Fan Fiction |
by YukLing
"Lam Fung!! Lam Fung!! We heard that Miss Rain Li and Li Qian were fighting over you and that's how Miss Rain Li got into an accident. Can you tell us more about Miss Rain Li's condition?" asked Reporter 1.
"And where is Miss Li Qian now? Does that mean you two have broken up?" asked Reporter 2.
"Could you confirm the rumor about you and Rain arguing on set?" asked Reporter 3.
As I walked thru the crowd of paparazzi, I said “If you're really concern for Miss Rain Li's health condition, I ask that you please do not disturb her so that she can recover from the accident. Now if you'll excuse me, I need to leave." And then I walked to my car.
On my way home, I decided to call Qian to check up on her. I hope she has gotten some rest and not let her mind think too much. But her phone didn't ring; instead it went directly to her voicemail. This must mean that her phone was turned off. I dialed her number again for the 3rd time and still got directly into her voicemail.
"Qian, this is Fung. Is your phone off? I'm just calling to check up on you. I'm on my way home right now."
But she was not at my apartment when I arrive. She must have gone back to the hotel instead. So I went thru the phone list and called the phone number at the hotel.
"Hello, Hyatt. How may I help you?"
"Hi, I'm looking for a Miss Li Qian. She's a guest at your hotel."
"Hold on one moment please.....She has already checked out 2 hours ago, Sir."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes Sir, it says it here that she returned her key 2 hours ago."
Where did Qian go? It's not like Qian to leave without saying anything. I hanged up the phone and dialed Bosco's number.
"Hey, What's up Ray?"
"Bosco, do you know where Qian is?"
"Huh? I don't know. Why? Is she not with you?"
"No, I just got back from the hospital...."
"What? Who's at the hospital? Something happened to Qian?"
"No, Rain is in the hospital...it's a long story. I'll tell you later, but first do you know where Qian could be?"
"Um, last I saw her she was going to Stage 19 looking for you."
"She was in the hospital with me earlier, I told her to go back to my apartment but she's not here. I called her hotel and they said she has checked out already."
"Oh...I remember. She's probably on her way back to China. But I think her flight isn't until tomorrow. Didn't she tell you?"
"No...no she didn't." I replied, "OK, thanks Bosco. Bye."
How could she just leave like that without telling me? And then I saw the answer to my question lying there on the kitchen table – a letter from Qian. My hands quiver as I picked up the letter and read.
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"Dearest Fung,
I know you are probably wondering where I am right now when you didn't find me at your apartment. I'm on my way home, back to China. My flight isn't until tomorrow, but I had switched and took an earlier flight instead. I don't think I could endure facing you for what I'm about to say, as I cannot find the courage or strength to tell you this in person.
This is not a good bye letter, Fung. So please do not be angry with me. It's only a short farewell. Fung, with all that has happened between us -- I really think we need some time apart. And I don't mean apart as in long distance of travel, but I mean apart as in time away from one another. Please don't think I am still angry about you and Rain, because I am not. I admit, I was angry this afternoon and felt that you had betrayed me when I saw you kissed Rain. But I have had time to think about everything clearly and I am no longer angry at you anymore. For the first time since we've been together, I've finally understood for you. Everything that I have witnessed and heard from you at the hospital has cleared any doubts of your love for me. I am ashamed that it had always been me who has been doubtful of us. This is not about Rain, but about us. So much has happened in the last few days, it's only natural that we have not had time to think and be ourselves. I hope that during our time apart we could rediscover what we want in this relationship and what we hope to get out from it. But if during that time, you find your way back to Rain's heart, and then at least I know you are being true to yourself, and I will be happy to know that you are happy too. I don't know Rain, but I know how it feels to see the one you love be with another person. I cannot be selfish at this moment and be with you, while she is still lying in there helplessly. So take this time and allow yourself to be free -- free from all obligations and find your true self, Fung. I know you hide your feelings very well but it pains me to see you carry so much pressure at all time.
Please don't worry about me, I will be fine. The next couple of months I will be busy filming my new series, so there will not be too much time for me to be sad. Of course, I'll miss you dearly and I know you will miss me too. But you must trust me on this. If when all is over and your feelings are still the same for me, as mine is for you -- then our love is meant to be and I will come back to you.
With much love,
Qian
P.S. Please don’t call or come looking for me.
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I dropped the letter on the floor and seated myself at the kitchen table. In front of me were two half-eaten bowls of congee soups on the table, the same place where Qian and Rain were probably sitting earlier today. Like a dream, I see their images still sitting there in my kitchen. And then my mind went blank as I was lost for word and thought.
{Sound: Woof…woof}
I looked down and found Mimi licking on my foot. The silly dog was still wearing the ridiculous pink bow that Qian had tied on her head from my birthday party. Mimi looked at me with pouting eyes. I knew she wanted me to play catch with her, but I had no energy left for such a game. Slowly I stood up and walked into my bedroom and lay myself onto the unmade bed. Closing my eyes, I could see Qian’s small body still lying next to me --- sleeping restfully. I could still smell her scent on my pillow. It was just last night when I held her close to me as I fell asleep next to her. But now she was gone. It is worst that she was gone not in anger, at least if she was angry I could try to convince her – but she had left in peace and understanding. And then like a whirlpool of storm, all the emotion, all the anger, all the regrets I have been suppressing bursted into tears as I cried silently to myself.
