| Fan Fiction |
by Rawrmina.Claudine.Nadinne x3
Years passed since C.A.N.D.Y broke apart. After that N.Y.C was formed and became even more famous but Aly remained in contact with us. Nothing was the same. Seung Ri and Claudine called it quits when he found out Claudine was going back to California. He didn’t want her to leave. He was hurt that she did. I told her she should stay with him but she insisted on staying with the group. I knew that day would come when we had to leave Korea. I just didn’t worry about it… until we finally had to leave.
Nadinne and Tae Yang remained a couple. He would visit us every month but it was only him and Dae Sung. Even T.O.P was mad at the three of us along with GD, and Seung Ri. GD left me as well. I never thought that long distance would break us apart. I thought we would stay together… forever. He promised me he would no matter what happened. I was in our dorm. We were back in California. Home sweet home, I guess. Nadinne was in a different dorm because she was older than us so it was only me and Claudine.
It was so quiet in our dorm. We were on a break.. Break out of school and work. Claudine and I were already in 3rd year college. We made it through. Our junior year was the best though. It was back in those days when Claudine and I were very much in love and happy. Nadinne still had her boyfriend, but ours left us just like that. I was all alone in our dorm. Claudine was somewhere buying snacks I guess while I was lying down my bed. Suddenly someone knocked on the door.
“ Who is it?” I asked
“ It’s me,” it was Tae Yang
“ Where’s Nadinne?” I sat up
“ She’s coming,” he replied.
He sat by me.
“ You’ve grown up so much,” he said.
Tae Yang hasn’t visited us for almost a year due to Big Bang’s new album release.
“ I know huh,” I said
“ GD misses you,” he whispered
“ Misses me? How can you say that?”
“ You know he does,”
“ I don’t know. I haven’t seen him in years. Haven’t talked to him in years, heard from him… All I know is that he’s with So Hee, and I’m happy he’s found another girl,” I wanted to cry.
It’s been 3 years going on 4th since we broke up. It was only weeks when I came back from California when news came out that GD was going out with So Hee. My fans started to bash on him. GD and I confessed we were a couple but the very next year we separated. He hurt me, yes. On purpose? I don’t know. I wish I could’ve stayed in Korea. I would’ve but let’s face reality now.. I don’t belong in Korea. I didn’t even belong in the Philippines and I was born there!
“ Suit yourself,” Tae Yang said
“ Looks like you guys are talking about serious matters there,” Nadinne was leaning on the door
“ It’s nothing,” I stood up and walked away.
I took a walk outside the dorm. We were near a park so it was pretty cool. I sat on the swings and stared at the ground. I started to make a heart shape on the sand with my feet. It’s been 3 years already, Yna. Why can’t you just let him go?
“ Don’t feel so good again?” it was Andrey
“ I’m always good,” I replied
“ Don’t lie to me,” he sat down the other swing.
He grabbed my swing and pulled us closer.
“ You really did love him didn’t you?”
“ Sorry but I don’t answer stupid questions,”
“ Grow up,” he said.
I looked at him.
“ He was just your first love. There’ll be outer guys out there,”
“ Like who?! Like you?!” I was furious
“ Yes! Like me!” he yelled
“ Well you know what… I DON’T WANT TO GROW UP,” tears rolled down my face.
I got off the swing and started to run. I couldn’t really run though. My foot barely healed from the car accident.
Andrey obviously caught up to me and hugged me from behind. I kneeled down and was crying.
“ He was just your crush. You admired him and you caught his attention and became a couple… That was THREE YEARS AGO….. Please move on,” Andrey said.
All these years, Andrey never left my side. Claudine and Nadinne were there for me too. However sometimes conflict would arise between me and Claudine. I told her she should’ve stayed, but she didn’t listen. When she was depressed and I tried to comfort her.. I had to take the blame of her loneliness. I always have to be careful now. I try to forget about the past but the harder I try.. The more I remember.
“ I can’t move on,” I said and then my eyes suddenly closed.
ANDREY’S P.O.V
It’s been so long and yet Yna still can’t forget him. Why is it that she can’t let go of him?! Is it because he’s “hot?” Some famous Korean dude who can rap, dance and all that. She doesn’t need him. I can’t believe her. We’re out here in the park in the middle of the fields… She breaks down again. She always does and now she faints. I can’t stand her like this! Eff GD. I wish I didn’t let her go in the first place.
