| Fan Fiction |
by j.v.L
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"It's here?" Kibum asked as he looked around
I nodded
The familiar building that I once rescued Minji was right in front of me and as all of us entered, our guns ready, we walked down the hallway, the same way back to the storage room where we had found Minji last time..
As we entered the room I saw that a few boxes were smashed and destroyed. There was tools allover the floor and all of us spread out in the entire storage room and searched for something that we didn't know anything about..
"Someone's been here" Yunho mumbled
I didn't say anything and kept looking around, cautious with my ears on top, listening to every sound that wasn't coming from us.
After awhile I approached the entrance down to the underground and memories were soon coming onto my mind as I remembered the first time we had gone to this place and we had found Minji. Just remembering her in that cell was giving me heart ache..
"Someone stays here.." I said and looked at them
"I can stay along with Changmin .. We'll call if we see anything suspicious" Yoochun said
Kibum, Yunho and I climbed down and we turned on our flashlights as we listened to the water that was probably leaking from somewhere. Our steps echoed in the hallway as we slowly walked down..
"This is really yucky" Kibum whispered
We passed the familiar doors that once were locked and I saw the room that Minji had been locked in
"There's no one here" Kibum stated
"we know.. It's probably abandoned.." I mumbled
"Yah guys.."
I looked up and walked over to where Yunho was standing and soon saw that he had found an opening
"Tears this up" I said
Kibum and Yunho tried to open the small opening as I was holding the flashlights. I hadn't noticed last time we were here . Soon it flew open, dust flowing everywhere. I handed the flashlights back to the guys as we entered a room. It looked kind of ..classy actually to be in this underground and.. it turned out to be an office
"What the hell?" Kibum asked
I walked over to the desk where Kibum was browsing some papers. Yunho was standing by the entrance keeping an eye
"What is this?" I asked
"I think we should bring it all.. It looks like.. documents or something.."
I grabbed a few papers and I saw a few maps. Some kind of contracts and some.. files.. not really sure what everything was about. And it didn't help much either cause you couldn't see everything clearly..
"Take out your bag and put everything you can find" I said
Kibum did as I told him and I kept wandering around in the room as I was looking through the shelf, drawers..
I soon came across some kind of picture of a little girl.. I removed the dust from it in order to see more clearly and there was a guy standing with a little girl smiling widely..
I turned the picture to see if it was written anything on the other side but there was nothing more than just a letter
"M"
I didn't know why but I started to have a bad feeling about the pic, not to mention that it was somehow.. scary. I grabbed the picture and put it inside my pocket as I kept searching through the rest of the drawers ..
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~Minji~
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"And here.. lift your hand up like this in order to break the guy's nose. After you've done that, turn around, elbow him in the stomach and then you spin around, face him again and use your knee to hit him on the weak spot" Junsu said
We had been practicing for a long time now and it felt like Iw as going to become almighty if I ever used all these tricks on a guy ..
After awhile, we called it and both of us sat down on the couch tiredly and somewhat exhausted. I was satisfied thought...
"Minji?"
"Oh?"
"Do you have.. feelings for JaeJoong?"
I looked at Junsu, surprised by his sudden question
"Feelings?" I asked
"As in.. are you in love with him? Feeling nervous around him, can't stop thinking about him.. Nothing matters as long as he's fine.. and stuff like that" Junsu said
"I.. don't know.."
"But you kissed him?" Junsu asked
I felt the rush making it's way up to my cheeks as I felt myself getting a bit nervous..
"That must mean something right?" Junsu asked and looked at me
I nodded slowly
"I know what Love is" I said truthfully and looked at him
Junsu remained quiet
"Love.. is something you cannot easily erase. Flashbacks has been coming, marking it's place inside my head and also at the same time experiencing your love, the warmth that you give me when protecting me, taking care of me.."
"He likes you a lot.. Minji"
I looked up
"Likes me?" I asked
Junsu sighed
"I just don't want any misunderstanding.. that's all" Junsu said
"What?"