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{Lyrics : "Us" by Celine Dion}
I want to know why…You're letting this die…Without the blink of an eye
You say that you need time…I say you'll be fine
If you would only see…Like you did before
You became imprisoned…Can I reopen the door
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It used to be that I could juggle multiple tasks all at one time, but more and more I feel my strength weakening as each day passes by. Our filming project was put on a halt as of course Rain has still not awoken. Every day I visited her and whenever I saw her family in the room, I could not look at them without a guilty pain in my chest. It was because of me that their daughter was lying unconscious; of course, to them, they only thought it was a natural accident. The hospital have removed her from the glass room and transferred her into a private room. At least now, I could sit right next to her and talk to her without a wall between us. Since I was not filming anymore, I had more time to visit her. Everyday the press stood outside and waited for me to leave and would always have something new to ask. I stopped reading the newspaper now days, stopped paying attention to what people thought of me. I didn’t care anymore what they wrote about me, about Rain, or about Qian. I just hope whatever they say or write will not affect Qian in anyway. A month has passed since she had left, since she wrote that letter to me – I still have it kept next to my bed. I read it everyday, to remind myself the reason I have not called or come looking for her. If what she wants is a test in our relationship and if she thinks this must be done – then I will satisfy her, even though it has taken a great toll out of me.
Like any other normal day, today I brought another bouquet of fresh flowers for Rain. But when I visited her today, she was no longer in the room. I looked around fearfully, not knowing what had happened to Rain. I quickly ran out into the hallway and asked the first nurse I bumped into.
“Excuse me, where’s the patient in Room 303? Miss Rain Li.”
“Oh, she has awoken Sir. Dr. Wong is examining her right now in his office.” Replied the nurse.
A happy smile swept my face as I was overjoyed with the news. I thankfully hugged the nurse and ran down to Dr. Wong’s office. Being a regular visitor to the hospital for the past month, I already knew where exactly Dr. Wong’s office was located. I quickly ran down the hallway to his office.
I entered the office without knocking, and there she was sitting patiently in the chair talking to Dr. Wong. They both turned around and saw me.
“Rain, you’re awake!” I said as I embraced her with an affectionate hug. I could tell that she had lost a lot of weight as her body was now just skin and bone. Gone was her round full face or round eyes. “Rain, you really are awake.” I repeated as I continue to hold her into my arms.
“Ray, you’re squishing me. I can’t breathe.” Rain whispered.
“Hehehe, well we’re all glad that you’re finally awake too Miss Li.” Interrupted Dr. Wong.
Realizing that I have not even greeted Dr. Wong, I quickly released Rain and muttered an apology.
“No need, Mr. Lam. We know each other too well now.” Replied Dr. Wong. Turning back to Rain he said, “You really had us all worry Miss Li. We thought you’d never come out of your coma.”
“Thank You, Dr. Wong and all your staff for taking care of me.” Said Rain.
“Well, you’ll have to also thank that gentleman there. He’s been visiting you everyday since you’ve been here. “replied Dr. Wong.
Rain looked up and smiled at me then said, “Thank You Ray. I know you’d be there for me when I needed you most.”
“Well, Miss Rain. Your exam went well and your body seem to be recovering fully. All you need to do now is to rest and eat more to regain your health. If you have any question, just call one of the nurses to get me. Or come to be directly to my office since you know where it is now. So any question?”
“When can she be release?” I asked.
”Just as soon as she feels well enough to be on her own. It really is up to Miss Li.” Replied Dr. Wong.
“Ray, did you really visit me everyday?” Rain asked when we got back to her room.
I nodded then helped her lie down on her bed and covered her with a blanket. “How do you feel now, Rain?”
“I feel so weak. I must look horrible right now.”
“No you don’t. Just a bit skinny that’s all. It’s only natural. Just make sure you eat everything they feed you and you will be beautiful again.” Rain smiled. She seems so happy and cheerful now, I wasn’t sure if I should bring up what happened that caused her accident.
“Ray, what are you thinking?”
“Rain, do you remember what happened that caused your accident?” I asked.
She looked at me with blank expression and said “No. I can’t remember anything that happened that day. I just remember crying and then I was walking on the road when a car hit me. After that I don’t remember anything.”
“We had a fight before that…that’s why you were crying, Rain.” I confessed.
“Why would we be fighting?” replied Rain then she said “Anyways, that’s all past now. I don’t care anymore why we fought. I just know you’re here with me now and that’s all that matters.”
I couldn’t tell if Rain did not remember at all because of the accident or if she was in denial again. But since she has just awoken, I didn’t want to push any further and dropped the subject.
”Could you make me some congee soup when you come in tomorrow, Ray?” pleaded Rain.
I smiled and nodded, “Sure. Anything you like. Now, why don’t you lie down and get some rest.”
“But I don’t wanna lie down and rest anymore, I’ve been doing that for months now.”
“Rain, don’t be such a baby. You have to get some rest. How else will you recover?”
”Well, stay with me until I fall asleep. I don’t want you leaving me yet.”
“Ok Ok. I’ll stay until you sleep, how’s that?”
“Hehehe…Thanks, Ray.”
The next morning after I woke up, I went out into the kitchen, took out a pot, and filled it with water. I turned on the stove, put the pot on top of it, and waited for it to boil. As I stood there watching the flame burn, I remember the same morning when Qian was still sleeping in my bedroom and I had woke up before her. Not wanting to disturb her sleep, quietly I rolled out of bed and tipped toe out into the kitchen and cooked her congee soup. That day only seems like yesterday, but in reality it has been more than a month. The sound of the boiling water brought my attention back to reality. I wonder how Qian is doing now. Who is she with? Is she happy? Does she still miss me as much as I miss her?
======= AUTHOR'S NOTE ======
Sorry about this chapter......but I think many of you already have guessed correctly...
Unless I come up with any crazy ideas, there should be 1-2 more chapters before this fanfic is complete....=)