Everyday she tries to act all happy. She tries to fix everything going on in her life. School, work, drama and she just keeps holding on. She always puts on that smile of hers like in middle school. She’d smile, laugh, and pretend nothing was wrong… When she knew that EVERYTHING was crashing down on her. I always did admire her for that. Although she may be lying to herself, she made it through. Then high school passed by happily until we hit our junior year. We were separated but I was updated with her life through Marissa. Now we’re in college and here she is again.. The Yna I first met who always managed to stay strong.. Yet now she’s so weak just because of a guy.
GD’s P.O.V
I was in my room on my computer. Everyone was out today. We just finished promoting our new album. Once again a success. It felt good but it wasn’t the same. I was looking through my pictures. What’s wrong with me? I was the one who let her go. My desktop background was me and So Hee. However in my pictures folder… it was mostly me and Yna. I could see the ones we took in the pictorial for our show together.
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“ You’re not mad?” she looked at me.
I grabbed her other hand. Then I kissed her hands.
“ No,” I replied
“ You scared me earlier!” she yelled.
After that she hugged me tightly. I kissed her neck, that’s what I wanted to do earlier. However she pushed me away.
“ Enough of this pose. NEXT!” James laughed.
Yna and I faced the camera. Her arms were wrapped around my neck and mine around her waist.
“ PERFECT!” James smiled.
Then Yna and I stared at each other again. Our foreheads and tip of our noses were touching. Yna suddenly licks her lip! I was ready to kiss her. I made a “kiss” face and she laughed.
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Why? Why do I still want you? When it was me who let you go.
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“ Leave and see what happens,” I grabbed Yna’s arm tightly.
They were going to leave Korea, and go back to California.
“ I need to leave,”
“ No you don’t! I’m here in KOREA you can’t leave me!”
“ You’re hurting me,” Yna was crying
“ Please let go of me,” she was on the floor on her knees.
I let go of her and then I got even more mad.
“ Leave and we’re over,” I threatened her
“ You’re not the only one who’s getting hurt,” she was sobbing
“ I guess we’re over then,” I stood there emotionless.
Deep inside, I regret saying that. I wanted to cry and break down. No, I won’t do that. I’m a man. We were outside the house. Andrey was there too. I can’t believe it. Is she leaving me ‘cause she needs to? Or ‘cause of him? He helped her stand up and then went in the van.
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I didn’t want you to leave me but you still left. You told me we would remain a couple even if we were separated. You said that you’d visit me, but I didn’t want that. I wanted you to stay by me all the time. I didn’t mean to cause you pain.
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“ GD!” it was Tae Yang
“ What?!” I was in my room.
My room was a mess. I threw my stuff everywhere.
“ They got in an accident,”
“ What?!” I exclaimed
“ Yna’s injured badly,” he replied.
I ran downstairs, and got in our van.
“ Do you know where they’re at?” I asked tae Yang who was behind me the whole time.
“ I don’t know,” he replied
“ BS!” I hit the car door.
News came out about the accident. Only Yna was injured badly, but Andrey was okay. Claudine and Nadinne left before Yna and Andrey did so they were okay. I knew what hospital she was in but I couldn’t visit her. It was on television… I saw Andrey holding her hand, and she was just there lying down…unconscious. I blamed myself for the accident. I found out that it was her driving and not Andrey. They interviewed Andrey on what happened. He said she was crying so much the whole time she was driving. He wanted to drive but Yna wouldn’t let him.
They also asked him where was I. He even told the world that I broke up with her before she left and I was the reason why she was crying. Ever since that.. I’ve been receiving hate mail from her fans. I felt so bad.
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Claudine’s P.O.V
I came back in our room and it was empty. I saw Nadinne and Tae Yang walking down the hall but I didn’t bother them. I thought Yna would be in our room. I thought wrong. Minutes passed when Andrey came in our room. He was carrying Yna who looked like she was crying a couple of minutes ago. Although it’s been years since the car accident.. Yna would always pass out easily now. She wasn’t just physically hurt. According to the doctor, she was too stressed. Yna never showed it though.
Andrey put her down on her bed. He got a stool and sat near her. He was caressing her face.
“ You shouldn’t do that,” I said
“ I’m worried,” he said
“ So? You know she doesn’t want you close to her,”
“ But I care for her,”
“ And you do know she cares for you as a FRIEND, right?”
“ We can be more than that,” he looked back at her
“ You should know she’s still not over GD,” I sighed
“ I do know,”
“ Stop being such a stubborn boy,”
“ What’s so special about GD?”
“ He’s the only one for her,”
“ And Seung Ri’s the only one for you?”
“ Shut up,” I sat down
“ If you miss those two so much.. Why don’t you go there?”
“ You know GD has So Hee,”
“ What about Seung Ri?”
