| Fan Fiction |
by JaE-LoVe
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You had moved back into your house in Paris and continued doing your work there.
For the next few months you continuously worked on your first album and had been keeping in touch with the agency through Nickhun.
You had already sent detectives and everyone to send to the documents of proofs and letters to Nickhun so the justice for your parents would finally be settled.
Nickhun would try to explain all the things about Jaejoong you would make an excuse saying you had to go somewhere.
It was too painful to listen to his name alone…what if he was really with Jessica now, what would they be doing?
Just thinking about it brought a knife-stabbing pain to your heart.
It felt like the months were dragging slowly and painful.
Sleepless nights got longer and time to cry got longer as months passed by.
You knew that feeling you had that day was right, you knew you would lose Jaejoong again sooner or later.
You always knew you weren’t good enough for him though he had always assured you were the most precious thing to him, you knew deep inside something would tear you two apart eventually.
You didn’t know it would tear you both apart so far that it would make it nearly impossible for both of you to get back together.
“Why do I still love you? Why do I still want to love you?” You whispered as you sat near the window.
Warm tears went slowly down you soft rosy cheeks. You looked like a pure white angel of snow white.
Except instead of being a cheerful girl you were once before you were like a shattered angel.
Today was the first day of winter, you stared outside looking at the snow that was slowly and ever so beautifully falling down.
You smiled at the beauty you were seeing yet your smile faded soon. The thing you wanted the most was Jaejoong’s warm embrace around you and him whispered sweet things in your ear.
You fell down on your knees and muffled your cries, as you silently sobbed.
“Where are you Oppa, I need you the most right now…why did this only have to happen to us?” You sobbed.
Suddenly you felt something cool react near your neck and shine against the windows.
You looked at your reflected face in the mirror and saw the necklace Jaejoong gave you. You smiled and touched it. It symbolized the fact how much you still loved Jaejoong no matter what.
You didn’t know why you never found a great reason to hate or be mad at Jaejoong.
You knew that he was his fault that he didn’t listen to you, but at the same time it felt like he was lured into this deeply. Something made it impossible to think straight.
You put a song that DBSK sang called Wasurenaide that he had recently sang. What you didn’t know that he wrote this song dedicated to you. All the fans knew that, they didn’t know the reason why the song was so sad or where exactly where you were. All they knew is that you were in Paris for your album but not your real truth.
You softly sighed and put crawled up in bed under the blankets, hugging Jaejoong’s sweatshirt imaging as if he was hugging you.
“I miss you Oppa…so much~”
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Jaejoong laid his head on the top of the piano, deeply sighing.
It was past midnight but he hadn’t been able to sleep. Just then Jihye popped inside the room.
“Yo yo~” Jihye chirped. Though she had been angry at Jaejoong for doing a stupid thing to you she eventually forgave him…well that is after nearly murdering Jessica and sending Jessica for her 10th plastic surgery.
Jaejoong lifted his head and softly smiled as Jihye came in. “You know you should eat your dinner at least, you haven’t ate a single all day…” Jihye softly spoke sitting on a chair near Jaejoong’s.
“DON’T say that you’re not hungry.” Jihye said. Just then Jaejoong’s stomach growled as he turned red. He was about to say he wasn’t hungry but his stomach didn’t seem to agree so. Jihye started cracking up looking at Jaejoong’s red face. “YAH!” Jaejoong barked as Jihye coughed and said sorry.
Jihye went back into the kitchen and brought food/chopsticks from the kitchen into the piano room where Jaejoong was sitting looking down sadly at the piano.
“You know…you can’t be hard on yourself too much, you made a mistake so fix it…you can’t wait for ~~~~~~-ah to come back to like she did before cause…the pain you gave her is nearly impossible for you to understand, to have no one by your side and fighting all this alone…it’s tough, and now she probably thinks you might be back with Jessica, knowing her she’ll try to avoid any contact with you for the rest of your thinking you’re happy with Jessica~” Jihye softly explained and as Jaejoong quietly ate his food.
He ate slowly and swallowed hard. “Do something…Jaejoong you better react soon before this situation drags to a point where you’ll lose her forever.” Jihye stated, patting Jaejoong’s back as a sign of encouragement before she left.
Jaejoong finished his food and went to the kitchen cleaning all the mess as he thought about you.
After he took a long shower and brushed his teeth before he got into his bed. He turned on his projector and connected it to his camera before turning it against the ceiling. He lay down as he watched a slide show of your pictures with him and pictures he had secretly snapped of you.
Pictures of you both smiling, laughing, teasing each other, hugging, dancing, singing, kissing and other fun things together slide one by one. He deeply wished that all these moments would come back and everything would become normal again…but he knew what he did, couldn’t be changed.
However, it could be healed right?
Jaejoong smiled in determination that he’ll get you back soon and promised himself he would never ever ever…dare to hurt you or be the cause of your pain.
He would never let anything get in the way of his love for you this time, no one would be able to stop me and he promised he would make it all up to you.
Just as Jaejoong was thinking, he snapped his chain of thoughts as he heard his cell phone ring.
Jaejoong picked it up and softly spoke, “Hello?”
“It’s me Nickhun, Since you have some time off for all of next week I‘ve arranged a flight for you to go to Paris, I don’t know why the heck I’m telling you this after you hurt her, but I swear if something like this ever happens again I will literally destroy you. She doesn’t know I’ve been telling you about her or anything, but you better not make me regret this choice. I’m only doing this for the sake that you both love each other, make her cry this time, you know what will happen.” Nickhun spoke firmly before he clicked of the phone.
