| Fan Fiction |
by LoveSinDance
[Saturday of first week; Junsu’s P.O.V.]
“Love me, love me, say that you love me. Fool me, fool me, oh how you do me. Kiss me, kiss me, say that you miss me. Tell me what I wanna hear, tell me you love me…”
The sound of my alarm going off wakes me from my peaceful slumber. I groan and take a look at the calendar. Saturday. Wow. A school week has passed. Cool. I still keep quiet because my roommate and the people at the other dorms might still be sleeping, and I look at the clock which shows 9:01. That means I have about 1 ½ to get ready and go to the front of the school and eat breakfast. Yes, even breakfast has a schedule. Then again, what do you expect from a private school?
So, I jump out of bed… not literally, and go take a quick shower. When I get out of the shower, I notice my roommate Changmin is still sleeping, so I decide to change. When I finish, I take a look at myself on the mirror. I am wearing some baggy light blue jeans and a pink shirt. Hey, real men wear pink. I look back at my roommate who looks so peaceful and cute sleeping. I really don’t want to wake him up, and especially not since that time he almost… yea. Well, that’s another story. But alas, I guess I must since he will throw a fit if he misses breakfast. I walk to his bed and begin to shake him, so he will wake up. The sooner the better.
“Hey, Changmin, hey, hey, wake up,” I tell him as I shake him.
“Mgghh… five more minutes…” was the only response that came from his mouth.
“Aww come on… wake up,” I say and shake him harder. Suddenly, I feel an arm hook itself around my neck and a hand pull my wrist, and I fall on top of him… on the bed. Yea, this is what I meant by the last time I encountered a half-asleep Changmin. Usually, he wakes up the instant I call out his name or something, but in rare occasions, like the one I’m currently in right now, he does the weirdest things.
“… Changmin?” I whisper to him, but he just pulls me closer.
“Can I have a good morning kiss?” he asks in a very childish way. Okay… normally, I would smile, but considering the position and situation we’re in right now maybe this is not the right time…
“Gah! Hell, no!” I yell loudly.
“Aah! Who said that?!” Changmin says fully awake and very loudly.
He looks up at me, and I look down at him.
“Umm…”
“Aaah! Rapist! Get off me!” he says and quickly shoves me off the bed, making me fall on my butt.
“What the…?! I’m no rapist!” I say rubbing my rear.
“LIAR! Liar, liar, pants on fire!”
“Aah! Fire?! Where?!”
“How would you know?! Liar!”
“Gah!”
“Mmm!” he sticks out his tongue at me.
“You keep sticking that thing out of your mouth, and I swear I’m gonna suck on it!” I threatened, but of course I was joking. Heck, Changmin would kill me even if I dared! To tell you the truth, he has a crush on… well… Yoochun.
Don’t ask me because I don’t even know what he sees in the guy; all I know is that both of them get very nervous around each other, and there will be times when Changmin will stick to Yoochun like glue… no joke.
Suddenly, the door bursts open and one of the hallway managers enters and opens our curtains. The light obviously is so strong that Changmin and I had to squint our eyes. Once the lady was done she looks back at us with a furious face. Oh no.
“You better keep it quiet and stay in here or get out for some breakfast or something!” the hall manager says.
“O-okay,” Changmin says, and the lady exits the room.
After that, Changmin quickly gets dressed, and we head to the outside tables to have breakfast from the cafeteria.
When we arrive at the cafeteria, we see Yoochun with Jaejoong, Yunho, Kibum and Heechul getting breakfast, so we go to their little group and wait in line with them. And cue Changmin-Yoochun tension. Seriously, these two need to stop pretending and tell each other how they feel or I will go crazy. I mean really, I sometimes even hear Changmin call out Yoochun’s name in his sleep, and it bothers the hell out of me. Hopefully, sometime this week, those two will tell each other how they feel or I will go mad and come up with an evil plan to get them together. Hehe.
[Changmin’s P.O.V.]
Alright, so we get our breakfasts and we go sit by the entrance of the school to eat.