“ You know he’s mad,”
“ They’re stupid for letting you two go,”
“ You’re stupid too. You had your chance with Yna,” I rolled my eyes
“ You know what just leave,” I pointed at the door.
Andrey sighed and left the room. Yna’s not Yna anymore. She’s still depressed deep inside. I am too but not as bad as she was. Her world is going to fall apart soon! She’s getting good grades but her relationship with her parents are getting worse. They want her to go back to the Philippines but she insists on staying here… She says it’s farther from Korea.
An hour passed and Tae Yang and Nadinne came back. Yna was still asleep. A tear rolled down her face. Was she asleep or awake? Even in her dreams, it’s GD she sees and she cries. I can’t stand it anymore.
“ I can’t take this anymore,” I got out of the room
“ She’s crying,” Nadinne’s smile suddenly went away
“ She’s hurt.. And she’ll always be,” I said.
I was out in the hall.
“ I’m sorry, but I don’t know what to do to GD,” Tae Yang apologized
“ It’s not your fault.. It’s okay,” Nadinne hugged him.
I walked back in the room.
“ Get out your phone,” I ordered Tae Yang
“ Here,” he gave it to me
“ Call GD,” I said
“ You do it,”
“ I don’t know how to. Don’t you have that free service thing?” I asked.
I was talking about that vonage thing they had where you can call a certain place in a different country for free.
“ Yeah,” then I heard Tae Yang dialing numbers.
Someone finally answered. I kept hearing someone saying “Hello.” I snatched the phone from Tae Yang.
“ You useless son of a gah!” I yelled
“ What the hell?! Who’s this?” GD yelled
“ It’s Claudine,” I replied
“ What the hell are you talking about?”
“ You know what you did to Yna?”
“ I did nothing,”
“ Stop freaking lying to yourself,”
“ All I ever did was love her,”
“ Nope.. You didn’t. You broke her apart. And now I’d rather see her die than live and make a fool out of herself,”
“ What do you mean?”
“ SHE’S SLOWLY KILLING HERSELF INSIDE!” tears were coming out of me.
I couldn’t talk anymore. Nadinne took the phone out of my hand. She went outside.
Nadinne’s P.O.V
Claudine broke down so I took the phone from her.
“ GD, Yna’s not in good condition,”
“ She looks like she is,” he replied
“ Every single day she freaking lies to herself. She puts on a smile for her fans but even they can tell she’s sad. Don’t act like you’re stupid. Every single night that passes by and there’s never a time you won’t see her cry. She’s shedding so much tears for you! And look at you and So Hee having a fun time together… This is useless,” I was about to give up.
GD was just there on the other line quiet.
“ This is useless.. Why bother trynna talk to you when you ain’t listening?” I was ready to hang up on him
“ She should’ve stayed,”
“ Understand her feelings too,”
“ Well she should’ve understood mine,”
“ You and Seung Ri are such useless ‘boyfriends,’ do you know that? Both of them are suffering so much ‘cause of you dumb asses leaving them for no effin reason,”
“ This is BS, I’ma hang up,” GD sounded mad.
I didn’t really care if he did or not. He wasn’t listening to me anyways.
Then I heard sobbing on the other line. It sounded like GD. I walked farther away from Yna and Claudine’s room. I went outside their dorm and talked again.
“ Don’t lie to yourself,” I said
“ I miss her so much,” GD was crying
“ You didn’t have to hurt her when she left,”
“ My pride got to me,”
“ Come here to get her back,”
“ But all I’ve done is caused her pain,”
“ GD, you know you made her happy too,” I said
“ You know you love Yna, and she definitely loves you,” I added
“ I hurt her so much already,”
“ Kwon Jiyong, please. I beg of you….. If you don’t take her back.. At least tell her you forgive her,” I begged.
Yna never did anything wrong to him but on her point of view… She feels like she’s betrayed GD.
“ I don’t know Nadinne.”
Suddenly he hangs up on me. Kwon Jiyong, for once…. Your confidence disappeared. Right when you need it the most, it’s gone.
Yna’s P.O.V
I passed out. I can’t believe this. It happened again. Plus it had to be Andrey who was there with me. Why are you so weak Yna?! Weren’t you tough?! Weren’t you the optimistic person? Why is it that now it’s you who’s always breaking down?! I washed my face with water in our bathroom. I woke up to Claudine crying with Tae Yang comforting her. I sat by her and hugged her. I didn’t say a word though. It was probably Seung Ri. Nadinne was out of sight though. Then she went in the room. After that I went in here, the bathroom.
I looked straight to face the bathroom mirror.
“ Yna, you look so pathetic,” I was talking to myself.
