. are you starving yourself?" He asked
"No" I said simply
"What's wrong? Not feeling good?" Yoochun asked as he eyed me from head to toe
"No"
Yoochun let out a sigh
"Something bothering you?" He asked
"No"
He rolled his eyes
"Then what is it?"
"What do you mean by what is? There's nothing 'what is'" I said
Yoochun folded his arms across his chest as he raised an eyebrow
"Something is bothering you. I can tell by your weak choice of vocabulary of yours. Mare bwa" Yoochun said
"Aniyo. It's nothing" I said
"Why are you being stubborn? Did something happen between you and Minji when you were taking care of her?"Yoochun asked
Shit, he hit my weak spot. I tried not to react or flinch and even if I did, I was hoping that he didn't notice it
"Yah.. mare bwa. What is wrong? Did something happen to Minji?" Yoochun asked
I shook my head
"Why would something happen?" I asked
"Hyung, you're being really weird now"
I hated how Yoochun always tried to talk to me, always try to comfort me even though I didn't need it and he had this affection,the effect and I knew that I always gave in .. in the end cause you couldn't beat Yoochun's wise words
I sighed heavily
Yoochun sat down and looked at me
"Tell me. What is bothering you?"
a lot.. Minji and my feelings. The forbidden crush I was having on her. She had made me fallen for her and I was pretty damn sure that I was going to pay for the sin since this is not good anywhere. Not for her or me. But it was going to affect her more than me.. And I knew that if I stick to her, I would probably end up hurt anyways cause being so close to her yet so far, not being able to hug her and feel her without me knowing that I might hurt her, it will tear me down inside.. and I didn't want to take that risk
Yoochun didn't say anything for a few minutes and neither did I . I was thinking, trying to find a solution for this, trying to how I would do best in order to get away from everything that was happening to me and Minji, or mostly me.
I didn't want to fall for her. Not her.. of all people. It's not good.. and it's.. not right..
I let out a heavy sigh as I thought about it. My thoughts was messed up, complicated but I knew one thing for sure
If I was more concerned about her than myself, it was only making it more clearer than I was falling harder. It felt like I spent 24 hours a day to think about her.. Ok make that 20 since I need some time to sleep as well, but even when I was sleeping she could appear in my thoughts..
Gosh.. this is so confusing.. someone.. please.. rip my heart out and make the love I feel disappear
"Minji just had some water, she was staring at the food and she ate 3 spoonful and then she stopped" Yoochun said suddenly
I shot my eye at him immediately, an automatic reflex that I did whenever I heard someone mention Minji
"Mwoh?" I asked
He looked at me
"Minji barely eat. Yunho and Changmin tried their best to persuade her but we ended up giving her 3 spoonful only and a glass of water. It's better than nothing but I'm concerned about her health.. We gotta do something" Yoochun mumbled
My heart ached terribly as I thought about it. I wonder if it had been different if I had sat there along with them. Would she eat then?
"I think we should call Donghae" I suggested
Yoochun nodded
"I already did. He's on his way. He's going to examine her again. But i think she jsut needs some time to melt it all. She will either slowly fall back or the opposite, try her best to drag herself out of it"
I wanted to be a part of that. I want to be a part of the idea of helping her out of the horrible memories. But I knew I can't. If I can't control myself around her.. then.. I should stay away from her..
For the time being at least..
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Chi~ : haha aww... u think? i think he was so cool though in the shop hahah bad guys are sexy~~
azn14 : i guess just like he said in this chappie.. stay away from her T_T
TVXQ_Doll : I liked jae being a bad boy :D haha
JaE_LoVe nae~~ she was. trafficking is about being a slave. Prostitution u know.. sad isn't it ?
DianeShin: I know.. but don't u think that if jae hadn't been carried away, wouldn't he stop himself too? XD
Alina : I can't wait til' tomorrow. Afraid of what is going to be said.. but yet anticipating it cause I want a statement..
Nuragerl : I don't know. I guess we just have to wait until we know her point of view
KimJiJae: I know! Yunho is such a .. kiss-disrupter XD