Fan Fiction

A way to happiness (NC-17) [COMPLETED]

by Kinra

Chapter 1

Meeting the morning

Cold breeze was spinning through my messy hair. Even though it was quite warm spring night, or should I say morning, because sky was slowly getting brighter, my skin had goose bumps. I couldn’t sleep, because all kind of thoughts were spinning in my head and not letting me to calm down. I don’t know why everything seemed so dark and cold to me now. Am I really that kind of emo person, who makes troubles from nothing? I don’t know. It’s just that air is too hard to breath for me. Sometimes I can feel warm from other passing by strangers, who are smiling and enjoying their routines. It makes me happy to know that world can be different, happy and bright, without any hardships that could stop you. But I get this feeling for no longer than a few seconds, because those people come and go, and soon I can see their backs slowly fading from my sight. I always knew they would never stay. Happy people pass sorrow...
I looked to my cell phone which background showed me 5 am. I guess I should head to work already. I took my bag and jumped from a small cliff, which was surrounding the shore. This is one of my favorite’s places here, in Seoul. The Han river.
To this city I was absolute stranger. But when I think about it, maybe I was like that to every place where I stayed. It may be that I hoped it would be different here, that the change of environment could change something in me also. But isn’t that a self lie. It actually doesn’t matter where you live. If you want something very badly and you fight for it, I’m sure that in time every goal is possible to reach. But I guess I wasn’t that kind of person who could fight for a place under the sun. I knew that I had will to work, to try and not to give up soon. But it’s just that there were no reasons, no motivation. What for?-would be my first thought after going thro’ all that “make your life good” plans. I wouldn’t have even moved here, if it’s not for my brother I guess.
After graduation, i was wondering what university to choose. My grades were good, since all my free time was studying at home and working. Actually I wasn’t interested in learning again and spending the rest of my life doing what I wasn’t interested in, but I wanted to leave my parents house and start living independent. And then one day when I was surfing the net, I saw Korea’s embassy scholarship for two students to live and study in Seoul for very cheap and ridiculous price. I decided that I should give a try. Being a tourist- student is better than sucking books here in my hometown, and of course, this would mean living on my own on the other side of the world.
I knew that I could win concurs, and I did. But my mother and stepfather didn’t want to let me go. And then my charming brother came and persuaded them, that I’m not a child, that I need more air and freedom, I’m not sure that they believed in all that. I guess they let me just because they thought that there’s still my brother who maybe won’t be so screwed up as me.
So here I was in this huge and unfamiliar city. At first I couldn’t speak Korean at all, but then I found a part time job in café, where I was washing dishes, so being around people and having random talk made me to understand a bit. Because of this work I could keep some money, and not ask my parents to send me them, which made me feel good, because now they won’t be able to tell me that I’m only a burden. Despite the fact, that I felt lonely here without my bro it still was fun, since there were so many new things for me.

When I arrived to my work I said hi to staff, took my apron and headed to the sink, which was fool of dishes from previous night. While listening to my mp3 work past quickly, I didn’t even felt that it was already lunch time when my colleague, also a girl from university, punched me.
-Hey, aren’t you starving? How can you work like machine,-she looked at the huge pill of clean plates and than at me, i guess my face was expressionless as always, because she added
-Aish, you really are something, come on until these chips of yours didn’t explode.
I followed her to kitchen and we ate some leftovers since, you know, student aren’t that rich. She was talking nonstop all the time until suddenly her phone rang. She picked it up quickly and turned away. I wasn’t interested in her conversations anyway, so I tried not to listen and begin to wonder through my mind as always, but as quickly she turned her phone off and threw herself on me.
-Please help me,-she looked at me with her puppy eyes,-my boyfriend had a car accident, I must go to hospital,-she said shaking.
-Well, what I have to do with it, as for me, you can go right now if you want to,-I said and took her hands off me. I really don’t know how to deal with people, not to mention how to calm them down.
-I can’t leave work, boss already was angry at me yesterday that I was late, so he won’t let me go…But if you could take my place, I’m sure he wouldn’t notice.
-But I never worked as waiter.
-Don’t worry you just have to be polite and take food to them. If you can handle the dishes I’m sure there’s nothing impossible for you,-she tried to smile with her teary eyes.
-Well okay, but come back soon, I suck at being with other people,-I shrugged.
-Oh, thank you, you’re my hero!- she squealed and ran away.
Well yeah, did I already mention that I can make problems from nothing?
I dressed in uniform, went to the main hall and begun to take orders from tables.
It wasn’t really that hard, because people were kind of not noticing my mistakes, since I was a foreigner and my appearance of course was standing out. They asked me various questions like where I’m from, are there all people like that, what we normally eat and so on, as if I’m from other planet. But in a way I liked it. I liked their surprised faces when I would answer Korean, or say something abnormal like that we are eating food without chopsticks. I even started smiling, because I received many “hwaiting!” and tips of course.
I didn’t noticed new customers coming because of the questions that I tried to answer to other clients, but then I heard strange gossiping. I didn’t understood if it was because of me or not, but apparently no, since I had no attention on me anymore, even the previous guy that tried to flirt with me broke of in the middle of sentence. I decided to never mind all of it as this is the best way to approach something that you have no clue about.
I headed to new customers.
-Ahn Neyong Ha Seyo,- i bowed, -would you like to order already? Today we have special soup and if you buy a steak we add coke for free,-I smiled and wondered if I said everything correctly.
-Well then I have no choice. I will take a steak. No, two steaks, will I get two cokes then?
A young man putted down his menu, which at first was covering his face, and looked at me. I knew that I had to answer, but my jaw was somewhere on the ground, I felt like in a commercial, where super extra hot model make you fell in love with everything that they are trying to sell not to mention about them themselves. Yes, he was hot. Probably the hottest guy I ever faced or would face in my upcoming life.
-Yes, you will get two cokes then if you wish ,is that all then mister?-I asked, and felt so stupid, I never was interested in guys, because relationship would make even more harder to live, so I never looked to males as possible boyfriends. And right now I found myself daydreaming, and about a guy. What’s up with me? Really, get a hold on yourself women.
-For now I guess it will be enough for me,-he laughed, and I thought that crystal bells are ringing, -but my friend will come soon, so I wonder what should I order for him?-he looked at me again. This time I won’t loose to this charm that takes your breath away, makes you tremble and forget what you want to say.
-Well it depends on what your friend likes and what his age is...we have awesome spaghetti and delicious kid set –pancakes with strawberries…
-Oh, it will be fine!-he interrupted me.
-So pancakes for a kid,-I wrote down.
-Yeah,-he smiled again.
-Ok, enjoy yourself I won’t take too long,-I smiled back this time.
I headed back to kitchen and realized that this time every one was staring with jealousy at me.
-What?-I asked to other waiter,-am I an alien?
-Aish, don’t you know who is he?!
-Erm, should i?
-Gosh, girl, he’s top idol from the hottest group ever, don’t you really recognize him! It’s Choikang Changmin from DBSK!
-From what?-I asked again.
-Aish,-she hit her forehead and went back to her customers.