Fan Fiction |
by YukLing
"We're so glad you decided to choose that new piece, it's one of our newest arrivals. She is a very lucky lady, I'll say." Said the sale lady with a great big smile on her face. "Will you be needing anything else?"
"No, that'll be all. Thank You, Miss."
"No, Thank YOU. I hope you'll be visiting us next year for your anniversary, Mr. Lam."
Ray smiled and waved good bye to the sales lady at Tiffany's before exiting the store with a small square box in his pocket.
After parking his car on the side of the road, Ray entered Qian's apartment complex.
"Hello Mr. Lam. Oh what a beautiful bouquet of flowers you got there. Those are for Miss Qian, I assume?" The security guard greeted and asked.
Ray waved back, "Good Evening Mr. Lui. How's everything going? Yes, these are for Qian."
"Oh, She had stepped out since this morning, Sir."
"Oh? Do you know where she went?"
"A gentleman stopped by earlier this morning and picked her up. They haven't returned though."
"I see."
"I could let you in her apartment and let you wait for her there if you like, since I know you and her are good friends."
"OK. Thank you."
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It was a bit after 9 when Ray saw a car approaching the driveway. He stood up from where he has been sitting for the last 3 hours on Qian's front balcony hoping for a closer look. Then he saw a tall guy coming out from his side of the car walking over to the passenger side. It was Ron. So Ray had guessed right. The gentlemen Mr. Lui referred to this morning who came and picked up Qian was Ron. Then he saw Qian walking out from the passenger side and Ron guiding her towards the apartment complex. Of course Ray could not understand or hear what they were talking about as they walked together with Ron's hand wrapped around her shoulders. Qian was smiling to Ron as he spoke to her. Ray felt a pang of jealously looking at the two of them as he gripped harder onto the side railing. Then the both of them stopped walking and Ron turned Qian towards to face him. He said something and then Qian shyly nodded. After several minutes, both people stopped talking and only glared into each other's eyes. Ray swallowed hard as he continued to focus his attention on the two people below. Time seemed to have stopped for all three people at the moment, each waiting for what was happening next. Then Ron bent down and kissed Qian's lips. And Qian didn't resists his kiss as she stood there.
Ray released the hand rail slowly and walked away from the balcony, not wanting to witness anymore of the kissing scene below him.
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After waving good bye to Ron as he drove off, Qian was surprised when she turned around to see an angry-death-glaring Ray in front of her.
"Ray? What are you doing here so late? I thought you might have gone home." Qian asked.
"That's what you would have wanted, right?" Ray replied with a cold, bitter tone of voice.
" What do you mean by that?"
"Give it up, Qian. I saw everything. You, Ron, the kiss. Everything OK? So you can stop playing games with me." Ray spoke in anger.
"No. It's not what you think, Ray. Ron and I were...."
But Ray intercepted her from speaking "just kissing?? Yeah I already know that part. I saw it too."
"Ray, it’s not like that at all…you see…I went with Ron to help look for Myolie because she was gone...she left him, Ray….and"
"And so you just HAD to go and help poor Ron as soon as Myolie left him, right?"
"Ray! You’re being ridiculous! How can you think like that about me?" Qian asked angrily.
"And how can you let him kiss you after all that has happened between us?" Ray asked with a question.
“I’m sorry…I can’t explain that kiss to you…” Qian replied. How can she explain something which she herself was still confused about and didn’t understand?
“I need to go inside.” Qian said then she turned away and walked towards her apartment.
From a short distance, Ray asked, "Am I just still a replacement for Ron all this time?"
Qian stopped at the sound of his questions. She could sense the sadness in his voice. With her back still facing him, she replied, "No, Ray. You're not a replacement.”
"Then why do I still feel like I am?"
Then Qian turned to face him, and for the first time Qian realized how much she has hurt him when she saw tears in his eyes. But something inside of her kept her from revealing her true feelings – it was her pride and fear.
And when Qian didn’t reply to his question, Ray finally said, “Don't worry. You don’t have to answer that. I’m sorry….. I won't bother you again. Take care, Qian." And then he walked away.
As Qian was slowly walking up to her apartment, her mind began to question her own self. How could she have just let Ray walk away without explaining anything to him? How could she have just stood there and witness him being hurt and not say a thing? Ron had asked her the same question earlier about what her feelings are for Ray, but she couldn't answer him either. Suddenly Qian felt a single tear drop falling from her eyes, she raised her hand and touched it. Was she crying for Ray?
