| Fan Fiction |
by Kinra
My cereal where floating in the milk, and I thought that life got easier.
Actually it was pretty much the same it’s just that now I can eat these breakfast made by him. It was hard at first to adjust to all of this. Especially the first day. Of course it was awkward for me. Did he see me naked? Why did he help me so much? Maybe he was pitting me?
He simply told to move my stuff here, and that I have to live in his place. But how I could live with someone I don’t know, moreover in a place I don’t own. But he said he still doesn’t lives here, so I can be free as at my own home. From time to time he would come and do breakfast for me or simply stay and watch me. But as time flew, I was more and more comfortable with him.
According to him, I should have quit the job, but I couldn’t depend on him like that.
So one day he surprised me again.
-Women really shouldn’t work, look at your hands, - he said.
-And what’s wrong with them, they’re ugly as usual.
-Women’s hands have to be cherished,-he said and took my hands into his.
-Okay…this is really awkward now,-I said.
-No it’s not, - he said taking the file.
-Wait, wait, wait, are you going to do my nails?
-Sure.
I watched him confused and he simply smiled, and after about 15 minutes he was done.
-Do guys do such things?
-Well don’t we have nails too?-he asked.
-Yeah, but…JaeJoong it’s weird…
-You’ll get used to this;-he showed his gorgeous smile again.
He was so good to me for no reason, and all of the time I was just too confused, I couldn’t understand what he wants from me; to watch over his house, to sleep with him, to be with him?
But I guess I could do all of that, since I was really grateful to him.
That night I really thought it is over and when he carried me like a prince away from all those bad things, it really seemed like a fairytale. Maybe my dizzy mind influenced my wild imagination, but it really seemed back then, oh he’s something supernatural, something from other world, something saint. And he actually was. All the days I passed with him was nothing I could compare with. He would make me food, buy me stuff (even if I objected), call me, and take care of me all the time.
But even if he was hot, good and cute and so on, I didn’t want to feel anything for him as just thankfulness. I locked Changmin’s existence somewhere deep down, and tried not to think of him. Even if I never met him after that incident, topics about him always were something like taboo here. I knew I won’t forget him that easily, because it was just too painful. Therefore even if I would met with guys, especially with JaeJoong, we would have fun like friends and nothing more, I don’t know if it was enough for them, but for me it certainly was.
-‘Sup, A? - Junsu squealed coming to hug me.
-Hello to you too, my dolphin boy, - I hugged him back.
Somehow it became normal to have dinner together or go to the mall with two of them.
-You know it’s a special day today? - He asked again.
I looked at Jae and he just lifted up his shoulders telling me he doesn’t know what’s with this psycho guy.
-Come on, I know you remember, don’t act dumb, Today is one month anniversary of me and my cute A friendship!!! Give me some love now, will ya?
-Yeah…- I tried to say something but I simply burst out from laughter. Junsu always knew how to say something stupid at the best time ever, that would make us laugh, so I simply held onto Jae’s elbow, because it was even hard to stand.
-C’mon show some respect I even brought snacks and beer.
-Very romantic Junsu, but isn’t it for the soccer match?-JaeJoong laughed.
-Well, technically…it’s not my fault that the match is on the same day! But isn’t it the best way to celebrate anyway?
-Sure, sure… then I’ll simply go and study…have fun you two,-I said.
-Study? Didn’t you quit?-Jae asked serious.
-Well I did…I was expelled, but I can not do anything so I decided to try to pass the exam for nurse volunteers in hospital.
-Chincha? Are you serious?-Jae asked again.
-Yeah, it should be fun helping others, you know…besides I have to do something until I’ll come up with better ideas.
-I’m so proud of you, - JaeJoong said and hugged me suddenly.
I didn’t get this hug for already like 4 days and I didn’t notice how I was already missing it. He always seemed so warm and fragrant, and how should I say it, huggable?
Anyway, he was something I felt good while holding and I didn’t notice that my arms where holding his neck too long.
-Hey get a room,-Junsu squealed,- and I have some game to watch here, so please, behave yourselves, I don’t need any naughty voices tonight or squeaking beds…
-Shut up, you pervert! - I hit him with a pillow.
-Oh it’s me now? Is it me, who seduces guys, huh?-He took a pillow and threw back to my face.