I don’t know why, but I feel like someone is watching me as we are talking. It’s probably Yoochun. Gosh, I want to tell him how I really feel, but what if he just laughs at me? What if he mocks me? What if he doesn’t want to be my friend anymore? Gah! Stop it Changmin! You’re being way too paranoid! Well, it’s a Saturday, it’s sunny, the day is beautiful, and Yoochun did say that he wanted to spend the day with me. He also said it was something important. Maybe I could take this as an advantage and tell him how I feel. Oh god, what am I thinking?!
Suddenly, I feel someone tapping my shoulder. I quickly turn around only to notice Yoochun smiling at me.
“Hey, Changmin, you alright? You’re kind of spacing out. I mean look, you haven’t eaten half your breakfast,” Yoochun tells me.
I blush and quickly turn around.
“I’m fine, I’m fine.” I assure him.
And so, we all get back to our little conversation. The bell rings to signal that breakfast period has ended, so students either go to their dorms to do whatever, or like me and Yoochun, go out and have fun.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Some time later ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ahh… I’ve got to tell you, we are having such a great time together. I’ve enjoyed everything so far from the movie, to the mall, to the river, to the park… and you can’t forget lunch! But I’m having such a great time, I don’t want this Saturday to end. This is one of the best Saturdays I’ve ever had, of course, because Yoochun was with me.
Right now, we are still at the park, just walking, but neither one of us is saying a word to each other. All this silence is beginning to eat me alive. I want to speak up, but I just don’t know what words to say.
Suddenly, we stop under an old and beautiful oak tree. The warm summer night breeze hits our faces and the musical crickets begin to sing a happy tune.
“Remember this tree, Changmin?” Yoochun asks me.
“Of course! This is where we first met. I was reading a book, and you were one of my classmates who wanted some help, and we got to know each other very well… it was the first day of school of our freshman year!” I respond happily.
“I see. Do you believe in love at first sight?” he questions.
Then, my whole mind goes blank. Love? At first sight? Could he possibly be…? No, Changmin. Stop. You have to take control over your feelings.
“Well, I don’t know. I mean, sometimes it can be impossible. I mean, you’ve got to know a person before you know that you really love him right?” I respond.
I wait, but I get no response. Now, I can only hear the wind whistling past the trees and the rustle of some leaves.
The next thing I know, I am pushed to the trunk of the tree. I feel like I’m being sandwiched. My whole body begins to tense, but soon, I begin to loosen up. And that’s when I realize that Yoochun’s warm lips are pressed on mine.
He’s kissing me. The one I’ve loved for so long is finally kissing me.
Slowly and steadily I begin kissing him back. So many people would think this would be wrong, but this feels so damn right.
Soon, we break the kiss and look into each other’s eyes. Neither one of us speaks a word because no words are needed. Then, we exchange smiles.
And so, we walk back to the school building holding hands, with our fingers intertwined.
Yep. Best Saturday I’ve ever had.
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That sucked, didn't it? Oh well.
I feel kinda sad now because I'm listening to this song called "Let It Be" by The Beatles, and I guess the lyrics really speak out. I guess what it's trying to say is that all things happen for a reason, and in the end, you just gotta let it be, even though you don't want it to happen.
Oh, and here's a little poem I wrote. I got the inspiration when I was listening to "Red Sam" and "Fall To Pieces"
Feelings
Sometimes, I have too many feelings I can’t even understand them.
But the feelings are too uncontrollable that they drive me mad.
And it hurts. Everything hurts.
Even if the wound stops bleeding, another wound will open.
Even if it stops raining, it is still raining inside of me.
Even when everyone smiles around me, I put on a fake smile.
Even when I’m falling, no one catches me.
But there’s only one thing that hurts the most.
Even when I mask my true feelings, no one even cares enough to try.
No one cares enough to try to look past my mask and see the real me.
I’m just an ordinary person looking for even a pigment of meaning in this life.
This is my poem? Is it any good? Let me know plz.
And something else... does anyone here have facebook?? Just wonderin... C ya later =) <3