| Fan Fiction |
by Kinra
She opened her eyes, tears rolling down her cheeks. I couldn’t believe the words that left her mouth. She was so hurt; she even was willing to die… How this could happen just to one person?
I’m not your angel, baby, and I’m not going to take you up There...but I’ll try, I’ll try as hard as I can to show at least a bit of heaven to you…
I took her in my arms and her fragile body was so close to mine for the first time. She was holding tight on to me and when I placed her in my car she was afraid to let me go.
-Don’t worry, I’m right beside you,-I stroked her cheek, and it felt so good to be with her, to touch her after all this time.
I took her to my apartment, she didn’t say a word, and that was a bit unexpected, I thought that because she doesn’t know me, she might be afraid, but she just followed me, holding my hand.
I found some clothes that my sister left once and brought them to bathroom, where I was already preparing a bath tub for her.
-You’ll find everything you need there…go…wash yourself, you’ll feel better,-I said to her while she simply looked at me confused. Her skin had Goosebumps and she still was scared a lot after that incident. I never had watched her so closely and even with ruined dress and messy hair she looked beautiful…
-Is something wrong?-I sat next to her. How could I ask her that, her ex fucked another girl in front of her, she was almost raped… of course there’s something wrong!
-If you don’t want to have a bath, I can make you something to eat. Are you hungry? Or you can sleep if you want to, do you?
She kept silent holding onto her knees.
I took her hand and led her to the bathroom.
-I’ll go to the kitchen and make something for you, okay?-I said and closed the door behind me.
I boiled the water and started making soup for her. Finally she’s so close to me- I thought when suddenly I heard a loud bump. I ran to the bathroom and opened the door to look if she’s okay.
-Alex…I…- I felt my mouth dry and empty of words.
Some things were lying around, her hand, which threw them, was lowered on the ground, her hair was splattered on her wet skin and her eyes were closed tightly. She was asleep.
I took a towel and embraced her with it.
I tried not to look, but I still could feel her naked body pressed to mine.
Her full purple lips were parted and I wanted to kiss them so much…but wouldn’t it ruin our first kiss? She had to feel it too…so I couldn’t be that selfish and take all the pleasure just for myself.
The sheets covered her lightly as I laid her on the bed.
-Sweet dreams, jagya,-I said and kissed her forehead.
***
With the first morning breath happiness filled my lungs, because I knew she’s right there in my room, lying on my bed and having a dream.
I could watch her like this forever: mumbling something under her nose, curling around the sheets or sleeping calmly; it doesn’t matter, until she’s here.
Finally she blinked and opened her eyes. I watched her and she was watching me too for a moment. Then she suddenly sat, exploring my bedroom.
-Don’t tell me I did something yesterday that I might regret now…-she said with sleepy voice rubbing her eyes.
I watched her bare shoulders wanting to embrace her.
-Don’t you remember anything?-I asked.
She kept silent for a moment and then hid under the sheets.
-Don’t act cute, it’s hard for me to not hug you…I’ll wait you in the kitchen,-I said and let her to dress up.
I served the breakfast on the table. Maybe I shouldn’t have done it so spicy…and what if she doesn’t like kimchi? And kimchi for breakfast? Am I an idiot? Geez…
-It smells good;-she came in wearing my sisters blue dress.
-Blue suits you well, it’s like your eyes…- I said looking at her.
-Thanks…for everything. Really, thank you, if it wasn’t you back then…
-I don’t know if it’s eatable, but please sit,-I held her the chair, - and your welcome…are you feeling better?
-My head is aching, because I was drunk yesterday, but without that I think I’m ok.
-I hope now you won’t drink anymore.
-I hope too,-she said.
-How should I call my savior?-she asked.
She doesn’t know who I am then
- JaeJoong…my name is Kim JaeJoong,-I said a bit confused.
She looked at me for a moment like trying to remember something.
-Oh, I’m sorry; you’re that celebrity, Junsu’s hyung, right?
-Yeah…
-I should have recognized you; it’s just that you look different on the cover.
-Chincha?-am I not handsome in real life?
-Yeah, you look better without make up.
-Chincha?
-Sure, don’t get so exited, isn’t that obvious? I feel like ugly duck,-she laughed.
-But you’re very beautiful.
-Sure,sure, especially when I wake up in the morning with messy hair.
-More like when you sleep with messy hair, and mumble something or roll in the sheets.
-You watched me?-she said blushing.
-How could I miss such chance?
-Well you should, now you’ll have goose bumps all the day and childhood’s emotional shock.
-Yeah right…I already have that since I live with 4 jerks.
-They’re not that jerks…Junsu is quite cute, and yoochun…he’s just lost and can’t find what he needs that’s why he does that stupid crap, I bet that Yunho is cool too, he’s the leader, right? And Changmin…,-Tears were already rolling down her cheeks, - He…is a nice person too. He just needs… to find someone as good as he is, and I’m sure everything will be fine…
I hugged her and patted her back. How can she still talk about him like that?
-I should go home…
-No! I mean stay, you didn’t finish your breakfast and you shouldn’t go back there…-I said.
-Why? Why are you that good to me? I don’t have money, neither anything else to give you…So why do you act like his?
-Because I want to,-I simply said the truth.
-But you don’t know me…
-I hope to get to know you soon,-I smiled.