| Fan Fiction |
by Pink Princess
Above the shelf, under the bed and even near the window where Jonghyun loved to spend his time at. There was none. His last hope was only to trace where could Jonghyun possibly place that letter.
The rooftop; the place Jonghyun would go whenever he’s depressed.
On the abandoned, old table, there was a piece of writing cloaked with dust. The pen had probably ran out of ink and the splattering of the rain ruined the alphabets a bit. All of it was nothing compared to the drop of crystal that Key released when he started to read it.
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Another bright morning with the birds chirping and the tall trees standing in parallel. I wish Key could see this. I always imagine myself on the bottom of the tall tree while Key is pleasing himself with the cool breeze on top of the tree. He is way to precious than me.
Always better than me.
No matter how I try to understand, it’s the fact that Key is my own brother. My blood is his blood too, my soul connects with him. So if it’s true, I should be relieved now.
At the end of the day, I will only be able to have my last wish. I would want Key to be successful in everything he does and I want him to always smile. It’s kind of funny on how I always mentioned about Key and his smile. Maybe, just maybe, his smile is to priceless to trade with anything. Even if I can live a life up to hundred years, it won’t be able to top Key’s priceless smile.
I’m afraid that I won’t be able to see his smile again if he knows that he has a weak heart. I am really afraid of it. God knows how much I have prayed every night on bended knees, just for the sake of Key getting his strength back. I blamed myself for being too careless, too selfish and too redundant. Although Key may look flexible from the outside, his inner self is almost as fragile as a thin glass.
I’m sorry Key, I will do anything to make up my faults for being a failure in protecting you.
Key, sometimes I feel like you’re the one who’s supposed to be alive instead of me. When I am behind you, I can feel the courage you have inside you. As your leg stepped forward, I knew that you were very confident of your choice and you will never be hesitant to look back at me. Your deep and sincere judgment helped me to go through hard times.
And how can I repay you?
Nothing.
It’s depressing to see myself trailing nowhere near you and it’s so frustrating on how I can never give my best for you. Key, I wanted so much to say this to you. I want you to be happy, and to always be light-hearted. That’s the only way I can ensure that I have done something good for you.
I won’t say goodbye again in circles.
I won’t.
I won’t cry every night and I will covet everything inside.
No, no more hurting Key. Let Key be free.
Incase Key has found this letter, I am sorry I didn’t tell you about this earlier. When I heard that the doctor needed a new heart for you, I thought about it for three nights. I finally took the best way out.
I decided to donate my heart for you.
In this case, Key won’t be suffering. And I will be at ease.
I will not feel indebted to you and the thoughts of always being next to Key placed me in a different feeling and made me explore 1001 emotions. I feel secure and protected. At the same time, I would be very sad because I’ll be the one to leave you soon.
Key, I love to sing.
I love to sing more than anything.
I know from the start that you are a better singer than me. But I didn’t lose my hope there. I thought that all I need to do is more practice and that’s it. My dream is to be a singer. After this, I know that I will have to put that dream aside. I will no longer hold the microphone, or listen to any songs and dance to it. I will no longer act like Rain or Se7en.
It ends here for me.
But not for you. You still have a long way to go.
Forgive me if I made this self decision. I am very sure that I won’t regret it, Key. And I hope you will agree to it sooner or later. I am sorry because I cannot protect the only family I have. I love you a lot, dear brother. And my love for you will make me go through this.
My heart, for you.
You will always be my brother. Even in my afterlife.
Live well, Key. Take care.
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By the end of the letter, Key wailed hardly and crumpled the letter in his hand. “So Jonghyun gave his heart to me?”
The answer was then revealed. The moment when the bunch of gangsters beat Jonghyun, Jonghyun couldn’t attack back, but to defend himself. He had Key’s heart and Key has his heart. He couldn’t do more.
“I’m sorry Jonghyun hyung.. I should’ve fought with you… I’m sorry.. I’m sorry.”
Jonghyun hyung, thank you for your kindness.
You were always the one who did the best for me.
Give me a chance to thank you…
Just for once.
Please…
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Author’s note: Tadddaaaah. XD sorry for the very late update -___-
This is not the end yet. Still a chapter to go ^^~*
I hope I still have my readers. :D
And sorry for any grammar/ tenses mistakes. I’m rushing XD Jya!