| Fan Fiction |
by Pink Princess
On my left, there is Onew. He looks like he is going to pee in his pants anytime soon. That is probably because of the responsibility he has to carry as a leader, to ensure that we will perform our best later on.
Minho is always the calm one. No matter how uneasy he feels, he won’t show it –at least during the show. Taemin, also one of the members, is having his stomach twisted. He excused himself earlier so he could stay in the toilet for a while, you know… doing his business.
And lastly, the cool one, Kim Jonghyun.
The first time I saw him, he reminded me a lot of Jonghyun hyung. I even thought that he was Jonghyun. Towards the end, I realized that it was impossible.
He dresses up like Jonghyun, only to be separated by the fact that we didn’t have much attire to wear when Jonghyun hyung was alive. He has the same favorite food as Jonghyun and he loves to crack up corny jokes. He would make sure that all of us stay healthy, just like how Jonghyun hyung used to do to me.
Until this moment, I know and I understood that I haven’t done anything for Jonghyun hyung yet. From the first day he cared for me, until the last day he drew his breath, I never brought him his favorite cloth, never cooked him the black noodle he loved to eat.
I also never celebrated his birthday with him. It was always him who did everything for me, including exchanging his life for me. If our good deeds are written on a piece of paper, I believe that departed hyung will have a longer list of good deeds. He had a big dream too, compared to me. I was always a laidback; I didn’t care to fight for the thing that I wanted the most, until I have lost it.
Oh, just to tell you, I belong to a group called SHINee now. The only way I can thank Jonghyun hyung is by achieving his one and only big dream –to be a singer.
“Key?” Jonghyun waved his hand to snap me from my thoughts. “Are you okay? You were staring at that table, is there anything wrong?”
“Nothing really…”
Kim Jonghyun; they both have the same name. They even look the same. It hurts me more to think that Jonghyun hyung has passed away. If he is still alive, he would be very happy to meet Jonghyun.
“SHINee, are you ready?” Onew chanted our group name repeatedly and we all nodded and hugged one another.
As soon as we entered the stage, it flattered me to see our fans screaming our name and raising balloons for us. Clapping their hands non stop to give us support, as if they know what we have gone through.
So this is the feeling.
Eventhough I didn’t want to be a signer at first and I thought that I will never experience the fun of being a singer, but I was wrong the whole time. It was Jonghyun hyung’s wish who made me who I am today.
Because his dream is my dream too, just like what he did; my heart is his heart, his blood is my blood.
We sang together on the stage and performed our best, until someone told me that my microphone was not working. Okay, there’s nothing wrong with that, it happens every time. The problem is, my part is coming soon and to be on stage with no voice is not a good way to start our first show. I gave a few tap on the microphone and tested it; still no avail.
Jonghyun knew that I was struggling so he grabbed mine and exchanged it with his. I was grateful. He smiled and told me to sing my part.
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Oh it’s a little bit funny
You may not know but I’m a little different today
think about it, Maybe more than you can imagine
I’m giving off an ultra-real feeling
I run around shouting
I’m flying
Grab it! As much as you wanted it
Even if the breathing stops
This is the feeling of the moment
Go the way you want to
The old fashions that kept you
now cast them away and find a solution more like you
Throw away the confusing excuses, this and that,
Everyone doesn’t have to be the same
If you feel free it’s all up to you
Go where your heart tells you to go
I’m going one step further
This is my real style
Open your wings at your leisure
create your own style
come on and follow, try to feel me
Are you ready to go to a world of freedom?
When you close your eyes and take a breath
I am the one coming closer, the mentor
This is the first time I will search for my path
with just my feelings
I run around shouting
I’m flying
Grab it! As much as you wanted it
The questioning glances I will blaze up
Go the way you want to
The old fashions that kept you
now cast them away and find a solution more like you
Throw away the confusing excuses, this and that,
Dream
Believe me and let’s go into an awesome new world
Trust me and go to the place you want to go
I will go
You’re the Number 1
You’re the number 1
Open the window and aim for the highest in the sky
One, two, three
Let’s go together
Right now you are the most free
The old fashions that kept you
now cast them away and find a solution more like you
Throw away the confusing excuses, this and that,
Everyone doesn’t have to be the same
If you feel free it’s all up to you
Go where your heart tells you to go
I’m going one step further
This is my real style
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“Thank you for supporting us throughout our journey. We know that we can never pay your enormous love back, but all we could do is to thank everyone here with our sincere heart. Keep supporting us.” Taemin bowed to everyone and wiped his steaming tears. It was then my turn to say something.
“Err..,” I stutter few words but managed to get back to myself, “First of all, I would like to say thank you to the fellow members for being patient and helpful. Also, to the fans out there, I love you guys so much.”
With my last courage, or I should say the courage that has been piling up for years, I readjusted myself and continued speaking, “Most of all, I would like to say thank you to my departed brother, Kim Jonghyun.”
“For these years I never had the chance to properly thank you and tell you how much you have done for me. Until the last day you live in this world, I still didn’t say it. So now, I want to spare this time to talk more about you.”
“I was not a healthy boy since I was young. It was proven that I need medical treatment almost every month, and to the point that both our parents died when we were young. Jonghyun hyung had worked hard for me. His sweat was more compared to the sweat I’ve produced during my training days. What he did was simply unexpected. He donated his heart for me without letting me know. He even fought for me, before he closed his eyes forever. So I told myself that I shouldn’t let go of this opportunity.”
“I want to thank my hyung for being the greatest brother. I want everyone to know what he had done, and I want him to listen and know how miserable I feel for not able to tell him the word ‘thank you’. In my life, you will always be the hero.”
“Thank you, brother.”
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Author's note : The end! XD Sorry guys. Thank you for supporting. The list of names will be out soon. ^^
It's short right? But I enjoyed writing ^^