-Oh, don’t you dare…-pov, I was hit,-you won’t get away with this dolphin!-I said and attacked him.
We were rolling on the carpet punching each other as JaeJoong also joined. After few minutes we laid on our backs breathless.
-You’re getting old, Junsu,-I said.
-Then treat me well, Miss Nurse, - he turned to me with his cute expression.
-Is this treatment good enough?-I turned on the TV.
God, one month…I couldn’t say that’s a lot, but it really seemed like ages.
-What you’re thinking about?-JaeJoong came closer to me.
-Nothing…it’s just I didn’t notice the time. What about you?
-Nothing…my day always passes fast, so even if notice how fast I run through the life, it doesn’t matter. Because every day will be the same anyway. Today when we came from the airport I saw so many people going after us and somehow it made me nauseous. Don’t they have their own life? Sometimes it seems that there are things I don’t know about myself but others do…
Somehow it seemed so familiar….
- But you wanted to be famous.
-Yeah, but…
-Sometimes it’s better when wishes don’t come true… but you wanted it for so long, so it’s right, it’s the way it should be, just don’t think about it as a bad thing. You never get anything for free, and this is your price. But isn’t it good in some way? I mean don’t you get free stuff from those girls, who waits you, and isn’t it quite funny too. You should be happy to get such support, - I
smiled to him.
-Yeah, I know you’re right…it’s just…even if I get so much warm, I still feel cold…
-Oh, c’mon you’re spending too much time with Yoochun, - I laughed
-And what does it have to do with him?
-Oh, he always tends to look for warmness…
-I’m not like that!
-Sure you’re. When was the last time you’ve been with a girl? Yesterday? Today morning?
-I don’t know…About few months ago maybe.
-You’re kidding me, no guy would last that long.
-Well it’s the way it is, my last evening with female ended right before I met you.
-I thought you’re more popular than that, - I laughed
-Whoa!!! Hit it! Hit it! Yay! Guys come here Korea scored! I told you they would kick those loosers ass,-Junsu squealed.
We went back and watched the game, but after couple hours Xiah got totally drunk and fell asleep, because Korea loosed 1:2 .
-Ah it will be hard to carry this ass back home…
-Then don’t, let him stay here, it’s your house anyway.
-But then where you’ll sleep,-Jae asked.
-Aish, here is plenty of space to sleep.
-Lets just take him to the car and Micky will take him to his room.
-If you say so, - I agreed and helped him to take Xiah on his back. I wasn’t much of a help, I just opened the door when we arrived to their apartment while Micky and Jae carried him home.
-Take care of him,-I shouted to Micky’s back.
-Don’t worry he’s in good hands, - Jae said and held me the passenger door,-come on I want to take you somewhere.
-Where?
-It’s a secret, - he showed his tongue.
-If it would be the last day of your life, what place you would visit?-I asked.
-I guess it would the same as I’m taking you to.
-Are you going to introduce me to your parents?!
-Of course no, but I can if you want to. I wouldn’t like to make my last day sad with goodbyes, so I guess I simply would choose a place where I can feel calm. What about you?-he asked.
-I guess …it’s the same, - I answered looking through the window where city lights where reflecting on the water.
-I hope you realize it’s my favorite place ever,-I said to him as we where walking closer to the bridge.
-Really? Mine also.
-It’s where we met for the first time too…
-Actually no,-he said while looking at my confused expression,-the first time I saw you, was running with bare feet on the pavement…was it almost month ago?
-So you where there too?-I asked
-Yeah, it was the first time you took my breath away, and then here..., - he touched the rail.
I watched how the Han River was flowing and as always, taking my worries away. And even if I remembered everything, it made me calm as if I was already reconciled with my fate and past…
The glittering lights were before his eyes, reflecting in his pupils.
-You’re like the river; I can see it in you. You always make me calm, and somehow I even forgot to come here. But it’s a bit scary… what if you’ll take me away with one wave, and I won’t be able to get away, to resist to the current and survive?
-Then you’ll be living in me forever,-he simply said smiling.
-Dance with me?-he took my hand as the passing ship played the waltz and made all the couples dance on the deck.
