A way to happiness (NC-17) [COMPLETED]
by Kinra
Chapter 6
Pangs of love
The sky was painted purple, just blue strikes and clouds were interrupting the calm up in heaving. I guess I had the same lovey dovey feeling too.
Every time I walked through the alley to Han River I was portraying his face in my mind.
At first I couldn’t realize why I had such sudden crush on Changmin, but when I think about it now it seems pretty obvious. His constant smile made me feel happy and at peace. He was sharing his happiness with me, giving away his part to me. And at this point I felt quite hopeless, because there was nothing that I could offer to him. Lets face it, he’s sweet, hot guy that every girl would like to have by her side, and I am just a plain ghost without its place in the world. I had no money, no fame, just my miserable mind and boyish figure on what my mother and stepfather always made nasty comments.
I was wondering what I should do to keep him by my side. Should I start using make up and try to walk in high heels? Learn to cook kimchi and act more cute and girlish? Well I was the worst cook ever and without sneakers there were no more shoes for me, not to mention that the only thing I was putting on my face was vaseline and cream.
Yeah, it looks like a total disaster.
Anyway, I guess I should try to forget this nonsense and finally begin to study. We weren’t meant to be anyway, and this is not a beauty and the beast fairytale either. Moreover, since when I started dreaming about a guys? Geez, is it because of spring?
My cell phone beeped and in my heart I silently hoped that this text will be from Changmin.
“I am waiting for your heart to find me….
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Kidding xD look through your window “- I read Changmin’s message.
I leaned over my window as fast as I could and there he was, showing his bright smile and waving to me. I felt my heart beating faster and this was embarrassing, wasn’t I just disappointed at my self because of my sudden loss of inaccessibility?
Despite that, i sliped into my shoes as fast as i could and ran down the stairs to him.
He was already holding passenger door for me.
-Get in,-he closed the door and started driving.
-Are you kidnaping me?
-Sure, didn‘t you dream about it up there?
-How could i even think about such a jerk like you,-i said.Ah, wasn‘t it too harsh?
-Did you miss me so much that you are pretending to be mad princes right now?-he chuckled.
-Aniyo it would be a waste of time to think about you,-and in some way it was true because all this past week I wasn’t doing nothing more then squandering my free time with thoughts about him.
-I missed you. Every morning I wanted to see your sleepy face right next to me like the first day I met you,-he said. I don’t know was it his player skills or what but I wasn’t breathing. Did he really truly mean it?
Because of his busy schedules we couldn’t meet but he called me every morning at 7 to wake me up, since he had to wake up a lot earlier. But I wasn’t sleeping anyway. Despite the thrill and happiness he gave me, my insomnia was still the same as always. And yes, I forget to mention, he did win the bet. I gave him my number after that weird morning when I found myself lying on his sheets.
-Well thank you, - I replied to him, because I knew I couldn’t let him talk with himself.
-Can you believe that this is only the second time I’m meeting you? Because I can’t. It seems like I know you since I was born.
I didn’t realize this too, until he said it loudly. Only a second meeting and I already was falling for him?!
-Does it really matters? You’ll have to meet me at least a dozen times anyway,-I heard myself.
-I guess, I guess…
-What you don’t want to?
-No. But don’t you think that dozen is such a small number, couldn’t you pick a hundred billions or something?
And we both laughed while we drove through illuminated streets of Seoul.