| Fan Fiction |
by Kinra
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Waiting in a room
All dressed up and bound and gagged
To a chair
It's so unfair
I won't dare move, for the pain
She puts me through is what I need
So make it bleed
I'm in distress, oh mistress
I confess so do it one more time
These handcuffs are too tight
You know I will obey, so please
Don't make me beg
For blood, sex and booze you give me
Some say I'm disturbed
But it's what I deserve, another lesson
To be learned...from a girl called kill
My head is in the gutter
Thank you sir, strike up another mandolin
Of discipline
Throw me to the dogs
Let them eat my flesh down
To the wood
It feels so good
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Do I have to repeat that this day was the most fucked up ever? And I don’t mean fucked up like fucked, because there was no fucking, and that’s not the only wrong thing.
-So why did you took us as here, Yunho? You know it’s not the right time. We can’t leave Alex alone.
-She’s with Changmin, Chun, he’ll take care of her, now the three of us have to discuss something and I thought this is the right place, since we can’t be noticed.
-Firstly, I’m not going to discuss anything with this pimp, secondly your taste is awful. The services in this club are simply disgraceful, and look at the design…
-Hey, I won’t tolerate any disrespect, and if you’ll insult my club again I-
-Calm down, Heechul, we didn’t come here to quarrel, - Yunho said.
-Yunho how can you trust this freak at all?! He hurt A, and now he’s might be setting a trap for us. But no, few ages ago he was your friend, so it’s okay to talk shit like nothing ever happened. But you know, wounds on Alex’s body are telling something different to me, - I couldn’t hide my anger, - and where’s that bitchy waiter with my coke?! I told you this place is an ass hole.
-Fuck your coke! I already told you I didn’t know she was Yunho’s friend. If I get orders, I do them. And I don’t fucking care even if it’s the queen of England, because this is how I keep the food on the table. Besides if it’s not for me she would be dead already…
-One more word and you’re-
-Stop it! Both of you! You’re acting like kids. Yoochun, you should show some respect, because if it wasn’t Heechul, we might not got away this easy. Now let’s get to business we don’t have much time.
-We just need to hide her, - I said lighting my cigarette,- maybe she should even leave the country.
-JaeJoong won’t let her go alone, - Yunho replied.
-You know, he’s pissing me off too. I mean what’s wrong with him? He searched Alex like mad, and when we finally found her, he’s gone himself, acting like he doesn’t care.
-He has a lot on his mind, Chun, let him be.
-Geez, you’re so irritable, just like my grandma, - Heechul opened his mouth.
-That’s it; I’m smashing his head-
-Park Yoochun, - Yunho lowered my arm, - don’t play on my nerves.
-Fine, then solve everything with your fairy tale princess,-I stood up again, - I’m leaving this shitty place, I hope we won’t have to look for you too, Yunho.
I went to my car, and that was the only comfort. A fast ride with my baby would always calm me down. So I started the engine, leaving the parking lot with loud pleasant roar. When speedometer’s arrow was over hundred, I finally was happy. City lights shone from every angle and I felt like in hagiophobic tunnel of everlasting trip to hell. But that was totally fine with me, since it seemed that all of my life I raced with none other then devil himself.
I would have watched the road with those empty thoughts for a whole night if not my beeping cell phone, vibrating in my pocket.
-Okay, you have thirty seconds, Junsu,-I said.
-I want more,-he replied.
-You always do.
-silence-
-Okay. How much then you want?-I asked.
-Are you driving?-he asked.
-My question was first.
-silence-
-Okay, I am driving. So what? Can’t I drive?
-Then pick me up. I’m by your mother’s restaurant.
-What were you doing there? Don’t you have any other places to eat? - I asked, but he already hung up.
Uh, I hated this new strategy of his. Always leaving me hanging, with this stupid silence. Even if I prefer that his mouth would be tightly shut, I have to be the one who ends the sentence, not that dork.
After ten minutes I reached my destination irritated again and the seat on my right was taken.
I completely ignored him, like a taxi driver, who doesn’t give a shit about his passenger.
-Won’t you ask me what I was doing at your mum’s place? - He couldn’t endure the silence.
-Why should I? Chicks like to talk, don’t they? - And this time I knew the battle was won by me.
-Baka.
-Baka yourself.
-Shut up.
-Shut up yourself. You’re the one who started talking shit,
-I said.
Two to nil to Yoochun. Woohoo.
