Fan Fiction

Confidential Secrets

by Pa and DeDe

Chapter 8

A worried heart(JiYong)

Oh my, yesterday was not such a good night for me. I went over to Pa’s place with a bunch of good food but she couldn’t eat it. I knew there had to be something else to the story that Dede told me. She was so ill. I mean she couldn’t even get out of bed. I started to worry a lot when I saw here. I don’t understand why she just didn’t call and tell me. This makes me worried even more. I don’t know if I can leave her and go to Japan knowing that she is like this right now. I can’t believe that Dede lied to me too. I’m so telling Young Bae that they can’t see each other for one whole entire day.

To add with that she ate all the food that I made too. Man can she eat. When she starts to eat it’s like stay way, she’s like a machine. Anyways back to Pa. When I got over there I expected to see a smiling face not someone who had a fever and she was in sweats and a big sweater. I felt so bad for her. She didn’t want me to catch her sickness so she told me to stay far way from her. So she went and slept and I just sat there looking at her trying to sleep. I felt bad so I called a friend to go pick up some soup and medicine for her.

He came back to their place with some hot soup. I told her to come eat but she didn’t feel like it. Seeing her sick like that made me feel so sorry for her. I wish that it was me who was sick instead of her. I wish it would work like that but I know that if she saw me sick she’d probably cry. Like that one time when I fainted because I didn’t get enough rest. She held my hand all the way to the hospital and she was crying her eyes out even after the doctor said I will be okay. The funny thing was that we had a fight before that and we were kind of on a break even though no one else knew about it.

The fight was stupid now that I think about it. I told her that I loved her and she didn’t answer back. I guess she wasn’t ready to say those words. But that night at the hospital while holding my hand and crying she told me that she loved me to much that she couldn’t find the words to get her feelings out towards me. I felt much better after hearing that. It was like I didn’t need the rest anymore. She’s probably not going to get to write for tonight since she is sick. So I’ll write for both her and me then.

I know that she wanted me to stay away but I couldn’t help it. When she fell asleep and I was sure of it I crawled up next to hear and held her in my arms tightly. Even if I get sick from it, it was all worth it. I hope she gets better soon because her voice doesn’t sound normal I miss the old Pa’s voice. Please rest and get better. I love you. <3

09.29.08 || Jiyong || 11:55 pm