| Fan Fiction |
by Kinra
[Never follow your heart if you’re not able to hear it.
Never listen to your heart if you’re not able to follow it.
Never give an opportunity to your heart to love, if you’re not able to give all yourself to it.
Never dream, if you’re a person, who’s afraid to realize his dreams.
Never stop looking forward to the next day, because new morning will bring a new hope again.
Never be afraid of changes, because they’ll fill your every cell, and even it’s not a good feeling…
Never regret it, because it will make you a better man.
Never lie, if you know that’s just a fraud for this moment.
Never forget what’s important for you, if you have nothing more then just your beliefs.
Never stop cherishing what you have, because the next moment you may know that everything is gone.]
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JaeJoong side story
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It was a total mess. No one said anything but I could feel it in the air. Something was bothering every member; they became lost and reserved. Micky was not in this world, thinking about staff that won’t gave peace to him; Junsu was mad at Micky, I knew it’s just a matter of time when they’ll be joking again, but I could see something different in his expression. Yunho still wasn’t talking to me after that incident and Changmin…Changmin was completely out of this world. After every show he would just sit in his locked room and not come out until the next event. But this wasn’t the worst thing. The worst thing was me and my guilt towards him.
When Junsu came to Changmin’s apartment to call him, because we were leaving Seoul, I did have a feeling that this trip won’t bring anything good. I don’t know from where this flair came, but I decided to go up to and try to talk to both of them maybe we could go a day later or something.
And just when I stepped from the car I couldn’t believe in my eyes. A girl with bare feet and fluttering hair in the wind ran past me. Her scent made me to turn back and I noticed her teary eyes.
I know it may sound weird, but I wanted to follow her, to embrace her and protect from everything that made her look so hurt. But I couldn’t move an inch, I was paralyzed and I knew I needed to breathe, but I just watched her every movement in slow motion until she disappeared behind the corner.
I blinked and realized that I am already able to move again so I ran as fast as I could to Changmin’s apartment, but I was amazed again as I saw Changmin with blank face kneeling on the ground.
-What’s going on here? - I asked.
-Changmin just broke up with a girl. End of the story lets go now. Manager is waiting,-Junsu said.
Could it be her?
My mind was racing and I needed to get out of here.
-If you fucked up, you can leave everything like it is or go for her and solve everything. But this is not the right time anyway. We are going to Japan tomorrow. So stand up,-I said as calmly as I could. They followed me and it means that my acting worked.
No one was speaking in the car and it gave me some time to think. But actually there was no point. ‘It’s Changmins girl, don’t be a fool’-I said to myself. I have to erase that memory of hers. But what if they really broke up? Then maybe there’s nothing wrong? But how would I look if I would ask her number from Changmin? God, I’m crazy, maybe it wasn’t even her. Maybe it’s just some stranger I won’t meet aver again.
‘Yeah, calm down JaeJoong, you’ll have wrinkles; everything will be fine, just fine’-I thought.
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The week was passing by and I couldn’t live a day without repeating her image, but in my mind she was running to me, into my arms, pressing her soft skin to mine, looking with her deep eyes into mine…
Then Junsu came in my room and offered me to make some food with him. Of course I agreed, I needed to do something because my mind would go mad, spending the rest of the day thinking about a person I don’t even know.
-Hey Junsu, have you saw that girl…I mean the one with Changmin, which broke off with him?
-Sure, I saw her couple times. But she didn’t break off with him. It’s more like Changmin did. You know we were eating together at some café, where we saw that pretty waiter, she was a foreigner, but she spoke Korean fluently, so she attracted our attention. At first I thought that she doesn’t know that we are famous, but then maybe she did, because she looked nervous and such. Anyway we thought she will ask us a signature or something, but she was cold to us…Well she was nice as a waiter, but nothing more than that, you know that girls usually squeal and such when we’re around, but she was conservative. So we decided to have this bet, it wasn’t serious, actually I thought he won’t even do it ,but you know, we had nothing to do or talk about so we thought why not to try that.
- About what you were betting?-I interrupted him.
-Well…if Changmin had got her phone number, I would have paid for the dinner, and if he would, you know, slept with her, I mean had sex, I would have treated him with dinner at the best restaurant in Seoul. And now this jerk screwed everything up. Because I don’t know how many wons I’ll have to spend for his fucking luxurious dinner.
I almost chocked on his last sentence. I wanted to smash this pan into his head. How could they? How could they do such a cruel thing?
And now I realized everything. Her tears weren’t for nothing it was because of them.
-I’ll ask Yoochun to come,-Junsu said.
Thanks God, he went out, and I stabbed meat with the fork I was holding.
I couldn’t hear what they were talking about anymore, I just tried to chew food putting all my rage in to it, even if it slide down my throat hardly.
-So what where you saying, Jae?-Junsu asked.
I was too mad to answer, but I didn’t want to look suspicious so I forced myself to answer as normal as possible.
-Nothing. I was eating and you kept talking to yourself.
When after few moments Changmin came in they started asking him about that girl and now my ears were catching every noise.
While Changmin talked it seemed that he needed her, that he missed her. But it was too late, he did miss his chance, didn’t he? I couldn’t watch as members pitied him. So I said that he’s a Casanova, but no one really listened.
I know that my acts were strange, they were my friends and still I was angry at them. And for what? For a girl I saw once in my life time and no longer then few seconds?
‘JaeJoong, control yourself. Let Changmin do what he has to. He didn’t give up yet’-I thought-‘he’s your friend who deserved happiness…’
But deep down in my heart I knew that I won’t be able to stay calm if he makes a mistake again.