-Where are others? - He asked pissed.
-Are you their babysitter?
-Okay, okay, Junsu-chan, I’m driving you home, no need to get that red, you might explode, - I said as I saw his anger grow. And that was another point to me.
As we reached the hotel where we were staying, none of us talked. And of course I was curious what he was doing at my place, but I knew I can’t ask, so I pretended I don’t care and went to the room following him.
-Soo…what you were doing in the city? - I asked.
-You’re curious? - He teased.
-No.
-You want to know?
-No.
-Ah, you do care, don’t you?
-No! Just tell me what the fuck you were doing there with my mother?
Okay, now my points are gone somewhere.
-Actually I wasn’t with your mother, what do you think I am? Perveted freak?
-Well, maybe not a pervert, but definitely a freak.
-Pff. I was with your sister, you donkey.
-You were with my sister?!
-Yeah, didn’t I just say that, I don’t need a repeater, think of some other words I didn’t use. Don’t copy my Junsuness.
-What. You. Were. Doing. With. My. Sister?-I said through clenched teeth.
-Well she’s a girl too, and quite pretty, and if you look at her from the back…
I jumped from the bed, ready to kill him.
-Okay, okay, I was just…kidding. I don’t care about your sister. But your face sure looked like that golems from lord of rings, when your eyes popped. I guess I should do that more often, since your eyes are so narrow and small, sometimes I wonder do you see anything.
-You’re a dead, - I jumped on his bed with the most painful punishment in my mind ever.
-No, no, you don’t,-he started squealing, but my tickling technique was the best with any chance to defend.
Our sumo continued until we laid our backs on the bed breathing loud.
-Chun’ie, Alex won’t keep the baby, - Junsu said after a while.
-I know, Junsu, there’s nothing we can do about that.
-I want that she would keep it. You know I would make beautiful birth party…
-Sure you would…
I turned to face him, and saw his eyes watching through the ceiling like there was something important he was looking for up there. But the ceilings were plain white, and the only thing you could discover there was emptiness and nothing.
-Junsu,-I opened my mouth, but it closed shut as soon as I saw a tear rolling down his cheek,- Junsu…I
-Never mind….It’s just sad that history keeps repeating…By the way I met HER. We decided to meet in your mother restaurant…But it felt so different, like she wasn’t the same person anymore. Back then she loved to laugh with me, and being together would be simply enough. But now, all she sees in me is sparkling celebrity with tons of money and good friends.
-I thought she was gone from the country, because of SM abuse…
-Yeah, she had relatives somewhere in Japan. And she married some guy. Now they came back here, to visit her parents. So she called me, saying she wants to meet. I guess this was a good bye since we didn’t have it back then.
-Um,I… I’m sorry for making fun of you; I thought I was the only one having a bad day…
-It’s fine.
-Love is sure a fucked up thing, - I said exhaling deeply.
He didn’t answer, just breathed out and turned to me.
-Haven’t you ever felt it? - He asked.
-Felt what?
-This, - he said drawing me closer.
My eyes widened when he pressed his lips to mine. Since I was shocked, I forgot how to move, how breath or how to kick as mad, and for those three seconds, I kept paralyzed. Until he opened his mouth touching my bottom lip with his tongue, which was trying to shove into my own shut mouth. I shivered and felt that my body is in control again, so I instantly backed up. But then another problem came in, I couldn’t lift my eyes, because I had a sensation that he was watching me.
Shit. Can’t I just hit him with my closed eyes. Okay, let’s count to three. One, two…
I looked at him clenching my fists, but he took my arm and spoke again.
-I won’t force you, Chun’ie, just tell me to stop and I will.
No, don’t come closer…don’t…
But it was too late. He pushed me to bed, getting on top of me, pressing my body with his own weight. My desperate mind told me to scream for help, but I just closed my eyes as little red riding hood before wolf. His fingertips were brushing my face. I heard how he inhaled deeply taking my smell to his nostrils, and I wondered did I have a shower today. But I knew that he did, because his fragrance reminded me of soup and that new perfume I gave him on his birthday. I knew he did it on purpose, to leave a good impression on her, because girls should go crazy for that smell. You know, perfume is all about sex, to make your partner want you from tip to toe. His finger landed on my mouth parting my lips. God, he was kissing me again. I can not compare it with any other kiss, all my kisses where with girls, but surprisingly, this one was more tender and sweeter? Usually all I could feel on some whore’s lips were lipsticks, but this time…Oh, c’mon I have to push him away.