Now that really is pathetic. Yna, you do need to move on. Look what you’ve done to yourself. You’ve become so weak and… UN-Yna. You’re not you anymore. What the hell is wrong with me!? I always told people that a guy/girl shouldn’t be the reason why you give up your life. Then what the heck am I doing now?! I’m basically killing myself.
It was a dark gloomy day. Perfect setting for my mood, I guess. However I didn’t like seeing Claudine sad. She was still on her bed while Nadinne and Tae Yang already left. I still haven’t asked her why she was crying. I don’t want to know. I don’t want to feel guilty again. I sat by her on her bed.
“ Claudine,” I said
“ Yeah?” she looked at me
“ I promise you that I will go back to being me,” I smiled
“ Honestly?” she smiled
“ I promise,” I nodded my head.
I got my teddy bear, Tempo, who was lying down on her bed.
“ I’ll be the me back in these days,” I was carefully observing Tempo.
Tempo was back in those days when I liked T.O.P, but Tempo was also there when I fell in love with GD. He was also one of the reasons why me and GD fought jokingly.
~FLASHBACK~
We were already downstairs when I remembered Tempo!
“ I need to get tempo,” I said
“ Why?” GD asked
“ I sleep with him all the time,”
“ And?”
“ I love Tempo,”
“ Tempo or T.O.P?” GD let go of my hand.
He looked at me with a mad face. Yet you can see he was joking in the same time.
“ Tempo. Plus it’s my fave teddy bear from Claudine,” I replied.
He sat down the couch and I sat with him.
“ Well can I get him?” I asked
“ I’ll buy you a teddy bear. Name it GD and forget about Tempo. Then sleep with it,” he replied.
My head was resting on his shoulder and his arms around me.
“ What for?”
“ So you can sleep with it every night and think of me,” he replied
“ And it’ll keep you warm,” he added.
I was looking at him while he was talking. He looked so adorable! He also looked serious yet to me it seemed like a joke.
“ I don’t need it. I already have you,” I smiled.
GD looked at me and switched our positions. Now I was in the left side of the couch at the edge. He was just staring at me then I kissed his left cheek.
“ Why get me a teddy bear to keep me warm when you can?” I winked at him.
Suddenly he pushes me down making me lie down. He was on top of me.
“ Tsk. Tsk. There’s cameras on. Have you forgotten?” I put my hand over his lips.
He was ready to kiss me.
“ We can edit the video out,” he said and kissed me.
~FLASHBACK ENDS~
I started to laugh out loud.
“ Yup, you’re back,” Claudine hugged me
“ I HEARD HER LAUGH!” it was Marissa
“ I know, huh!” Claudine replied
“ YOU’RE YNA AGAIN!” Marissa hugged me too
“ Glad to be back,” I smiled
“ I was so worried! Andrey called me earlier telling me you fainted again,” Marissa said
“ Where is he?” I asked
“ He’s with me,” she answered.
I stood up to look for Andrey. I was kind of harsh on him earlier. I walked down to the cafeteria because he definitely wasn’t upstairs. Then I saw him come out of the cafeteria.
“ ANDREY!” I yelled and smiled.
I ran to him and just hugged him tightly. He hugged me back.
“ You’re smiling,” he said
“ Shocking much?” I asked
“ I haven’t seen you smile for a while,” he replied.
I was still hugging him. I could feel him tightening our hug and his hands on my back.
“ I realized that…. I was stupid, and now I know how you felt all along back in those days when you got your heart broken,” I whispered to his ear
“ Painful, right?” he whispered in my ear
“ Yeah,” I replied and stopped hugging him.
Days passed and I returned back to normal. I look back at myself in the past three years. I was stupid… stupid enough to hurt me and the people around me. Why was I that dumb? Now I’m being redundant. Gah I must move on! Well Claudine, Nadinne and I were in our dance studio practicing some dance moves. We were practicing for mine and Claudine’s b-day concert this year. Concerts are also a great way to start off the year and end it too. Suddenly I remembered when Big Bang and C.A.N.D.Y did a concert near the end of the year.
Anyways we were dancing to DO IT LIKE I LUV IT by NLT. It was one of our favorite dance songs back then.
“ That’s enough for today,” Mark said.
Mark Angelo Santos Herras, one of my idols and of course a close friend of mine, was our choreographer.
“ Thank you Mark,” I hugged him and grabbed my sports bag to get out of the studio.
Claudine and Nadinne also hugged him and then left. We saw Jennylyn , Mark’s girlfriend and also a good friend of ours, down the hall.
