| Fan Fiction |
by Micah
“Same gender relationships? It did not even exist as an issue during my time,” Yoochun pointed out.
“Yes, I am aware. What do you think about this issue, Yoochun?” Kibum spoke casually.
Yoochun thought about it and eventually answered, “I do not know if I would accept it. It is so foreign to me and it feels…wrong. Love is supposed to be between a man and a woman. It’s what I grew up knowing.”
Yoochun was too deep in his thoughts to notice the smirk on Kibum’s lips. “Yes, it is a difficult issue.”
Then Yoochun raised his head to look at the younger man. “Is there…a reason you bring this up to me?”
“You’re a smart man. Don’t tell me you do not notice that this topic connects to why Changmin and Jaejoong are always arguing over Junsu.”
Yoochun felt like the biggest idiot in the world. “I…I’ve noticed and I once thought…perhaps…but then, I did not know that same gender relationships were possible. It was certainly unheard of during my time so I had to assume that it was just an irregular kind of…friendship.”
“It’s easier for some people to accept while others may never accept this. I’m sure you won’t discriminate them base on this and would remain their friend.”
“Yes, of course,” Yoochun immediately replied. He cherished each and every friend he’d made during his short stay in the modern era.
“While I’m at it, I should inform you of one other secret,” Kibum spoke in a serious tone. “As your friend, I do not feel that you should be kept in the dark.”
“What is it?”
“While Changmin and Jaejoong are fighting over Junsu, it seems that Junsu has fallen in love with you,” the younger man informed with sincere eyes.
Yoochun felt a wave of emotions wash over him. He could only grasp onto confusion. “What? No! How is that possible? I mean, I am not…I do not like…love people of the same gender.”
“It’s not exactly necessary,” Kibum explained.
“But…I’ve only…I see him as a friend. It…can be quite normal for people to misunderstand friendship for love. There is a thin line between friendship and love. Perhaps he is mistaking his feelings…”
Kibum sighed and Yoochun turned his eyes to him, as if asking for help. “You’re my friend, Yoochun. Junsu is my friend as well. I grew up without friends and am very thankful to have met the five of you. I do not want any of you to be hurt.”
Yoochun nodded. “I do not want to hurt Junsu.”
“Then perhaps the best way is to return to your era. Staying, allowing him to see you every day, but knowing you won’t be able to return his feelings, it will hurt him even more,” Kibum’s eyes were sad.
“You mean…when I’m gone, he will be able to move on?”
“Yes.”
Yoochun thought, he thought hard. But he couldn’t think straight. Nothing made sense and everything didn’t make sense.
“You’re right, you’re right,” he mumbled. “I…I need to go…rest. Thank you, Kibum, thank you.”
“There’s no need to thank me, Yoochun hyung.”
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“Junsu, are you okay?”
Junsu removed the headphones from his ears and looked at Changmin. “I’m listening to a really good song. It’s called ‘Day of Peace’.”
“And?” Changmin inquired, knowing there was more. Junsu had been looking so depressed in the past week that it made Changmin’s heart clench. Sometimes, Changmin wished he was lying when he continuously (on a day to day basis) told Junsu and Jaejoong that neither Yoochun nor Yunho had asked questions about them.
“You’re off today. I’m on vacation. Jaejoong’s on shift all day. Let’s go on a date.”
Changmin felt his jaw drop. He knew he was off today. He knew that Junsu had asked for vacation after closing Changmin’s case. He knew Jaejoong was going to be working all day. He did not know that Junsu would be the one to suggest a date in this lifetime.
“What?”
Junsu smiled and that seemed to hurt Changmin even more, because the smile refused to reach his eyes. “In ‘Day of Peace,’ there is a line in the lyrics, ‘Go out with the person that likes you, Even if they're stupid and foolish, Put up with it just for today,’” he explained. “So after dragging this out for so long, don’t you think we should put an end to it? Let’s go on a date, give each other a chance.”
“Give each other a chance?”
“Give you a chance to make me believe that I’m meant to love you. Give me a chance to make you believe that you’re not meant to love me,” Junsu said.
“O…okay,” was all the taller man could say. He wasn’t sure if he was happy or not.
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That night, Changmin walked Junsu to the door and both stood facing each other.
