| Fan Fiction |
by Kinra
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Summer brought the heat and every rain drop or wind breeze became essential, but not found anywhere.
My body was soaked in sweat, and every breath needed special efforts to be inhaled.
-Here, - JaeJoong brought me ice cold tea.
-Uh, thank you, - I said and drank everything in one gulp.
-You really can not bear the heat, can’t you? - He laughed.
-As you see…
- We can start living at night, and seeping at day, like true vampires, you know?
-Yeah, and we can buy that castle in Transylvania also…do you want my blood, darling?
-Sure,-he chuckled and bit my neck.
-Do you think we could go to pool or lake? - I asked.
-Anyo…guys will eat you up if they’ll see you with bikini.
-isn’t it otherwise, you’re the one who’s stalked.
-Anyway, we have different plans for today…
-Like what?
-Today we’ll have a party.
-A party?-I asked.
-Yeah, its Taemin’s birthday…you’ll go with me, won’t you?
-But I don’t know him. Maybe it’s better if you’ll go alone.
-That’s the reason I’m taking you together, you’ll get to know to my friends, - he smiled.
Do JaeJoong’s friends mean Changmin’s friends too?
-Oh, I’m dying, I really can’t go, I think I have a fever, look my pulse is so fast, really I should stay at home, and you… You may enjoy that wonderful birthday thing. Yeah, that’s right. Isn’t it the perfect plan, huh?
-Then, I’ll have to take care of you, and give you special treatment, - he smirked.
He leaned closer sliding his under my t-shirt.
-Where does it exactly hurts?-he asked brushing my bra.
-Anywhere! It doesn’t hurt anywhere!
-Than if you are fine we can go, - he carried me to the bedroom, - do you have some normal clothes? - he asked.
-What do you mean? My all clothes are normal; - I took a pair of jeans, my new blue sneakers and a blouse.
He looked at me confused.
-Don’t tell me you’ll wear THIS?
-Sure I will, should I go naked then? By the way what’s wrong with my clothes, they’re absolutely fine.
-We are going shopping then.
-I don’t want to, I have clothes.
-But they are not appropriate; - he said and took me down stairs to the car.
We drove to the city center full of shops, which could offer you everything you wanted, of course for really nice price…
-Jae, I really don’t need all this, - I said looking at the pill of clothes.
-Oh, try this, these colors really match you, - he said giving me a dress.
I rolled my eyes and entered the changing cabin. I took off my shoes and started unzipping my pants when I felt two hands removing my t-shirt.
-Jae?! What are you doing here?!-I screamed.
-It will be faster like this, you have many left to change to.
-Stop it, I can change myself…Are you watching me? - I asked when I felt his on me.
-No, - he said biting his lips.
-But you are.
-No I’m not,-he said coming closer.
-Yes you…
He pressed me to the wall and kissed me, not letting me to end the sentence.
-Jae we are in the shop…-I tried to pull off.
He ignored my words and slide his hand into my panties.
My hands instantly curled around his shoulders, because somehow I felt a need to hold onto something. My knees would still get weak whenever he would come closer to me. Even after all the time we spend together lying on the grass and having a picnic or exploring new possibilities of our bodies in bed, it still made me shiver at his touch. From one point of view it was great, to get all that pleasure and excitement, but from the other side I was completely irresponsibly addicted to him and with no power to resist…
And right now here it goes again…
-Miss, do you need any help?-I heard assistants voice.
-No…-I tried to answer.
-Are you sure?-she asked again
-Yes,-I tried to say as normal as possible, But JaeJoong was taking a good care of me, and my words looked more like a moan, then simple answer.
I didn’t need any words anymore to slip from my mouth, so I looked for his lips, and when his found mine we fell into deep kiss.
Sometimes kisses were hard with JaeJoong, often my lip would start bleeding, or I would simply not get enough air, because there was no way I could drawback from such passionate kiss. But despite that dangerous and crazy sex, I guess we were doing well. No one found out that I’m his girlfriend yet, because Jae already was used to this stuff and knew some tricks, how to fool others. The only bothersome thing was to wait all the day until he’ll come back after work.
It did gave me odd feeling… like a family feeling, you know? We would work at day, then I would come home to OUR apartment, and that was strange too, because it seemed that we are already living together, because he would stay whenever he can, and boyfriends don’t live with their girlfriends, right? So I would make dinner, we talk, have fun and sex…and it really seemed like we are newlyweds. We would go to the market and shop together, count the bills together, brush teeth together; I even started ironing his shirt! I never was used to this kind of stuff, but somehow I liked it.