“ He’s waiting for you,” I winked at her
“ Did you guys have fun?” she asked us
“ Oh boy. Dancing is one work out,” Nadinne replied
“ Ahaha yes?” Jennylyn laughed
“ Yeah we did,” Claudine smiled
“ Well your concert’s real close,” Jennylyn said
“ We know!” the three of us chorused
“ You’re coming right?” I asked
“ Of course,” she smiled.
Then we said our goodbyes and left. Mark and Jen were such a lovely couple. Sometimes when watching them I remember how I use to be with GD. I also remember Claudine with Seung Ri. Coming back here…. Was it really worth it?
I was in Youtube looking at videos. I was watching the ones of Big Bang and C.A.N.D.Y dancing together. It was the video where GD and I were messing around in rehearsals.
~VIDEO~
“Aiyoo!~” I yelled
“ What?” T.O.P asked.
I was partnered with T.O.P for the LIES performance because I happened to practice rapping! I was so into his and GD’s rap parts but I never thought that the day would come that I would actually rap ONSTAGE!
“ I want to be GD’s partner,” I walked over to GD.
He hugged me tightly and kissed my head.
“ Yeah! I want Yna as my partner,” the two of us went closer to the camera man
“ I love him very much. I do NOT want to separate from him,” I said every word slowly
“ I love her very much. I do NOT want to separate from her,” GD said it the way I did.
He started giving me little kisses on my cheeks nonstop. I just smiled, and then I finally turned my head to face him. Then SMACK! Not smack like slap on the face but smack, kiss on the lips smack, I giggled.
“ Ohh! Ohh! Ohh! “ Aly kept repeating.
GD and I just laughed it off while we were still in a hug then I went back to T.O.P.
~VIDEO ENDS~
“ I miss you so much. I want to hug you right now. I can still feel your arms around me. Those kisses you use to shower me with. And I definitely won’t forget your whispers which still echoes softly in my ear,” I was talking to myself again
“ And there’s still a part of him that can still feel your kiss, that can still feel your touch, and your whispers, and trust me.. It’ll stay with him forever,” that voice…
Who’s voice was that? It was so familiar. A voice I’ve been longing to hear. I turned and it was GD! I wasn’t dreaming! I’m sure of that! I slowly stood up.
“ You’re here,” I managed to talk.
He was really in front of me. He was SMILING at me too! He caressed my face then he drew his face closer.
“ Yeah I’m here,” he whispered and kissed me.
Tears were rolling down my face. After our long kiss. It hit me. Wasn’t he still with So Hee? I stopped hearing news about him two years ago. I could no longer take it how there were news about him and So Hee everywhere. It just broke my heart to smaller pieces every time. Tae Yang came here every time but he never mentioned GD’s name knowing how much it caused me pain.
“ Why are you crying?” he wiped my tears away
“ You’re here, but aren’t you still with So Hee?” I replied
“ No.. We broke up,” he said.
GD’s P.O.V
So Hee and I broke up two years ago. I acted like I wasn’t over her though. The truth was I wasn’t over Yna and I was trying to tell myself I was! I was even using So Hee. It felt horrible. Two years of a fake relationship. It never really did work out smoothly. We would constantly fight although there was noting to fight about. Our relationship was dull if we weren’t fighting. However if we were fighting, rumors would suddenly come out. It caused such an uproar. It was never like this with Yna… However it kind of did turn messy when we broke up.
Yna’s fans still liked me with her but there were some who hated me. One who I know hates me is Andrey. I can never forget him. He always did have the guts to show his feelings for Yna when me and her were still a couple. He’s also one of the reasons why I broke up with her. Knowing how determined he is, and that he was going to be with Yna in California drove me insane. Now I was with her, but will she really take me back?
“ I missed you so much,” she hugged me
“ I missed you more,” I hugged her tighter
“ You poop,” she tried to laugh
“ How am I a poop?” I let go of her.
Tears were still rolling down her face.
“ ‘Cause you broke up with me,” she wiped the tears away
“ I’m sorry. I don’t know what got into me,” I hugged her again.
It’s been a long time since I’ve hugged her, kissed her, and talked to her. I felt like I was complete again. Yna and I just lied down her bed the whole time. Then night came and Claudine was still not home. I called Tae Yang to tell them to stay away from the dorm. I wanted more alone time with her. Everyone in Big Bang was here in California, but I kept that a secret. Claudine doesn’t know Seung Ri’s here. We’re going to surprise her too.
It was already 9PM and Yna was still awake. She was resting her head on my chest. She was messing with my shirt. She kept making her fingers go around in circles. It was kind of hard to describe what she was doing. Then her index finger was suddenly on top of the tip of my nose.
