Fan Fiction

Confidential Secrets

by Pa and DeDe

Chapter 11

Agressive Love(YoungBae)

I can’t believe DeDe would think anything would happen. I’ve got into another aggressive argument with her. We were arguing over the idea of Japan, JVIP, and Wonder Girls joint stage. I came in YG Studio since we only have a couple days left before we depart to Japan when Danny and Teddy was talking about how DeDe don’t want to take part at MBC News Desks. I thought as a girl friend she would be there to support me, but apparently she didn’t want to. I wanted to talk to her about it but she just blow off on me. I couldn’t handle it and yell back at her and things lead to another. We started to yell so loud in the dance studio that JiYong had to step in. He defended me but Pa who was extremely sick stand by DeDe side. I felt bad because of me, JiYong and Pa argue. Why can’t DeDe understand me? I mean we have been together for a year and 5 months. Why can’t she believe me? I know DeDe have a hard time to trust guys since she had bad experience in the past. But that’s the past can’t she just leave it in the past? I’m different from all those players. She told me I change that I become someone else but I am still the Dong YoungBae that she knows. Maybe it’s because of my more outgoing personality being reveal to the world but she know I was like that before hand….I just don’t get her.

Aish….we always end up arguing over this issue. I feel like my love for her isn’t worth anything. What I hate most is when she’s mad or has something in her mind she would talk to Daesung. Actually she would talk to everyone mostly Daesung and Jiyong but never me. I’m her boy friend not Daesung. Everyone would think he’s her boy friend and not me. Ok, I’m not a jealous person or should I say I shouldn’t be jealous of Daesung since he’s my dong saeng and if he finds out that his hyung was jealous of him he would feel weird. How can I be by her side if she doesn’t let me in? I mean I don’t know what to do. I heard that our song “Number One” got to play on the radio and I wanted to spend that moment with her. I mean the song Number One represent how much she means to me. Yah laugh at me ok so I didn’t know the meaning at first but since Aimee Lee and Shaun explain to me I finally realize that it’s the song I want to dedicate to her. But I can’t believe the day I should be happy end up being into a day I don’t want to be in.

The secret is that I’m afraid that one day she will leave me. DeDe is different from Pa she have her dreams and she don’t let anyone pull her back. If one day she had to choose between me and her dreams I am scare that she would end up choosing her dreams and not me. Call me selfish but I can’t imagine my life without DeDe. If she leaves me there be no one who would eat all the food, no one for me to joke with, no one to teach me English, no one to give me advice, no one to go buy Nikes with……my life would be plain like no flavor……Aish tell me what should I DO….HOW CAN WE COMPROMISE ON THIS ISSUE????

Confused Dong YoungBae….]:

10.1.08 || YoungBae || 8:30 pm