| Fan Fiction |
by Autumn Letter
"BoA!"
"Hey Kim. Were you, um, looking for me?" I asked, a bit suspicious about what he wanted to talk about.
"Yeah I was, but I'm glad your here now." He was such a sweetheart but I was such a jerk.
I gave him another of my sweet smiles to make up for it.
"So, uh, how do I say this," Kim bum put a hand behind his head and looked away awkwardly, "For the past couple of years, I've had feel...No, um, I think I'm in lov---"
"BoA! BoA, BoA, BoA!!!" yelled Seul gi running towards us.
"Huh? What's wrong?"
"Yeon hee, she! she!--- just come!" Seul gi grabbed my wrist and pulled me to follow.
As I stumbled behind Seul gi I said,"Kim just message me on facebook or something, okay? Sorry I'll talk to you later!"
That's what I meant by being a jerk. I ditched poor Kim twice in the same day.
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"Yeon hee! We're here!" My voice echoed in the washroom and there was poor Yeon hee by the sink, eyes red and puffy from crying.
"Hey... It's alright." Seul gi consoled, "Now tell us what's wrong."
Yeon hee sniffled and I saw new tears drip from her eyes. I gave her a hug and smoothed down her hair. She calmed down a little.
"Junsu..." she started; she closed her eyes for a little bit and let the tears fall once again before continuing, "We... got into a huge argument... during lunch."
Seul gi and I looked at each other.
"Believe me guys, it's not like any other fight we've had." She took out her cell phone and showed us the screen.
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Time/Date: November 17 2009, 12:15 pm
From: Junsu Baby~~
I don't love you anymore. We're over.
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Yeon hee and Junsu. I couldn't think of either of them without thinking about the other. They've gotten into some pretty bad situations but not as bad as this.
Yeon hee's once sweet, motherly voice was now rough and harsh,"to think it started over that bitch, Mina."
"Mina? The one who still has my notebook from last year?" I said remembering.
Yeon hee nodded.
"Aww, it's okay hun." We both sat on either side of Yeon hee stroking her hair and holding her hand.
"But..." She started crying more than ever,"I really do love him..."
It took another 5 minutes of comforting before we got the tears to stop.
"We'll do something special tonight, okay?" I said feeling relieved that my math test and assignment was over and done with.
"I don't want to!" She cried, "I just want to go and die...!"
"C'mon Yunie...." Seul gi said, "It'll be fun. we'll dress up and everything!"
We decided to talk about it after school. It was time for class.
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My sweater was wet from Yeon hee's tears so I took it off and stuffed it into my bag.
Underneath I wore a white t-shirt. It was tight enough to show my figure. I've always been the more conserved type, but I wasn't going to walk into class with tears stains on my sweater.
I walked in about a 30 seconds after the bell rang and took my usual seat at the side of the classroom. There was another swarm of girls around Jaejoong, flirting endlessly. Our eyes met and he gave me a smile.
Mr. Lee approached me.
"Hey sir." I said.
"Hello there, BoA. Jaejoong told me you already know about your assignment. Is that so?"
"Yes." I answered,"I have a question though; Why me?"
Mr. Lee put a hand on my shoulder and smiled, "I always hear you practising on the piano in the music room. This will be a good opportunity for you to work with an experienced musician. I think you have unimaginable potential."
"Oh..." I didn't know I had a listener, "Thanks sir." I was kind of embarrassed.
It was a free period today when everyone just basically chills and works on their assignments and/or other homework. I tapped my pencil on my desk and then sighed and put my head down.
'I am so not going to fall asleep...' I closed my eyes in the darkness that was created by my arms and let my mind release itself. I heard Jaejoong playing a tune on his guitar. The tune whirled around in my head until my subconciousness memorized it and I began making lyrics.
~You greet me with one sentence: “Long time no see”
I’m happy, but for some reason I’m a little sad...~
(translation of BoA's song 'Long time no see.')
The guitar sounded closer; he began singing. In my weary state I lifted my head and met jaejoong sitting in the desk infront of me. His voice was like dream.
"Good morning." he said jokingly, "I don't think you got enough sleep."
Jaejoong laughed, "First you sleep on benches and now at a desk. I'm starting to think that you don't own a bed."