I followed his steps, and even if I was a bad dancer he led my every move and I was simply relying on him. We danced around the glimmering lights, with sparkling stars above our heads and roaring river underneath us. As my hands were around his neck I closed my eyes breathing the same air as he did.
-If I would be the river…then you would my sea, because river can not live without it, and always dreams to come back to the sea. It’s like everlasting circle;-he whispered and turned me around holding me from the back. His arms went higher my waist and I saw him hooking up a necklace on my neck. It was silver with little blue eye in the circle.
-Stay with me, let me keep you in my heart,-he said looking into my eyes now.
I wanted to say something but instead I just looked at him blankly. His full lips were in front of me,so I just followed my senses and leaned closer to him and pressed my lips to his.
He was sweet and somehow reminded me of summer and strawberries. My head filled with dizziness and I felt my knees trembling. I stepped back for air and looked at him wondering if what I’ve done was ok.
He smiled brightly and took me in his arms, lifting my chin to get closer to him for a long kiss.
I’m not sure if it was my revenge for Changmin or if I really did like JaeJoong. Maybe I simply wanted to fool my heart and change the man I should go after, maybe I just wanted to act the way he wants and please him for all the good things he did for me, but it would be a lie, if I would deny that I wanted his hands to be on me, his lips pressed to mine and his tongue on my skin. I knew how good his body was and it wouldn’t hurt if I would make sure of it.
We drove back to his apartment, which I occupied for several days, my hand all the time was held by his and it was a good feeling, so I wasn’t even going to let go of that soft touch.
-I’ll take a shower, - he said before giving me a peck on my lips.
I ran to the kitchen and took every candle that I could find. When I was I lightening them one by one, my brain suddenly turned on, asking me what am I doing now, but I had to ignore them and act the way I want at least once in a life time.
-Are you burning something?-I heard JaeJoong coming from bathroom.
I came in the room right after him and hugged him from the back.
-Make a wish,-I whispered into his ear.
He closed his eyes for a moment and blowed out the closest candle to him.
-What was your wish?
-I can’t tell, it won’t come true then,-he said playfully.
-I’m sure it will,-I said and kissed his collar bone.
Twinkling candles made air quiver and my sight became blurry, when the only thing I could see clearly remained his dark eyes.
I wiped away his hair from his gorgeous face, touching his skin with my fingertips.
-Kiss me,-I whispered while my lips were brushing his cheek.
Soon I tasted strawberries on my lips again, as he parted my mouth and shove into his tongue. I pressed him closer and felt that under the dressing-gown he was completely naked. The thought of it, made me shiver, I don’t know if he felt it, but his hands pressed my hips closer to him.
-Don’t run away, - he whispered licking down my neck. His teeth bit my skin sucking deeper and leaving wet spots from his saliva. My muscles strained as soft pain became sinful pleasure, and I had to press his head harder to make him continue. I started undressing myself, but Jae was faster ripping away my outdoor clothes with one move. He leaned me against a wall and I held onto his shoulders.
-Just tell me to stop and I will, -he said breathlessly after putting down kisses on every part of my body.
-Don’t even think about it…stop what you’re doing now, and you’re dead body,-I cut him of and changed our positions, by pressing his back to a wall.
I held his both hands, our fingers were crossed, and I could feel his palms getting wet from sweat. I kissed his hair and teased him bitting his ear.
-You can be a bad boy for today, don’t worry, you won’t get any punishments…perhaps, - I whispered into his ear and started giving him kisses down his neck. I could feel his skin taste, a bit salty, yet tempting, I couldn’t resist licking him. His chest was strong and muscular. I thought it’s like a marble except for the fact that it was warm and I could feel his fast heartbeats, his scent…
I never could imagine that he had a ring in his nipple, It would be a lie, if I would say that I didn’t like it, because I wanted to play with it so much, to spin it and kiss him…I don’t know if it hurt, but he gasped…so it’s one of your sensitive spots, huh? But it wouldn’t be enough for me, and my hands slid to his waist, touching his belly. He shivered and I was getting exited even more. The cloth, which was hanging on him, soon fell on the floor.
