Fan Fiction |
by Annie, Jenni & Anna (Editors)
After the second time she heard that song, she told to herself again-“Do I really love him? If I really loved him, I should have want him to be happy with his life, if he chose me just because he doesn’t want to hurt me, It's not good for neither of us . How can I let him be with me if he’s not happy? How can I let him suffering with me? Maybe it’s the time to let him go…” And then the tears finally started rolling down on her cheek.
While wiping out her tears, she told to herself-“Ooh… Why am I crying? I haven’t even broken up with him… Even if later we’ll break up… Isn’t it better to know earlier? Rather then wait for so long then finally find out that we aren’t meant to be? Even it’s going to hurt me to see him happy with someone else… But it’s going to be even more painful for me if I know he’s unhappy with me… XiaoQiao!! You should be strong… If you’re weak like this… How can you face MeiZuo and your parents?”
Then she took a deep breath while holding a picture of them that was taken at AhSi’s wedding… Before all this had happened. When everything was fine… where she hadn’t known about an AiSha…or a XiaoTing. If they hadn’t decided to leave a day earlier… maybe it wouldn’t be like this now. Or would it? This was in the hands of fate; whatever happened had to have happened for a reason. But what good could have been meant for her? To know that there was someone else in this world that perhaps MeiZuo loved as much as her…maybe more.
As the thoughts ran through her head, she suddenly thought about something else. She knew how much she loved MeiZuo…but does he know? It had never occurred to her that maybe MeiZuo doesn’t understand her feelings toward him at all. Is that her fault for not letting him know, or is it his for recognizing it. The thoughts confused her even more. She knew she had to make some sense out of this mess…
She told to herself-“ I understand now how sweet it is if you were loved by someone… but how love becomes hurt when you break up with someone and it even more hurts when someone breaks up with you… But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel. MeiZuo… You had given me so much pleasure that I would never forget… Hopefully I had given you the same thing… and I wish I could give you that for the rest of your life“ After a while finally she can manage herself to calm down and she tried to sleep since it’s almost midnight.