Jaejoong’s heart started beating fast with excitement and love for you. He couldn’t wait until he would see you again, but then he his heart suddenly stopped.
What if you didn’t love him anymore?
What if you had someone else in your life right now?
What if you hated him and never want to see or give him another chance after all the pain he made you go through?
Jaejoong put his thoughts aside, he trusted you and the love between you two, and knew if his love was real then nothing will stop him or break him apart from you this time.
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SO WHAT WILL HAPPEN NOW~
SPOILER: YOU WILL HOPEFULLY MEET EACH OTHER AGAIN NEXT CHAPIE LOL I'M NOT BEING TOO CRUEL TO MY READERS AM I? LOL
WILL THE JUSTICE FOR YOUR PARENTS MAKE IT THROUGH, WILL YOU BEAR SEEING THE JUSTICE HAPPEN?
MORE IMPORTANTLY WILL JAEJOONG BE THERE WITH YOU, HOLDING YOUR HAND REASSURING YOU?
WILL YOU ACCEPT HIM AGAIN?
STAY TUNED~ DUN DUN DUN~ =3
LOL OH BTW GUYS IF MY UPDATES GET SLOW FORGIVE ME! THEY ARE PROBABLY CAUSE OF MY HEALTH OR STUDIES OR BOTH TT.TT
BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN I'M FORGETTING THIS FF!
BUT I WILL DO MY BEST TO UPDATE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE!
COMMENT REPLIES~
<3 jaejoongiee: YAY! New reader <3 TY SO MUCH! LOL Do you mean a "R" scene with Jaejoong in the future? LOL Maybe~ I've never wrote one before for a ff like this but I will try my best if I do, I might put a vote for it or something, but what exactly did u mean by "make love"? lol o.O I'm a bit dense lol Awww LOL THANKS!
V ii e t . B b y: Dongsang~~~ <333 Ur here~ LOL ~^0^~ LOL Ur welcome~~ <333 Awwwwww you didn't accidentally leave him it's just that you didn't want his betrayal anymore and though that he loved Jessica (so basically leaving for his own happiness ^^) XD LOL Yes u will! LOL Do you hate Jessica in real life too/SNSD? LOL *high five* ^-^ LOL Of course I always love them their cute! Awww thanks I will try my best to update! But my updates might get slow of my health or studies T_T LOL thanks <3333 =3 so sweet of u!
Harmony&Julie: <3333 Thank u for always being the wonderful unnies and best friends you have been unnies <333 really ur support is something with a great value to me! I do my best to put forth my effort but I won't lie that there are times where I feel lazy and just completely "not me" u know, and I don't want to be like that, cause it's not good for me. OMG really? I'm 15 too XD I bet Julie is still older though XD and what do u mean by Asian birthday? Nah~ Ur YOUNG! We should LOL Omg tsk~ look now we made him conceited thinking he's a lady's man ==" xD I hate it when people do that it's cruel that's why I was mad and sad after what happened to Julie unnie~ I will do my best to bring the happiness a bit back in the next chapie? I think it's the next chapie ;)I hope so, unnie how do u do time management and self control over things?
JaeSu fan: XD LOL I know what you mean LOL Are my cliffhangers that painful? xD
ilovekimbeom: OH i c i c LOL YAYYYYYYYYYYY! GO DBSK! WOOT! WTH? o.O that's stupid, *sigh* LSM never changes does he? LOL XD Cool! Ur plots are always really good unnie! <333 XD
~DeNiSe~: Awwwww dongsang u should sleep and take it easy, don't strain yourself! <333 sweet dreams~ <3
-DBSKluver-: LOL Of course~ oh thanks for making it clear <3 lol sorry I can be a bit dense at times, lol you'll c if you're right or not ;) Awww I will I have to head to bed it's so late and tmr is school too =.=""
cxu: YAY! NEW READER! Sorry I didn't reply earlier I was extremely busy (cause of studying and really tired now xD) Awwwww thank u <333 That's very sweet of you to say that, I will do my best and continue writing the best I can! Awww thank u really it means a lot! Awww don't cry! *gives you a tissue box* LOL XD Really? WOW! Thanks! I never knew my ff could someone feel like that! <3 TY! Thank u sooooo much cxu <3 so sweet of u! Thank u for ur support and sweet comment it means a lot <3
azn_fanatic1995: LOL Can't wait for this to get better? xD I don't think my ff is any good. Yes I watch dramas sometimes~ But I haven't watched any recently the last one was Boys Over Flowers...pretty sad huh? xD I think u did really well! <33 I'm sure u'll get the views! Yes I did, I watched it yesterday XD Is that a double date? ;) Same! I was out all day yesterday and so tired~ yet I had to push myself to update. No I don't watch Glee lol oh is a good show? LOL it's always good to have a nice laugh. Aww thanks <3
Urye: Awww I'll try not to! But the thing is I've been updating almost everyday I feel bad I don't update and finish this story soon T_T YAY! <3 I'm sure u will do well!
Kiyoko;<3: LOL I know huh? <333 they are~ Same but hopefully things will work out right ;) Cafeteria food isn't usually good ^^;; yet I have to eat it most of the time T_T YES I HAVE! On the second day after it released, I agree! I was AWESOME! I loved the movie! I also watched New Moon yesterday xD
THANK U SO MUCH FOR THE COMMENTS <333333333 THEY MEAN A LOT!