“ You’re so cute,” she laughed and put her hand back down on my chest.
One of her legs was on top of me.
“ You’re like my big teddy bear,” she said
“ Better than Tempo?” I laughed
“ Way better and way cuter,” she looked up to me and smiled.
She made this cute facial expression which I’ve been missing. Then I just kissed her forehead.
“ I want you to sing to me,” she suddenly requested
“ Right now?” I asked
“ Yeah,” she answered.
She sat up and pouted.
“ Fine,” I sat up
“ What do you want me to sing?” I asked her
“ Hmm,” She was thinking.
It took her forever to pick a song. She ended picking one of Big Bang’s songs, WE BELONG TOGETHER.
“ Please!!” she exclaimed
“ Okay. Okay. okay,” I gave in.
I sat properly and then she sat in front of me. I was hugging her while we were sitting there. I sang to her and we were kind of swaying to the rhythm of the song. When I finished, she was asleep. I kissed her and then I laid her down like she was a fragile rose. I kissed her lips and then left her.
“ I’m sorry, but I have to leave you again,” I whispered.
It’s against my will, but I have to.
Yna’s P.O.V
I woke up with no GD by me. Was I just dreaming last night? That’s impossible! It felt so real and I was on the computer…. Suddenly Claudine comes in the room. I sat up.
“ Was GD here?” I asked her
“ Not when I got here,” she replied
“ I must’ve been dreaming then,” I looked down.
I was disappointed but then it really did feel so real. Today was the concert and it was only 5 am. I got ready for our concert. Put on some sweat pants and a tank top on.
“ I’m ready to go to our last rehearsal,” I told Claudine as I brushed my hair
“ Same here,” she got out of the bathroom.
“ How about Nadinne?” I asked her
“ She’s probably on her way already,” she replied
“ Is Tae Yang going to stay and watch us?”
“ He left yesterday,”
“ Aw! That poop!” I exclaimed.
We drove to the stadium we were going to perform in. Claudine was right Nadinne was already there. So was Mark and Jennylyn.
“ Ready to practice one more time?” Mark asked us
“ Fa sho,” I replied.
Suddenly I heard yelling.
“ Wait!!!” it was Andrey
“ What now?” I laughed
“ I want to watch,” he smiled
“ No! Watch later!” Mark yelled at him
“ Ahaha yeah watch later,” I laughed again.
Andrey frowned but I gave him a hug.
“ Go down in the dressing room. We’ll go there after practice,” I smiled
“ Fine,” he kissed my cheek.
Then he ran for it. Another poop in my life, I smiled.
“ Whoa,” Mark said
“ Yeah whoa,” Jennylyn repeated
“ You guys aren’t you know are you?” Mark asked
“ No, Kuya. I’m still not over GD,” I looked down.
I’m happy but hey who can forget Kwon Ji Yong?
“ Ahh, leave her alone,” Jen hugged me.
We practiced for five hours straight. It was 10:30 am when we finally got down to go to the dressing room.
“ That took FOREVER!” Andrey exclaimed
“ Shaddup,” I sat down on the couch
“ We’re helluh tired,” Claudine sat by me.
We both rested our head on each other.
“ Eh, I miss Tae Yang,” Nadinne sat on my left side
“ Of course you do,’ Claudine and I chorused
“ Dude, I’ma go back home to take a shower,” I said
“ I want to go with you!” Andrey exclaimed
“ You weirdo. You’re not sweating like crazy. Come on Claudine and Nadinne,” I stood up.
I drove home. I was getting excited. Another concert is the best!
Claudine’s P.O.V
We went back to our dorm to take a shower. Then we went back to the stadium. We went in our dressing room and got prepared. The concert would start at 4 pm. It was already 3:30 pm.
“ You ready?” Yna asked me.
She was looking at herself in the mirror fixing her sideways ponytail. We all had to have different hairstyles although we’d have to change it every dance number. Yna had a mini black jacket on with a red tank top under with matching sagging pants and chains hanging low. I was wearing the same thing except mine was a white mini jacket and red tank top. Nadinne had a blue tank top under her gray mini jacket. We were ready.
“ Why do we have to dance to Big Bang songs again?” Yna asked as she sat down
“ Because the fans still love our collaboration with them,” Nadinne answered her
“ But they’re not even here,” Yna pouted.
She still misses GD being around her.
“ You guys are up,” Jen came in the room
“ Good luck you guys,” Andrey was behind her.
The three of us smiled at both of them showing our appreciation.
The three of us ran onstage. Music was already blasting so loud.
“ Ayooo!” Yna yelled.