-Chun’ie…-He whispered to my ear, - why don’t you look at me? I want to see your eyes. I want that you would feel…good.
He started unbuttoning my shirt, leaving kisses on my neck and chest. His arm went down my belly, and I felt how it strained. Shit, I’m not horny, I’m not getting horny. But my pants got tighter and tighter. Junsu just pressed himself harder to my lower body.
-Are you uncomfortable? Do you want that I would help you?-he moved up, brushing his member to mine, which was already hard too.
His arms unzipped my jeans, which instantly felt better. But I didn’t expect he’ll want to remove my boxers too. I jumped slightly, but my muscles were still tensed, and it didn’t took him much effort to push me down again.
-Calm down, Chun’ie, I know what you like, - he said leaning down.
This was the moment when I had to say STOP!
But instead, I just gasped, since he took my member in his arms and licked the top, making me shiver.
-Junsu…
-Yes, Chun’ie? - He raised his head.
-Don’t …just don’t…stop,- I finally said the word.
It was all he needed to continue. He bowed his head and coped my cock. This time I didn’t close my eyes, and watched how he managed to suck my member. I wondered how good was he, if he dared to brag that he can make me pleased…But I have to admit, that even if he wasn’t skilled (how could he) and his teeth were giving me a problem at first, his tongue worked better then at talking shit.
His moves were gentle; I brushed his hair and pressed his head closer. He wrapped his tongue and begun to move faster. Blood in my veins seemed ten times hotter now, and I clenched my teeth, because I could not let any moan escape my mouth, because this would show how thrilled I was.
He was greedy, taking me in inch by inch in his small mouth. Something warm and wet ran my chin, and I realized I was biting my lip all the time. I left my bottom lip alone, and finally moaned of satisfaction.
-Junsu-ah, please, harder, uh…
He lifted his eyes and looked at me, my blood didn’t get unnoticed. All of a sudden he reached for my neck drawing my head closer to his. He gave a lick on my chin, like on a big vanilla ice cream, and then kissed me forcibly. While his tongue danced in my mouth, his other hand begun to stroke my cock fast. I needed more air, but he didn’t let go of me, so I gave up and let my tongue into his mouth too. But the deeper kiss got, the more I wanted it to continue.
-Uh, it’s too much, Junsu-ah...uh, - he stroked even faster and I just laid my back on the bed, holding to the sheets.
-Come for me, - he leaned to whisper, and playfully bit my ear.
-Uh...I …Ah,-I cried out of relief. And I knew I was knocked out this fast for the first time.
He unbuttoned his pants too and I saw his hardened cock. He took it with his sticky palms and I thought that he’s going to help for himself now. But I was wrong, and didn’t get the meaning at first. He turned me on my stomach and grabbed my butt.
-Enough…stop,-This time I really tried to resist. But it was hopeless for me to say something.
-Uh, - I felt how wet finger went into me.
-Don’t worry; I’ll go when you’re ready,-he shoved into other finger, going deeper and deeper, it felt good until he loosed his patience, and took his cock. He moved into me slowly, but still tearing me apart.
-Stop it, Junsu, I want you to stop.
He didn’t listened and trusted in, at first gently and slowly, but his member got even bigger and it hurt like hell.
-Uh, Junsu…
-A little bit more, Chun’ie, - he said breathlessly and begun to move harder and faster.
When almost all his member was in me, I felt how pain started to go away…it was replaced by pleasure. Even if it still hurt, this small pain was more like a satisfaction, and I wanted him to thrust deeper. And he did. His moves were rhythmical, getting faster with every thrust.
-Yoochun-ah, -he moaned holding my hips.
-…Just go...faster, - I groaned.
He moaned and came into me, spreading all of his white magic, which eased the pains in my hole. He took out his cock and collapsed on the bed on my left.
I heard his loud breaths, which were mixed with mine, with no possibility to distinguish, which ones they were.
-You know…I won’t let you fuck me anymore, - I said.
-Why? I thought…you liked it,-he panted.
-Because next time the one who’s fucked will be you. I won’t raise my ass in front of this dick ever again.
-We’ll see about that,-he chucked and put his head on my chest hugging my waist.
Maybe that night I didn’t realize in what deep shit I was. But as I mentioned before, this day really must be the worst ever...How I’ll be able to walk tomorrow?