It was the second naked guy in front of me, and somehow I started liking the view. Do you taste the same Jae? Anyway, he was bigger than Changmin…I looked at his eyes when my lips where already on his navel. His eyes were closed, but when he felt, that I was watching him, he met my eyes too. We looked at each other for few moments. I wanted to know his thoughts, his emotions and feelings, but somehow they seemed so alike with mine, that I smiled. I bet I would get his smile back too, if not my naughty tongue that was already going down his belly to his member. His eyelids closed and he moaned silently. I wanted to hear his voice. To know he’s here, feeling me, as I felt him. I wanted him to come for me, screaming my name, so I licked him faster, until he was fully in my mouth.
-Ah…Alex…I…-he was short for air, but I couldn’t let him go, so I stroked his member. I kissed the top of him, now it shouldn’t get any bigger, I thought.
-I will…Alex. I ,-I know what he meant, it was too obvious, that it won’t hold back for long…and then he came on my hands and lips…I licked my lower lip, watching him closely. He was so sweet. I guess I couldn’t compare anything yet, since I lacked of experience, but anyway, his taste always resembled me something. Heat. Summer. Salty ocean.
I kissed his lips letting him know his own taste. My fingers were still sticky and I shoved one of them into my mouth, licking his taste again. I brushed my finger on his lips. And he could feel both of us mixed on my fingertip. I licked his bottom lip, and parted his mouth. Our tongues started dancing as the kiss got deeper. At first I thought that the kiss lifted me higher, but actually he was carrying me. I felt sheets sliding down my back.
My legs were spread wide around him. And I felt that there are no longer any panties on me, the same as the bra. His lowered body was pressed to mine and I could feel him brushing against me, but soon he had to leave some space for his hand sliding down my belly, to my sensitive spot. But he didn’t touch me. Instead of that he lifted up my back and lowered his head down to me. His tongue licked my clit. And now he was working on me, the same way I did to him before.
My back suddenly curved while my nails grabbed the sheets. I couldn’t control my body, because it was getting weak too, as I breath heavily moaning.
-Do you like it?-JaeJoong saw my reaction.
-Don’t stop…Jae…you’re…driving me crazy…don’t…stop, -I tire to say words, but somehow it seemed more like a groan.
Hi slide his finger into me. Even if I was already wet, he was too gently and I placed my hand on his. Therefore he slid second finger.
Now his face was just inches from mine and I hugged his back tightly, because I was embarrassed to let out more moans. But as he started moving even faster my whine was turning to groans again.
-Don’t worry..say it…say my name…Alex.
-Jae…Oh, Jae, I’ll come…Take me…Jae,-I tried to speak.
-Wait for me, - he said and suddenly pushed his member in me. Even if I was already ready, my muscles still strained.
-Relax, my jagya… relax, - he whispered into my ear and I followed his lead again.
Every my cell started filling up. I couldn’t feel any pain, which hit me at the beginning. Now it was pleasure, that I wouldn’t exchange for anything.
He got deeper and his moves were getting faster.
It may be a strange feeling, to feel someone inside you. But even the thought of it made me happy. Jae in me. I remembered his words that I will have to stay in him forever. In my river. But it wasn’t like that. Now we both were in each other, filling each others every spot, with our own being, letting our minds and bodies to merge. And there are no words how high it can make you feel.
-Come for me…come for me, Alex, - he whispered waking me up from my trance.
With his last move he got into the top of me, and we both moaned, knowing we reached the ecstasy.
We spilled on each other. Maybe it was at the same moment, but I couldn’t be sure, as I was so wet already from my own juice.
I hugged him tightly and his arms found my back soon too. He was pressing me with almost all his weight. But it didn’t felt heavy; I heard his heartbeats and heavy breaths, as I felt his wet soft skin. He was still in me, and we both lied like this for a long time, trying to preserve every touch.
-Saranghae,- I heard JaeJoong’s voice,-Saranghae,-he said again as his eyelids closed.
It was the first time.
I barely knew what real love is, or what it at least should be like.
From the way I knew it from Changmin, it was a mess, and I didn’t want such feelings to keep bugging me.
But JaeJoong…This love was warm and cozy, and I could completely rely on him, knowing that I’m protected and safe, knowing that someone is taking care of me, not because of a pity, but because he wants it himself.
Then is this love too? Are these feelings that real?
I couldn’t say anything to him now, because I was too confused, so I just stroked his hair, letting him to fall asleep calmly in my embrace.