We all had a microphone.
“ You guys ready to party?” Yna asked the audience.
The audience yelled out “YES!”
“ Then let’s party!” Nadinne yelled
“ Yeeee,” was all I said but I couldn’t help but smile.
A guy from the staff took our microphones and then we were ready to rock. Some back up dancers came out and we were all ready in our position. The first song was Big Bang’s “ LAST FAREWELL.” This is such an awesome song but the title was real sad. The song was good and catchy though. We had guy partners but it wasn’t the same when the three of us did it with Big Bang.
Flashback
We were in Music Core. It was our last performance with Big Bang before we leave. Plus the closing performance for Music Core tonight. We still haven’t confessed to Seung Ri and GD that we’re leaving. Last Farewell started to play. We could only sing along when it was in the “ I don’t want to be without you girl,” part. Yna, Nadinne and I were paired up with our very own lovers which was great.
“ I don’t want to be without you boy,” Yna, Nadinne and I sang as it was in the chorus.
Then we’d wink at our partners and then grab their collar and pretend we’d kiss them but then end up walking away. When we finished performing Seung Ri and I were holding hands. So was Yna with GD and Nadinne and Tae Yang. GD kissed Yna on air and then hugged her tightly. The two walked away while still hugging each other.
“ Hey! You still have the microphone!” Seung Ri exclaimed as we all watched the lover birds walk away.
Everyone was yelling and laughing.
“ Aiyoo!~ Oh well. I want some alone time with her NOW,” GD faced our direction again and winked.
Yna giggled and the camera was focused on them.
“ I want to spend time with Claudine but I don’t go doing what you do!” Seung Ri exclaimed
“ Stop complaining and do it,” Yna stuck her tongue out on Seung Ri and I laughed.
Flashback Ends
The whole concert went by pretty fast. It was probably due to the fact that I was thinking of Seung Ri the whole time.
“ Well we’re thankful that you all came tonight,” Yna was talking again
“ Without you guys, we wouldn’t be standing here,” I added
“ We all hope you guys enjoyed the concert,” Nadinne smiled
“ Well.. We’ve been dancing all night and we’re finally going to sing for you guy,” I said
“ Singing. I don’t like but since it’s for the fans, I will do it,” Yna laughed.
The audience was still going crazy and then music started. Nadinne was going to sing first
Its like I waited my whole life
For this one night
Its gon be me you and the dance floor
Cuz we only got one night
Double your pleasure
Double you fun
And dance forever ever ever
Suddenly Tae Yang comes out of nowhere!
“ Then let’s dance” he smiled and gave her a bouquet of flowers.
Nadinne started to cry. She hit him slightly on his shoulder.
“ You said you left yesterday!” she was crying in the same time trying to laugh
“ I couldn’t miss this,” he hugged her.
Nadinne’s P.O.V
I couldn’t believe it! Tae Yang didn’t really leave yesterday. I was happy he got to go to our concert. The last time he went was when he was with Big Bang performing with us. I hugged him tightly and then another song started playing. It was time for Claudine. Now only if Seung Ri and GD were here for her and Yna.
When you smile at me, it makes me weak
I can count on you boy to be there when I'm fallin'
I didn't have to change for you to see
That nothing can ever come between you and me
I need you for who you are
And all that I am when I'm standin' next to you
I'm so lucky to have you in my life
She was on the verge of crying and then the music stopped and changed. That tune was so familiar.. It was Seung Ri’s solo song “ THE NEXT DAY!” I turned around finding Seung Ri come out! This wasn’t what I expected when our manager said we’d get special guests.
“ Why is my baby crying?” Seung Ri lifted her head up and kissed her forehead.
Claudine looked up and kept blinking.
“ You’re h-,” Seung Ri cut her off and kissed her onstage in front of all these people.
“ Aww,” Yna was all teary eyed.
Claudine and I had our lovers but hers wasn’t with her.
“ How cute,” Yna was crying already.
Claudine got out of Seung Ri’s hug and wiped Yna’s tears away. I was still in Tae Yang’s arms. He then looked at me and kissed my cheek.
“ I love you,” he whispered
“ I love you too,” I smiled.
I’m so glad Tae Yang stayed to watch our concert. I’ve been asking him every year but he’s always needed in Korea when we have concerts. The music changed again to I MISS YOU.
Now I'm sittin' here
Thinkin' 'bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know
That it's killin' me
I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby
Come back...to me
Can you...feel me (Callin')
Hear me...callin' (For you)
For you...'Cause it's
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do?
Said I been needin' you, wantin' you
Wonderin' if you're the same and who's been with you
Is your heart still mine?
