Fan Fiction |
by PinkNalgene
“Chae Yeon, I know you lost your memory. Don’t be afraid of me, I’m Kim, I am your manager, we used to spend 20 hours a day together”
“I’m sorry, I don’t remember you and i don’t feel comfortable talking to strangers”
“I’m not a stranger, look, I brought photos and videos of us working together, lets watch them together, it will help you in remembering the past”
After he appeared, my life changed drastically. He showed me a lot of newspaper reports, they were all in Korean, oppa never allowed me to read any Korean papers. He said there weren’t any in Seattle. Kim said my name is Chae Yeon. I know my name is Chae Yeon, Oppa told me that before. But he also said Oppa is not Oppa. Oppa is Seung Gi, he is my Dongseng, and that he lied to me about being my fiancée. I didn’t want to believe him, but he had pictures and video clips on everything he said. According to him, Seung Gi is not Oppa, and I’m not his woman, and we are not in love.
Kim seems harmless, and the videos he brought were really interesting. We spent the whole day talking and watching videos. So I used to be a singer, and that was my dream since I was a young girl. Kim said I am a workaholic, and that because of me, he has become one too, but we worked very hard and our efforts were not wasted, because I am a successful singer.
That night, Kim left on his own, he said he trust that I will think through it, and he will be back tomorrow to pick me up to go back to Korea, where all my friends, my family and my career is.
The phone kept ringing, but I didn’t dare to pick it up. I was feeling very confused and very sick. I felt terrible, I miss Oppa, I want Oppa to be here. I held on to a magazine article about Oppa, me, and the Xman Variety show, as I cried myself to sleep.
The next morning, I found myself awake in the hospital. The same hospital I met Oppa. Except that Oppa was not there. Kim was there, he said I was running a high fever and fainted at home. Kim had a long discussion with the hospital staff. Eventually, we managed to get out of the hospital before dark. I hate the hospital at night. Oppa used to stay with me so that I won’t feel lonely.
“Your parents are arriving tomorrow morning. Tonight, you’ll stay here”
He brought me to a hotel, and he showed me more videos on shows that I attended in the past. He played my songs, and asked me if I remembered how to sing them. I didn’t remember, but they sounded very familiar.
“If you have questions about Seung gi, you can ask me, I will tell you everything”
“Is Seung gi really not my oppa?”
“He was never and will never be your oppa. You have always treated him like a dongseng because you know that a relationship between the two of you is impossible. There are traditions to follow and even practicality sake, he is not suitable. He is only 21 this year, and he not even served the army. He is not fit to take care of you.
“Where is Oppa?” I missed him, I hope he can be here, I didn’t know how much I should trust Kim. I think whatever he says is true, but I cannot bring myself to believe that the man I trusted all these time is not real.
“Seung gi is in Korea. His grandpa is very ill. He won’t be coming back for you. You need to be strong, and responsible; you have many people you’ll need to answer to. Now what is most important is for you to recover well.”
I have to be responsible? Within a week, my life has change drastically. There is no Oppa, no kisses, no love. Oppa said I didn’t have to worry, he said I didn’t have to do anything, but love him. Oppa is not around anymore, I guess I have to try to accept the truth.
Mom and Dad came to the hotel, they were in tears, I remember them, I know they are my parents. But I don’t remember much about the things we do together. They said they will bring me back to Japan, to a house which I bought for their retirement. I didn’t know I was so capable, where did I find the money?
“Omma, where did I get the money to buy a house?” I asked my mummy
“You worked very hard, in order to let your a-pa and I lead a smooth life. You never took any breaks since you started this career in Japan, this was the first break you took, and you got into an accident, oh my poor baby” Omma hugged me tightly
From what they described, I was a very busy person.
“Can I see Seung gi?” Kim forbid me to address him as Oppa, so I’m trying to change
“My dear girl, he lied to you, he wasted so many weeks of your life, and you are still thinking about him?” A-pa was not happy with my question
“But I miss him” I said softly.
With that, I spent a few weeks in Japan, the doctors there were less scary because I could understand them, and I am able to remember a lot of things now…
I remember I used to live in an army camp with A-pa. The Oppas and Onnis there will shower me with lost of chocolates and candies.
I remember attending school, I disliked school.
I remember attending university, where I met Tae Min Oppa.
I remember Tae Min Oppa’s funeral, and how depressed I was.
I remembered the difficult times in Japan, on the streets of Tokyo.
I think I am recovering fast.
Kim asked me if I wanted to start recording my 4th album. He said we will have to go back to Seoul to do it. I want to go back to Seoul. I want to find my Oppa.