Fan Fiction |
by PinkNalgene
I received a call from the Producers of Xman earlier this morning. They informed me that Michelle Wee has picked me to be her partner on Xman, and I was to cooperate with them as much as required, for the Michelle wee special to be a success. I learned from my manager that it is a romance scene. I didn’t want to, but my manager was insistent on it. He said the exposure and publicity would be good, plus it will lessen the rumors that are floating around between Nuna and me. I like those rumors, but it is unfair for Nuna. I know what anti-fans are capable of doing.
“Nuna, its Seung Gi” I called her on the way to Xman recording
“Seung Gi? It’s me, Minwoo”
“Minwoo hyung? Where is Chae Yeon nuna?” I was shocked, why is Minwoo picking up Nuna’s call?
“She left in a hurry, her phone is with me” He said, not bothering to explain any further.
“Ok, thank you. I’ll hang up now”
I sat in the make up room waiting for Nuna to come, but she did not turn up. As we all got ready on stage, she ran into the studio straight into her position beside Ho Dong Kyung. I kept looking at her, hoping that she will look at me, but she never did. I had not got the chance to explain to her about the scene that I had to act out with Michelle later.
During the break Nuna was busy discussing something with the producers. Did they tell her about Michelle Wee as well? She needs to know before hand! The dreaded moment finally came, I did everything as planned, and the recording smoothly ended. We broke for dinner, but I was not able to spot Nuna. I felt that even as her on screen boyfriend, I owe her an explanation. And of course, I wanted to find out why Minwoo Kyung was holding on to her phone.
“Mr. Kim, where is Chae Yeon Nuna?” I asked her manager politely
“Ah Seung Gi, today is your lucky day! Michelle wee’s chosen one. You must be happy”
“It is for the show Mr. Kim, I need to explain this to Nuna”
“You don’t owe her any explanation, don’t be silly, boy. Chae Yeon is at the roof top, she wanted to get some fresh air, she was feeling a little moody”
I ran upstairs, and saw a tiny figure sitting alone. The sun set cause rays of beautiful sun light to shine on her brown hair. I sat down beside her and placed a rose on her lap. But she was crying. Why is she crying, was it me? I promised myself to bring happiness to her, but why have I caused her to tear? She picked up the rose and placed it back in my hands.
“Nuna, I’m, sorry, I wanted to explain everything to you before the recording started, but… I didn’t have the chance” I felt terrible
“You don’t owe me any explanation, I’m not anyone to you”
“You are, you are my everything. Nuna, she was just a script in the show” I tried to explain myself. She stood up and started walking away.
“I am just a script in the show too” She said softly and ran towards the door
“Nuna!” I ran after her, but was stopped by Ho dong kyung.
“Seung Gi, come, kyung have something to tell you” Ho dong pulled me to another room.
“You are a young and capable boy. I can see that you have a bright future ahead. Chae Yeon, is a dongseng that I dote on a lot. She needs a real man to take care of her, I will speak to the producers, to end off the romance between the two of you. I hope you understand. She is not as strong as she seems.”
I felt like the whole world was against us. Of course I know that she is not that strong independent woman on stage. She is my nuna, the nuna that I have loved so much. What have they been telling her? Why did she cry?
I have decided to not stand there guessing, I need to talk to her. That night, I waited for her outside her apartment. I saw her getting off Minwoo Kyung’s car. She saw me waiting for her, and walked towards me.
“Why is your phone with him” jealously took over as I demanded an answer from her. She looked shocked, and slowly lowered her head.
“I left it at the gym, he found it” She mumbled.
I grabbed her by her shoulders and forced her to look at me. She refused to listen to what I was saying. I kissed her. It was our first kiss. All these months, I tried to love her as a Nuna, but I could not control the feelings I have. She struggled, she kept pushing me away, till she finally bit my lips. Just as I stopped kissing her, I realized that she was shivering and crying. I held her tightly in my arms, but she didn’t stop crying. I started giving her little kisses, from her head to her cheeks. I kissed away her tears. Nuna collapsed into my arms, tired from all the crying and struggling. I carried her to the park below her building. Her crying has almost stopped now, but she has not spoken a word yet, she simply lay there, safe in my arms.
Chae Yeon:
Today’s Xman recording was rather disturbing. The producers have found a more compatible girl for Seung Gi. I was very affected by this prodigy girl Michelle wee. It made me realized that I am just a script in his life. He looked so happy with her, it’s like I never existed. This should never have started. I should have never expected anything from him. How silly I am. I went to the roof to get some fresh air, and thought about Seung Gi, I thought about my failed love life, I thought about the man named Ryan. I dated Ryan when I was in Japan. He was my only boyfriend after Tae Min oppa. Ryan left me for my best friend in Japan. He said that she needed someone to look after her, that I am strong enough to be on my own... he does not know that I am not that strong…everyone thinks that Chae Yeon will never get hurt. They don’t know me. But the feeling I had and the one I have now, they are the same. I felt heartbroken. But I should not, because Seung Gi is not my man. To him, I am just a script.
Minwoo and Ha-ha came to have dinner with me and Jung-ah today. I wanted to thank him for picking my phone at the gym. I have been so muddle headed these days, it is scary how often I lose things. Minwoo wanted to fix me up with one of his friends. I appreciate his help, but how can I go on a blind date when all I could think of that night was Seung Gi?
When I reached home, I saw Seung Gi waiting for me below my building. He looked hurt, after seeing Minwoo dropping me off. He was very fierce to me, asking me about Minwoo. I was afraid, afraid that he would be angry, afraid that he would misunderstand, afraid that he will just leave me like how Ryan did. Again, there were two voices in my mind. This first voice told me to just walk away, go home, but the other voice wanted me to explain to him, to be with him.
Seung Gi kissed me. I tried to push him away, but he was very forceful, his strength overpowered mine. I got very scared, I felt insecure, he refused to let go of me. I bit his lips. I didn’t want him to be like that. His lips were bleeding, and I could not stop crying. When he finally let go of me, I felt my muscles gone weak. I collapsed into his arms.
I don’t know what happened, but my mind was blank for a while. The next I know, I was in one of the little huts in the play park. My head was resting on his chest, as I held on tightly to his arms. I looked up to his face, and received a kiss from him. He kissed my nose, and played with my hair. I enjoy his touch, his smell, his everything.
“Yeonie” he continued stroking my hair, holding me close to him.
“Hmm?” I didn’t correct him about formal language. I could not be bothered.
“Do you believe me? Believe that I love you?” He asked
I used my finger to touch his lips. There was a blood clot on his lower lip.
The same feeling of uncertainness came back. Would everyone us around us let us be together? What will mom and dad say? Everyone will think that I’m seducing a young boy. Will he lose his support from his company? What should I do?
For tonight, I didn’t want to think anymore. I placed my head deep into his chest and held him closely. Just tonight, let me be an ignorant person. I love him, that’s why I have to let him go. But let me be selfish, just for tonight. Tomorrow, I’ll return him back to the world, can I just stay in his arms tonight.
The next morning, I found myself wrapped like a baby in his arms. I tried to wiggle myself out but I was afraid of waking him up. I rested my head on his arms, looking at him.
Seung Gi has a very strong nose. People used to say that a man with a strong nose can lead a strong life. His dark hair was messed up; he looked cute in this messy hair. His lips, the lips which I bit last night. I stretched out and kissed those lips.