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you
Yna’s eyes were closed yet tears were coming out of her. It didn’t seem like GD was coming out. She’s been singing and still no GD to be found. As the music slowly fades away another song starts to play. It didn’t sound like any of GD’s solo. My smile suddenly turned to a frown.
Yna’s P.O.V
I didn’t hope for GD to come out the way Seung Ri had done to Claudine. I was just hoping that maybe all the pain would go away at an instant as I sang the song. However I felt even more sad when I was singing the song. I really do miss you Ji Yong. Up to now, I’m still waiting for you. I miss you so much that I was dreaming of you last night, thinking you were really here. After I sang, a song started to play. I’ve never heard of the tune before. Someone started singing. I turned around to see who but nobody was there and faced the audience again.
Remember that promise we made each other
That promise that we won’t leave other and yet
You still left me.. You left me but for some reason
I never really did let you go and you remained in my
Heart. Although it killed me to see you go
I pretended that I moved on. I let my pride get to me
And here I am now asking for your forgiveness.
The audience screamed even louder. Why are they screaming? Who’s singing? That voice belongs to GD but I can’t find him anywhere. I already looked behind me and no GD there. Are they messing with me?! Is this a new song by GD?
I’m sorry that I let you go.
I’m sorry for being stupid.
I’m sorry for hurting you, but
Now I realize that I still love you.
I started crying even more. I felt like it really was GD singing. If they’re just playing this song over the speakers, it’s real good. It sounds live and I feel like GD’s singing to me. I know GD’s voice. Then I looked at Claudine who looked shocked. I looked back and then GD was right in front of me.
I fell on my knees. I am probably the weakest girl ever. I’m suppose to be in the process of forgetting him and then he comes back. I’m not complaining though. GD let go if his microphone and hugged me. He helped me stand up.
“ You miss me this much? We were together last night,” he whispered in my ear
“ So I wasn’t dreaming!” I pushed him away
“ I thought I was,” I looked down
“ Well you weren’t,”
“ Why’d you leave?!”
“ I wanted to surprise you again,” he smiled
“ You scared me! I thought I was really going crazy,” I was ready to hit him but he grabbed my hand and kissed me
“ Don’t get all worked up about it. I’m here ain’t I?” he paused and kissed me again.
I closed my eyes. How can I resist? I miss his kiss. Although now I know for sure that he really was with me last night.
“ You guys the concert’s done now,” Seung Ri started laughing and pushed me and GD.
I wanted to stop but GD wouldn’t. So Seung Ri was pushing the two of us while still kissing. What an awkward moment. I could hear Claudine laughing. Then I heard Nadinne.
“ Wait you guys! We haven’t said bye! Aiyoo!~ Fine. Sorry you guys, but GD’s all worked up as you can see,” Nadinne laughed.
Nadinne’s P.O.V
They weren‘t going to wait for me and Tae Yang. I know it.
“ Thanks for coming tonight! We hope you guys love it! And that you’ll never forget it-” I waved to them.
Suddenly Tae Yang grabs my hand and we walk away.
“ Sorry you guys, but I want some alone time with your beloved idol,” Tae Yang said over the microphone
“ Oh my,” I laughed.
I noticed that GD and Yna were still kissing but they stopped walking. Seung Ri took the microphone from Tae Yang.
“ We apologize but we’re selfish and we want our lovers to ourselves for now,” he winked.
The camera man focused on Seung Ri then back on GD and Yna. The audience seemed satisfied with the concert though.
“ Help me push these two,” Seung Ri looked at Tae Yang.
Suddenly Yna pushed GD.
“ Huwow. I’m gonna die ‘cause of that,” she was trying to breathe.
Suddenly GD carried her as if they were newly weds.
“ Whoa,” was all I heard Yna say before GD took off with her.
Tae Yang was still holding my hand and we slowly walked down the stadium. Claudine got a piggy back ride from Seung Ri. How come they get carried and I don’t?! But then again Tae Yang is the shy type compare to both GD and Seung Ri. I’m just glad that Tae Yang’s still here by me.
Tae Yang and I drove to my house. It was already 10:45 pm when we got home. I went in my room and then he stayed downstairs for awhile. When he came upstairs in my room. I felt something different about him. He also changed clothes already. He was only wearing a tank top on and some baggy pants. I stood up to hug him and he hugged me back. Then he stared into my eyes. He drew his face closer and closer. Then we kissed. Couple of minutes later we were on the bed. Ever since when was Tae Yang aggressive? Never, right.. So I should definitely cherish this moment.
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Since chapter 15 was short.
This is super long =D