| Fan Fiction |
by Pink Princess
It feels a bit awkward to be calling you that way; nor did I know why I’m doing this. As you rested your head on the hospital pillow, I feel the urge to say something to you. My hand couldn’t stop writing once I doodle on this piece of tiny paper. Key, do you know? I am gazing through the hospital’s window now. The trees are very exuberate indeed and the flowers are blooming, cupping their own grains inside. The smell lingers on me, but too bad you’re still sleeping. The tubes are connected to your body and the sound of the wheezing machines interrupt me a lot. I want you to get back to your normal self soon. I didn’t know what type of sickness you’re having. But seeing your solemn and motionless responds make me want to skip over this melodramatic scene and grab you to play outside with me.
But Key needs a rest; I told myself.
I still can capture the moment where we played together. I thought it was going to be really fun. But when you fell onto the ground and was breathing irregularly, I was panic. I didn’t know how to act or what to do. I just stood there looking at you, shocking your body repeatedly before noticing that you were actually having trouble breathing. Luckily, someone was there to help us. From that moment, I thought that you would be hating me for being such a coward. And you didn’t; instead you told me that it was okay
But it’s not. Seeing you lying on the bed, is making my heart aches more. Wishing I could share the pain with you. All these times, we shared everything together.
We smile, we laugh and cry in each other’s arm.
I can’t believe how time has passed.
When you were born, I watched you closely with a hatred feeling. I didn’t like to share the love, and I don’t want to share my toys. But you were different. You never asked anything from me. You just stood there, eyeing my toys but never actually dared to ask me. Because you thought that I would be upset right? Key, you are very thoughtful since you were a kid. Since that moment, I vowed to be more like you, and to protect you in everyway. My love for you deepened when our parents left us. You hang by me, rubbing your eyes, telling me not to leave you. I smiled, although I knew there was no reason to smile.
When I received the news that Key will be adopted, I quickly declined. A lot of people loves Key. They wanted to take you away. But because hyung loves you too much, and hyung just can’t let you go. That’s why you had to go through this mess. At that instant, I thought that maybe you would have a better life if I had let you. Fears, worries and also hesitation filled me up at the same time. I couldn’t do anything; except to pray for a miracle to happen.
I waited outside on the rain, and begged to god. Please let Key be with me.
I knew that god was there, listening to me. But he was telling me to be more patient with life and find the will to start it over. I reluctantly understand why. Life is too short, Key.
Do you know? We both loved to sing a lot. I would like to be a singer one day, and when I asked you what do you want to be, you told me you just want to play and stay beside me. And I still remember telling you this, “Key, if you sing, you will always be next to me”. How foolish I was at that time. You can’t blame a kid. We have extravagant imaginations. Still, if that is only a child’s dream, I am going to hold on with it. I’m going to perform on stage and earn money. So we wont have to live this way, Key.
I really loved this song, from the end until now. I keep on repeating the lyrics until I can sing to them with closed eyes. You want to see it, Key?
Oh it’s a little bit funny
You may not know but I’m a little different today
think about it, Maybe more than you can imagine
I’m giving off an ultra-real feeling
I run around shouting
I’m flying
Grab it! As much as you wanted it
Even if the breathing stops
This is the feeling of the moment
Go the way you want to
The old fashions that kept you
now cast them away and find a solution more like you
Throw away the confusing excuses, this and that,
Everyone doesn’t have to be the same
If you feel free it’s all up to you
Go where your heart tells you to go
I’m going one step further
This is my real style
Open your wings at your leisure
create your own style
come on and follow, try to feel me
Are you ready to go to a world of freedom?
When you close your eyes and take a breath
I am the one coming closer, the mentor
This is the first time I will search for my path
with just my feelings
I run around shouting
I’m flying
Grab it! As much as you wanted it
The questioning glances I will blaze up
Go the way you want to
The old fashions that kept you
now cast them away and find a solution more like you
Throw away the confusing excuses, this and that,
Dream
Believe me and let’s go into an awesome new world
Trust me and go to the place you want to go
I will go
You’re the Number 1
You’re the number 1
Open the window and aim for the highest in the sky
One, two, three
Let’s go together
Right now you are the most free
The old fashions that kept you
now cast them away and find a solution more like you
Throw away the confusing excuses, this and that,
Everyone doesn’t have to be the same
If you feel free it’s all up to you
Go where your heart tells you to go
I’m going one step further
This is my real style
How was it Key? Nice, isn’t it? Key, I just want to tell you before anything, that you’re always the number one. You’re always precious to me and you can’t be compared to those diamonds and wealth.
Key, don’t you know that you used to smile? But it slowly disappeared after you developed your current sickness. I was depressed.
If I have one more wish to be granted, I want you to always smile. Everyday; because your smile is priceless.
~*~
Key flipped the paper to see the back, but there was nothing. He searched everywhere.
“It couldn’t be.” He mumbled. “There must be more.”
He shattered all the papers and let them flew everywhere. “That’s not the ending yet. That’s not it. There must be more.” He chanted repeatedly as he searched for the rest of the remaining letters.
~*~
Note : :D
I am smiling. XD
No, the letter hasn’t ended yet. Truth to be told, the letter was not even half of it yet. Read more okay? :D
And read this too /PinkPrincess9
Maybe I wont be updating for a few days cause I’m so busy =.=; Sorry guys