Every spot of my environment was taken cared of, no sharp objects, no nothing that could hurt, just warm and cozy feeling, filling you when you wake up and see his gorgeous smile right beside you…
But even if our relationship seemed absolutely perfect, I didn’t confessed to him yet, and I knew this won’t slip away. He waited for me. And actually I waited for myself too. Whenever he would do something romantic or cute, I would ask myself -‘do you love him?’ How about now? Or now? So do you?’- But I still wasn’t sure. Maybe I really loved him, but those words somehow wouldn’t come from my mouth. And I couldn’t understand why. He was my best friend, we could talk together for whole night, choose the clothes for the next day for each other, he taught me to cook, and how to do make up for my self, we also were lovers and he did improved my skills there too. Whenever I thought of it, I never had such full and complete relationship; it was just perfect, maybe even too perfect.
-Are you thinking what dress you’ll wear for tonight?-he asked, kissing my neck.
-uhu...I am, I mean no...I don’t care about the dresses...I was thinking how perfect you are.
-I wouldn’t bother to be perfect, if not the girl that deserved the best.
-So will you talk, or will you make love to me? - I questioned.
-Yes miss, - he said pressing my hips closer to him.
-Excuse me, but are you sure you don’t need any help?-THAT ANNOYING VOICE CAME AGAIN.
-No!-We both said in one time and chuckled after realizing that.
-I guess we’ll have to wait for the evening,-I said brushing my fingertips down his belly.
-Oh, woman, now you’re seducing me.
-It’s not my fault that you are already hard,-I said, because I knew even better then my fingers did, that he already was.
-Of course it’s your fault! Do you think I got exited because of that Prada dress?
-Speaking about dresses, I didn’t wear any of them yet.
-It’s okay; we’ll just take all of them, just put something on yourself, I don’t need any assistants watching at you while stroking their dicks.
-Yeah, yeah, - I said slipping into one of the dresses and high heels.
He took my hand and pulled me from cabin. I noticed that everyone was starring, but it maybe that it’s normal to stare at the couple that almost had sex in their shop.
-Wrap all of those clothes, and we’ll take this one too,-he said pointing to the short and tight sparkling dress that I wore.
-Yes sir,-said the cashier with trembling voice.
- I hope we won’t be late,-he looked at the clock.
-But we don’t have a present, - I remembered.
-It’s okay; we already have one in my car.
And this was strange too. A present from us. I mean US together. Even if I didn’t give him any money, he said ‘we’, our present, that we’ll give from both of us together. Doesn’t it look like a statement ‘we are a couple that buys staff together’ will it look like we live together too? Only Junsu knew and saw us together as a couple, no one in this entire world could realize that such a prince could date such rubbish like me. And if others would knew that we really are dating, and living together, and having sex together, wouldn’t it be like a hit to everyone? I mean, look at him, his the top idol, best looking male in whole universe, whose life is stalked 24/7 …do I have to write a testament or something? Because I doubt it will be unnoticed, and his fans will let me walk away complete with all my body parts. Ripping my head away and collecting puzzles from my pieces would look more realistic.
-Jae? Are you sure that I should come together? I mean will it be okay, for you and my personal health?
-Don’t worry; there will be no one except for my friends. They’re family. And now you are part of it, - he smiled again.
Aish, this relationship really does have side effects, I will have a heart attack because of this gorgeous smile and warm eyes and full lips…Lips that tastes like strawberries, lips that you can’t stop tasting when you try once…
My fantasy was less an inch away from him and I parted my lips, because I needed his to be on mine, to feel sweet kisses again…
But he suddenly backed off, and pulled me into the car.
-W-what’s wrong? - I asked confused,-d-did I do something?
-Alex, we are in the street, you can not kiss me like that, someone might recognize me. Don’t act so careless anymore. Do you understand?
-Okay,-I said.
And all the time he was driving, we didn’t say a word to each other.
When he parked the car I looked at him and saw that he was thinking hard about something. Did I really cause so much worry for him? Maybe I really will ruin everything for him?
-I’m sorry, - I said but he said the same word too.
He pressed his finger to my lips.
-I’m a jerk, I shouldn’t have said that…kiss me whenever you want,-he said and leaned closer to me.