{Flash back}
After many hours of driving to places where Myolie used to go shopping and not finding her, Ron and Qian went back to his house. Qian needed to use the restroom and that was when she found Myolie's testing strips and show them to Ron. He literally almost had a break-down and went pale after seeing them. Then Ron cried. He leaned on her shoulder and cried for Myolie.
"How could I have not known? What kind of husband and father am I??" Ron cried.
"Ron, don't be so hard on yourself." Qian tried to comfort him.
"No, you don't understand. You have no idea how horrible I feel now for neglecting her all this time...I just feel so ashamed with myself."
"Ron..." Qian was about to tell him that he shouldn't blame himself again. But he stopped her.
"Just by knowing that she's somewhere out there, pregnant and all by herself....I just can't imagine what it's like..."
Qian lifted Ron's face from her shoulder and smiled at him, "Then go look for her. Think..just think where could she have gone to? Is there a place that is special to you both? Some place that is her favorite?"
"Paris...she loves Paris....she didn't want to leave the place while on our honey moon."
"Then go look for her there."
Ron finally wiped his tears away and smiled. He was very glad to have Qian by his side to remind him of things when he was in such a disastrous state of mind. "Thank You, Qian."
Qian understood what Ron meant. He didn’t just thanked her for reminding him of Paris, but he also thanked her for understanding him. Somehow, Qian found it much much easier to comfort Ron this time around than before.
"I'll go to Paris right away tonight as soon as I take you home first though."
"No, I can take a taxi back home, Ron. Just go look for Myolie."
"No, I want to take you home, Qian. Please let me do this one thing for you."
And so Ron drove Qian back to her apartment and as he walked her to the gate, Ron turned Qian towards him to face him.
"Qian, you know you'll always have a very special place in my heart. I'll always love you."
Qian nodded and smile slightly. She already knew why he was saying the things he said.
"But Myolie needs me more than you."
"I understand, Ron. You don’t' have to explain."
"I just need to know that you're in good hands though before I leave. How is Ray treating you?"
"He's been good to me." Qian replied.
"And you? How are your feelings for him? Have they changed?" Ron asked.
"I...I don't know. I'm still quite confuse on what my feelings are for him." Qian kept her eyes down, avoiding his gaze.
And then Ron lifted her chin and he bent down to kiss her. She let him kiss her while she stood motionless. Finally, they shared a kiss alas, they both thought. How strange it felt though. Qian's heart wasn't pounding as hard as she had expected. Perhaps it was because she knew Ron’s thought was elsewhere – with Myolie. Or maybe it was just her.
When Ron finished his kiss and removed his lips from hers, he smiled slightly then replied "I think you do know. You've just been in denial."
Qian looked at Ron with a confused look. What did he mean by that?
"I can tell that Ray is probably a better kisser than I from the looks of your face."
But before Qian could comprehend his meaning, Ron waved good bye to her and walked back to his car.
Qian was left standing waving good bye to Ron as he drove away.
{End of Flashback}
Qian unlocked her apartment door and flipped on the light. And the first thing she noticed was the large bouquet of flowers on her kitchen countertop. Ray must have been up here and bought it for her. Qian slowly picked up the flower and sniffed it. It was the same white lilies Ray had given her before, but this time there was also a small card on it. She removed the card and on it – it read:
"Will you marry me, Qian?"
Qian's heart almost stopped at the sight of Ray’s handwriting and proposal note. A rush of emotion went through her as Qian felt uncontrollable tears coming from her eyes. Quickly she ran out of her apartment and went back downstairs.
"Ray? Ray?" Qian yelled out loud and breath heavily as she ran up and down the streets while holding the small card in her hand. . But of course, Ray could not hear her. He wasn't there anymore. Qian stood there alone on the street and cried to herself – crying for having found out that she really did love Ray after all, but now it was too late. He had already left.
And then she heard a loud screeching sound coming her way and the last thing she saw was a bright light shining in her eyes. Then it was total darkness.
===== AUTHOR's NOTE =====
Well as you all can tell...i'll be wrapping up this RQFF pretty soon....phew...stick with me.....just a few more chapters and we'll be done :)