"I do!" I defended, "I just... haven't been using it much lately."
"Ah..."
Jaejoong played a melody, the one I made lyrics for.
"This," he strummed the guitar, "Is the song you'll be writing for."
"It's cute." I said.
Jaejoong tapped his guitar,"got any ideas?"
"Some." I said honestly.
"Okay let's try it out." Jaejoong lifted up his guitar and got ready to play.
"You m-mean, right now?" I sad with a tint of panic in my voice. I haven't sang for anybody besides Yeonhee and Seulgi.
He gave me a 'yeah of course look.'
"I can't," I told him, "not here."
Jaejoong snickered, "Why? Are you nervous? How about you prove to me how awesome you are. Mr. Lee said some pretty good things about you..."
'He did?' I bit my lip.
Jaejoong looked up from me to Mr. Lee and made a head gesture towards the door. Mr. Lee nodded.
"Come with me," said Jaejoong. He stood up and I could feel my heart racing.
"Where are we going?" I asked.
"Music room, so we could have some... privacy," he smiled.
When I stood up to follow, Mina stopped us, "I wanna come too!"
I looked at Jaejoong and he turned around to look at us, "If you want," he said simply and continued walking.
Mina walked passed me shouldering me agressively. She flipped her black straight hair over her shoulder and ran up to match Jaejoong's speed.
"What a bitch..." I muttered, "She's gonna pay for what she did to Yeon hee."
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We were in the music room and Mina was sitting very close to him. He didn't seem to mind.
I did.
"Can we do my song first?" She said wth a fake high voice, "I was writing it during lunch."
"Sure, go right ahead." Jaejoong said, "Sing it first and I'll try the guitar with it in the second round."
"Okay," She said taking a deep breath, "I know it's a bit early for this type of song, but here goes."
~I’ve always, always wanted to say
Thank you for getting together with me
The snow falls, saying
“Hold the person you love even more”~
Jaejoong started playing his guitar.
~I’ve always, always wanted to say
It sounded oddly familiar....
Thank you for getting together with me
I swear I know this song...
The snow falls, saying
I can't believe it!
“Hold the person you love even more"~ BoA's Meri kuri translation.
I wrote this song! This is MY song! Meri Kuri was extremely important to me. When I first wrote it I imagined singing to the people I loved, after mom and dad died many winter's ago; this song kept me sane. Mina was stealing my sanity. Nobody was supposed to sing it outloud before I did.
I was about to open my mouth to confront her when...
"Wow! That was insane, Mina." Jaejoong said with genuine satisfaction, "I can't believe you wrote that yourself."
My heart broke.
Mina giggled, "Thanks, I worked really hard on it."
My blood was boiling. I looked to Mina's hands and saw that she was holding my notebook, the one from last year. It had most of my songs in it. Last year I shared a locker with Mina and at the end she accidently took it home and I never got it back.
The thing I hated most about myself was when I get angry I cry, and I hated crying. It showed weakness. I couldn't help it though. I felt hot tears of anger rising up and my throat closed.
Jaejoong looked at me, "Are you okay, BoA?"
"Fine." I said a little too abruptly. I tried to keep my voice in control but I didn't think I could sing right now.
"It's your turn," said Mina, smirking, "Unless, you don't have anything prepared... At least one of us did."
Jaejoong looked at me and I turned away. I was seconds from breaking so I picked up my bag and left the room, "I'll try another day," I said quietly.
I closed the door behind me and semi-ran down the hallway towards the washroom. I felt tears streaming down my cheek.
When I turned the corner Kim bum caught me by the shoulders.
"Hey... what's wrong?"
I was too upset to speak, but the tears kept coming.
Music was the one thing that I truly TRULY ever loved in my life. And Mina stole it. I couldn't explain it to him.
I shook my head and tried to get out of his grasp.
"BoA..."
Kim then pulled me into a tight embrace and whispered comforting words into my ear. I gained control of my emotions and I managed to stop crying for a little bit.
I sighed and pushed Kim off me gently, "I'm okay, now. Thank you."
He sighed and I excused myself, "I'm sorry you had to see that... I'll go."
Kim caught my arm and I turned around to face him, "I'm alright, I promise." I shook off his hand and ran off to the girls washroom.