“It was a really perfect date,” Junsu smiled.
Changmin nodded. “Perfect dinner…”
“Perfect movie,” the older man added with a smile.
“Perfect weather,” the younger man continued with curved lips.
“Perfect walk in the park.”
“Yes, perfect date,” Changmin murmured.
“Now you just top it off by giving me a kiss good night.”
Changmin blinked twice as he watched Junsu’s eyes close. His lips puckered and he leaned towards the taller man. Changmin felt himself frightened and leaning back until they both heard the crack of his back bone.
“What was that?” Junsu gasped, eyes opened.
“My back,” Changmin groaned in pain.
Junsu realized that he was practically bowing at a 90 degrees angle and leaning over Changmin, whose back was almost bent at a 90 degrees angle. “Oh, shoot!” he exclaimed as he tried to pull the younger man forward.
Changmin shouted in pain at the sudden movement and felt even more pain on his back. Now he was leaning forward like an old man and unable to move.
“Oops, too much. I’ll pull you back a little,” Junsu said as he laid a hand on Changmin’s shoulder and pushed him back the other way.
“N…” Changmin wanted to protest, but was shut up by the pain.
“How’s that?” Junsu asked when Changmin was standing perfectly straight.
Changmin expected to be crying out in pain, but twisted slightly to test his back. It felt…fine.
“It’s okay now, thanks,” he released a breath of relief.
“Wow, I’m good. I should be a doctor,” Junsu grinned.
“No!” Changmin exclaimed. “For the sake of the innocent, do not ever become a doctor.”
Junsu’s lower lip jutted into a pout. “That hurts.”
“It’s the truth,” Changmin laughed, the same laugh from the old days.
Junsu shrugged. “I suppose it doesn’t hurt as much as your rejection.”
“Rejection?” Changmin blinked in confusion.
“You refused to kiss me,” the shorter man pointed out.
“Uh…well, I just…I don’t think it’s…appropriate to kiss on the first date,” Changmin finished his sentence quickly.
“Or you just didn’t want to kiss me,” Junsu suggested.
Changmin sighed in defeated, “Or I just didn’t want to kiss you.”
He expected Junsu to smile, to feel relieved. This date was complete and in the end, it became a chance for Junsu to prove that Changmin was not meant to love him.
So imagine Changmin’s shock when he raised his eyes to see Junsu glaring at him and grabbing at his tie.
“You spent all these years wooing me and now you refuse to kiss me? You no longer love me, is that true? Why? What happened? Did you fall in love with someone else? Who is he? I’m going to plot his murder or give him diarrhea!”
“W…what? I thought…I thought you’d be relieved!” Changmin stammered.
“Relieved? I was expecting you to make me fall in love with you on this date!” Junsu exclaimed.
Changmin frowned. “You’re just using me to make yourself forget Yoochun!”
“You got that right!”
Changmin rolled his eyes. “You’re wrinkling my tie.”
“You deserve it.”
“I don’t deserve to be used as Yoochun’s replacement.”
Junsu rolled his eyes and released Changmin’s tie. “So when did you figure out you’re no longer in love with me?”
“When I realized that you look very unattractive with the closed eyes and puckered lips.”
Junsu glared at him. “And who would look attractive with closed eyes and puckered lips?”
Changmin thought about it. He answered, “Not you.”
Junsu grabbed his tie again and pulled him down so that they were eye to eye. “Who is it?”
Changmin thought about it. “I think…I think it…might be…Kibum.”
“You think? You’re not sure? When is Shim Changmin ever unsure about something?”
“Shut up.”
“This is interesting,” Junsu released the tie and rubbed his chin. “No wonder you didn’t put up a fight when we told you to go to Kibum’s mansion everyday to play messenger.”
Changmin wondered if he should tell Junsu that for the past week, each day that he’d been to the mansion, he spoke about ten words to Yoochun and Yunho. After those ten words, the two would go practice their martial arts in the garden or hide in their rooms while Changmin and Kibum debated about stupid issues; Changmin tried to use each conversation (or argument) to learn more about Kibum, but he also tried to act like he didn’t care at all about the shorter man.
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Credits: I stole the 'date' idea and the song by Epik High from -jsjsjs-
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