| Fan Fiction |
by Tackra
Enjoy!
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Yoochun relucantly broke the heartmelting kiss. He was out of breath and he knew Changmin was as well. They both stared into each other's eyes, like something was tying them together they couldn't look away.
"Now, I will tell you everything." Changmin took a deep breath, partly for recovering after the passionate kiss and partly because this would be the first time he revealed the secret.
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"We should go" the oldest one whispered.
"Hell no! I wanna hear!" Junsu replied and Yunho agreed. Jaejoong just had to find himself defeated, by his own dongsaengs.
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"Years ago, when we were little..."
~~Flashback~~
Little Changmin covered his ears as he once again heard screams coming from downstairs. His mother was scolding Mr Shim for his helpless drinking and cheating on her. Mr Shim, still drunk from the morning's daily three bottles of wine, wasn't late to answer back. But Changmin could nothing hear. For him it was only scary screams interrupted by small sobs from his mother. Having enough, he crawled out of his hiding place under his soft blanket and went carefully downstairs.
"Omma? Appa? Can you stop screaming?" a soft sob escaped his throat. He squat half-way down the stairs and looked through the wooden fence with a petrified expression.
"You little brat...!" Mr Shim stumbled forward to Changmin with his hand curled into a fist.
"Don't you dare touch him!!" Mrs Shim shouted and stood in front of him, blocking his way.
"Out of my way, you slut!" with a drunk but powerful punch, Mrs Shim lay on the floor with blood by her lips. Mr Shim grabbed the boy's collar and lifted him up. He spat the boy in the face then threw him against the wall. Changmin yelped and started to cry. His five-year-old body couldn't take much pain.
"Shut up, you god damned brat!" he yelled and kicked the shaking Changmin in his stomach to make him stop, but only caused him to cry even louder. When Mr Shim held up his hand for another punch his cries turned into an ear-piercing scream, trying to make his father stop. Since he didn't know better.
"Stop it, please. I can make him calm down!" Mrs Shim cried, in a desperate way of saving his little baby.
Grunting, Mr Shim left the house and Mrs Shim crawled as fast as she could up to Changmin.
"Sh, Minnie, omma his here." She hushed on him, wagged him slowly from side to side while holding him tight to her chest.
This incident came to scar Changmin from the rest of his life. The image of his mother lying on the floor bleeding and his father ready to almost kill him to make him shut up, was too scary for Changmin to cope with even today.
~~End of Flashback~~
Changmin was crying uncontrollingly. His shoulders were shaking and his hiccups filled the big room. Yoochun held him close, just like his mother did so many years ago.
"Babe, what happened next?" he knew that if he wansted to know it all, he would have to make Changmin tell him.
Sniffing a little he calmed down slightly.
"Time passed by. Every other day was the same. Until just a few years ago..."
~~Flashback~~
Mrs Shim was cleaing the house to perfection. He knew her husband too well to know that if he even found the slightest grain of dust he would explode. Her son was upstairs studying. It was the safest way for him. He had a reason to stay away from his father. As a wife, she sadly had none.
The door opened and a drnk Mr Shim came struggling into the kitchen. Since it was no unusual sight Mrs Shim didn't interrup her work and only greeted him with a fake smile on her lips.
"Good afternoon, honey. Had a nice day?"
"You bitch!" he growled. She didn't copy what she did wrong this time but was soon greeted by her husband's hard knuckles to her cheek. She yelped as she flew into the wall by his power.
Upstairs, Changmin heard the commotion going on downstairs and ran down to his mother only to find her lifeless on the floor. Mr Shim rose from a final punch just to make sure she wasn't going to stand up from this 'session'. Changmin couldn't move. Was she dead, or just uncouncious? He ran up to his beloved mother whoe tiredly opened her eyes to meet with her son's.
"Minnie..." she was gasping for air. Her entire otherwise so beautiful face was covered in fresh bruises and minor cuts. "I will always be with you, Minnie. You hear me?"
"No, omma!?" Changmin carefull placed her head on his lap and carressed her cheek while holding onto her hand.
"Yes, Minnie. I am going to leave now, but you need to promise me one thing, araso? Can you promise omma one thing?"
Changmin weakly nodded and retsed his cheek against his mother's hand.
"Why are you so cold?"
She ignored his question. She could feel that this time, she wasn't going to survive.
"Promise omma that you, will not be stopped by you bastard to father? Promise me that, you will reach for even your highest dreams and listen to your heart. Araso? Promise omma that?"
"Omma~" he whined.
"Do it!" she didn't have much left.
"Ne, omma. I promise!" Changmin managed to say in between his tears. Mrs Shim's hand became lifeless and slowly fell from her now motherless son.
Mr Shim came behnd him, surprisingly calm and pulled Changmin in for a hug. Changmin didn't know what to do so he just clenched onto his father. He didn't find the comfort he needed, not the warmth his mother always had, but at that time it didn't really matter. His omma was dead.
~~A few days later~~
A funeral was held for Mrs Shim. Her death had been a tragic car accident and only her family, Changmin and Mr Shim.
Mr Shim dared Changmin to tell anyone what really happened and Changmin couldn't do anything but shut his mouth if he wanted to live. Mr Shim also explained to Changmin's close friends and families that 'he had known about Mrs Shim's drinking problems and also her cheatings with other men but didn't want to belive it'.
Changmin was so disgusted by his fathers lies that he had to leave the room. But Everyone thought, of course, that it was just too much for the just turned 13-year-old to handle and didn't ask him any further questions.
~~End of Flashback~~
Yoochun was stunned. He had been together with Changmin when his dad told about what had happened and swallowed every bit of it. How could he be so stupid?! Like he was reading Yoochun's mind Cangmin chuckled and wiped his nose.
"Don't blame yourself. My father is a devil at lying. I am the one that should have told the police what I had seen."
"You were threatened Changmin. No one blames you. And don't you dare blame yourself! I can't believe none of us noticed this!?" he hugged Changmin once again and kissed him on the neck. Changmin wraped his legs around Yoochun's body and smelled his friend's scent.
"Chun?"
"Hm?"
"Are we like, together now?" Changmin suddenly changed he topic.
"I, guess we are?"
"Will we be secretly together? I didn't even know I could fall for guys. Nonetheleast a player like you."
Yoochun chuckled and moved his hands downwards Changmin's back. He trailed butterfly kisses over his neck and Changmin just had to chuckle at the tease and tickle he felt. Yoochun also laughed and looked into his eyes.
"I'm, I'm not sure but. I think I love you, Shim Changmin." Yoochun almost whispered, only Changmin could hear. A smile played on Changmin's lips when he heard the older man's words.
"I, I love you too..." Changmin replied. It was a long time ago he heard those three words being pointed at him. He missed to hear them.
They smiled at each other and Changmin pecked his lips.
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so, that was changmin's past. not a beautiful dream as ri innie thought huh? but what will su, yun and jae do?
stay tuned! :D
comment please!
//LOve Tackra <3