I touched his check, soft like silk, as always…my lips brushed it, his forehead, his closed eyelids, his perfect nose and his tempting lips. I closed my eyes. I could feel his fragrance; the air he breathed, even this taste was already playing on my lips. But maybe I was imagining it, because I already knew it so well… nevertheless, I would still miss it whenever I couldn’t feel it.
I could feel his eyes on me, how he followed my every move, trying to understand what I am doing. As my eyes opened they instantly met his and we watched at each other deeply, trying to speak without words. His eyes were warm and I knew they could never change; they always would stay loving and caring as right now.
-I love you; -I felt how words came from my mouth.
Those words were so unconscious, and I still couldn’t understand were they really told aloud, or just said in my mind. I tried to understand it through the silence, but all I could see were his two deep brown eyes, watching through my soul.
-I love you, - this time I repeated with more confidence.
He blinked few times, and wide smile appeared on his face.
-I love you too, - he said with teary eyes, grabbing me into a hug,- I waited, every day I waited hoping that someday you will say it…Say it again, Alex.
-I love you,-I said hugging him tighter.
He faced me again, but this time for a long and passionate kiss. I didn’t need any air, nor could I feel how blood drop streamed down my chin. It was a moment when nothing else existed, just our feeling that embarrassed us, protecting from the whole world, waiting outside.
Suddenly someone knocked on the window, and as I looked over Jae’s shoulder I saw big Junsu’s grin.
-Oh, oh, Jae, do me, do me, - he imitated a kiss scene with his imaginary friend, grabbing the air and sticking out his tongue.
-Hello to you too…do you always ruin everything? Is it your hobby or something?-I asked.
-No, but it can be, if it will bring such expression on his face again,-Junsu pointed at JaeJoong.
I have to admit he did look like hitting something.
-I guess today will eat grilled meat,-he said coming closer to Junsu, with his folded fists,- but first I have to prepare it…
-Erm, I guess we can manage without that, - I said holding him from the back.
-Calm down hyung, I’m just kidding; -Junsu laughed and ran to the apartment. Jae followed him, so I just took the present and went upstairs.
-After you, - JaeJoong held me the door.
I entered the room and was surprised how it looked. Every corner was stacked with colorful balloons, in the middle a big table was trembling from plenty of food, and on top of him there was a big heart shape cake, with 18 candles.
-So he’s young?-I asked.
-Well isn’t he the same age as you?
-No, I am already eighteen, and he is just turning, so I’m still his noona. Anyway, you tried hard for him.
-We do our best for our friends, - a cold voice said.
I turned around and saw a guy sitting on the sofa. He had a small face, brown eyes, and was quite tanned, his hair were short, light brown color.
I bowed shyly, but he just gave me spiteful look and left the room.
-Yunho! Come back, - JaeJoong shouted.
I tried not to listen to their talk, but since it was getting louder and louder, I heard almost everything.
-What’s wrong with you?! Why are you acting like a child?
-I don’t have to greet every whore who comes here!-Yunho answered.
*SLAP*
-Don’t you ever call her like that! Do you hear me Yunho?! -JaeJoong shouted.
-Hyung, stop it, please…-Junsu came in.
-What’s going on? - I heard Yoochun’s voice.
-Nothing, - said Yunho and the door slapped.
JaeJoong came back to me and hugged me over my shoulders.
-I’m sorry.
-It’s okay…I can leave.
-No, it’s not your fault that he acts like a jerk.
I caught Yoochun’s gaze and he wanted to leave the room too, but Junsu grabbed his hand and took him to the sofa. He wanted to objected, but Junsu legs curled around his, and he sit calmly, and then Junsu punched him for something I couldn’t understand yet.
-Welcome to the family, - Yoochun said.
-Oh, thank you, - I said and we smiled at eachother.
-And now I’ll go talk to Yunho, so, Junsu please, get the fuck out of my way,-Yoochun said and left us.
-Oh, that’s quite cool, like for the first time! - Junsu squealed, - I can’t wait until everyone will gather up!
And at those words I felt like fear clutched my stomach, taking my breath away and squeezing my head into vacuum.
But then two hands landed on my waist.
-Everything will be okay, - JaeJoong whispered and kissed my forehead, - everything will be okay. Trust me.
- I trust you; - I said and closed my eyes trying to make my breaths normal as usual.
‘I trust you JaeJoong, but I can not trust myself’-I thought when images of Changmin’s face started popping up in my mind again…