"I know that you're.. getting healthier. I know that you've changed a bit and I know that you are starting to gain your memories that you've lost. I'm doing this just because I care.."
"What are you doing then?" I asked
"Minji, I've never seen JaeJoong like this. He's very protective of you and he cares a lot about you. I know that he has feelings for you and I somehow feel that you are feeling the same for him. I don't know if you have given it any thoughts about it.. but have you even once considered WHY JaeJoong is so nice to you? why he is so protective of you? why he is the one who's spending time with you the most, not to mention that you two literally acts like a couple whenever you're together?"
I didn't answer
"I don't wanna push you Minji. I know you have a hard time when it comes to guys, men overall. I'm not going to push you or anything. I'm just saying that.. you might should consider your feelings, as well as JaeJoong" He said
"I don't know Junsu. It's all new for me" I mumbled
"New?"
I nodded
"The feelings. I've never felt anything like this. I'm always thinking about him. Worrying when he's not beside me and.. I feel so safe.. at ease.. whenever he's with me. Having him by my side is special Junsu and I don't want him to ever leave .. I didn't know that he had so strong feelings for me.." I mumbled
Junsu sighed
"He's not hurting or anything. He's just.. patient" Junsu said
"What if I can't give him what he needs? I know nothing about love but I've heard of it.. and I somehow.. remember it.." I whispered
"You don't need to give him anything except your love. The concern, the affection and the trust. That's all" Junsu said
"I don't know if I'm ready" I mumbled
"ready for a relationship?" Junsu asked
I nodded slowly
"Love is beautiful. I know that.. and I know that I have something.. for JaeJoong. But I don't know how strong those feelings are. I'm just afraid that I might disappoint him"
"You won't.. He's very understanding"
"I know that's the point. He's so good to me.. He's so.. perfect.. and I'm just.... just... nothing" I whispered
"Aniyo"
"Mwoh?"
Junsu smiled
"You've.. taken such a big part in our hearts Minji. I don't know if you know how big part that is but.. you've.. made a change in our lives. It kinda feels good to have someone else to care for than just ourselves you know.. And seeing JaeJoong falling in love is like watching a movie. He's waiting and he's patient. He thinks about your health before anything else.. You're really important to him"
"He's important to me too. I just don't know how to express myself" I mumbled
I know that Junsu were just trying to clear things up. If I have to be honest, maybe this is because of these thoughts that I've been struggling with, maybe that's why I haven't talked about the kiss with JaeJoong yet. But he didn't push me about it and like Junsu said, he's patient and waiting. But .. how could he fall in love with someone like me?
I really don't feel like I'm worth it. There must be someone else out there for him cause it can't be me. I'm a disaster. been used and abused. I don't have a life of my own and I'm just.. basically pathetic. I don't know how to read, to cook.. to.. take care of anyone else..
I feel hopeless.. and I am hopeless..
If my memories could come back then everything might become better. But.. I was too selfish to let JaeJoong go cause just thinking that he were going to leave me makes me feel burdened.. and sad. Hurt..
I looked at Junsu
"Do you think JaeJoong would wait for me ? Until I've gotten better? Until I've.. become a 'Normal' person again?" I whispered
Junsu chuckled
"No doubt. I'm sure"
"How can you?" I asked
Junsu smiled and tilted his head to the side as he were watching me
"It's simple Minji. When you love someone, you think about them first. Their needs.. and such"
I sighed
"Isn't it.. hurting him..? I mean.. I'm like this.. I'm pretty sure there's.. a bunch that is way better than me" I said
"Aniyo. He chose you .. for a reason and you can't change his decision"
I let out a sigh and looked up
"You really think he would wait for me? Until I have the courage to .. be with him?" I asked slowly
Junsu nodded
"Yes Minji.. He would. Some things.. are worth waiting for.. even if it means forever"
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