Fan Fiction |
by YukLing
“Uh, what time is it?” I asked as I looked down at my foot. “Mimi?”
I quickly sat up from the bed and suddenly became aware that I was in Fung’s room. That is strange, I don’t remember coming up to Fung’s apartment. The last thing I remember was walking back to Fung’s car after we went for some ice cream. And I also remember the kiss, of course.
"Hey Mimi, stop biting my toe would yah.”
As I got out of bed, I saw a bowl of congee soup with a lid on top, right next to it was piece of paper.
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“Morning Qian,
You must be surprised waking up in my bedroom this morning, right? =)
You fell asleep in my car last night and since I didn’t want to disturb your sleep so I took you back to my apartment instead of the hotel. I couldn’t possibly carry you into the hotel. ;)
Sorry I have to get to work early this morning. I made some congee soup for you. Be sure to reheat it if it gets cold.
Hope your sleep was good.
Luv,
Fung.
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I smiled to myself slightly and touched my lips as I remember last night’s kiss.
{Sound : Bark..Bark}
“Ok Ok, Mimi. I’m up.”
The first thing I did after I washed my face and brushed my teeth was called for a taxi cab. After hanging up on the phone I was about to go and reheat the congee soup when the phone ring again. Thinking that it was the cab driver calling me back, I quickly went to pick up the phone.
“Hello.”
A female voice was on the other line, “Uh..Hello? Is Fung there?”
“No, he’s not here now.”
Detecting my slight Cantonese accent, the lady switched to speaking Mandarin, “You are Li Qian?”
“Uh, yes. Who is this?” I asked.
“Qian, this is Rain Li. We have met before at Fung’s party. Do you remember me?” she asked.
“Yes, yes I remember. Fung is not here, he’s probably at the studio already. You should try calling his cell phone instead.”
“I have been calling, but he’s not picking up so I thought he was still at home. We’re supposed to meet at 8am this morning.”
“Oh? I think he left before that. Then I don’t know where he is…” I replied.
“It’s OK, I’ll call him back later. But since you’re here, there’s something I want to discuss with you about too.”
“Uh, sure. What is it?”
”Not over the phone, you’re at Fung’s apartment right now right?”
“Yes.”
”OK, I’m on my way near Fung’s house anyways. Let me stop by and we can talk later.”
“Um..Ok..Sure”
After hanging up the phone with Rain, I went into the kitchen and put the congee soup into the microwave. What could it possibly that Rain wants to talk to me about? Certainly not her personal problems as we are not really friends or close acquaintance. It must be about Fung then. Ten minutes later as I was still eating the congee soup slowly, the doorbell rang. I went to open the door to let Rain inside.
“Hi, am I disturbing your breakfast?”
“No. Not really. I was just eating some congee soup.”
“Congee soup! My favorite. Did Fung cook that? I remember he use to always bring them for me when I was sick. He cooks congee soup really well.”
“Uh…would you like some?”
“If you don’t mind, I’d love to have some.”
We both sat down at the table and begin to eat the congee soup.
“Rain, what is it that you want to tell me?”
Rain reluctantly avoided my eyes and replied, “I’m not sure how to say this…I just hope it won’t offend you.”
“Does this concern Fung?” I asked.
She nodded and continued to say, “I don’t know if Fung told you this, but we use to date, secretly of course. At that time we didn’t want the press or his family to know. We were both very young then and made a lot of mistakes.”
I stopped eating the soup, looked up and said, “No, Fung didn’t tell me about you guys.”
“Probably because he doesn’t’ want to hurt your feeling. We still love each other very much. That’s why I….I…” Rain started to cry, “I wanted to ask you if you could please let us be…”
I stood up immediately from my chair and walked to the kitchen sink. With both my hands still gripping onto the sink countertop I said, “You’re lying. I don’t believe you!”
“Well he’s the one who’s lying to you! Though we never officially dated and I was never his official girlfriend, but we both loved each other very much. But like I said, we were very young and foolish and let the press and his family got in the way. So we both gave up on that relationship.”
“Fung would never lie to me. I think you should leave now, Rain. I don’t know why or what your intention of telling me this, but I am very upset and don’t want to hear anymore of this from you. Please leave.”
Rain got up from her chair and wiped her tears away. Walking towards the door, she turned back and said “You may not believe me now, but in time you will see. You can’t separate us apart because we both are still in love with each other. I don’t know what is it he sees in you and I don’t know how you got him to acknowledge your relationship to the public, but I know Fung. His family comes first and his father will never like you. He’ll get weary of you and will come back to me. Because only I can love him truly and will do anything for him.”
I could still feel my blood boiling with frustration as I left the apartment 10 minutes after Rain left. This morning when I woke up, I felt like the happiest person in the world, and now my world seems to have just collapsed. Last night, I finally found enough trust and belief in him and in us, but now it seems as if it had all been an illusion. Why did Fung have to lie to me? As much as I was angry at Rain for the spiteful things she said, I knew that some of it had to be true. I just wasn’t sure how much of it was true and how much of it just her imagination. Is Fung really still in love with her? I wanted to confront Fung right away, but because I was already late for the meeting with the Director I had to go straight to the studio from the apartment.
My mind thru the entire meeting was otherwise occupied of course and did not hear the director announcing the end of our meeting until Bosco gave me a tug and said, “Qian. The meeting is over. Let’s go.”
I looked up a Bosco and nodded. We both exited the room together.
“Qian, are you alright? You seemed unfocused back in there?”
“Hey, do you know which studio Fung is filming his MTV? I have to see him right away.”
“I think he should be at Stage 19. Do you need me to walk you there?”
“No, no. I can find it myself. Thanks Bosco.” I said and quickly ran up to the end of the hallway.
“Hey, have a good trip flying home, Qian.” Bosco yelled across the hallway.
I turned around, waved at him and said “I’ll see you at the filming location next time. Bye Bye. Thanks for everything, Bosco!”
I quickly exited the building ran across the streets. Gasping desperately, I walked up to the front counter and asked for the receptionist for direction to Stage 19.
”Excuse me, is Lam Fung still filming at Stage 19?”
”Stage 19 has just finished filming for today Miss Li, “replied the receptionist.
“It is? Well, do you know if there are people still in there?”
“I’m not really sure, but it’s on the 4th floor if you want to go there.” Answered the receptionist.
“Thank You.”
My heart was beating rapidly as I entered the elevator. I took one deep breath at a time trying to calm myself. Ok, just breathe Qian. You have to stay focus and remain calm. Fung’s got to have a good explanation for all this. Be strong, be strong – I said to myself. Upon exiting the elevator, I took another deep breath of air. OK, I’m ready to face him. I walked up to the cast dressing room, but it was empty. Seems like everyone has already left. As I was about to exit, I heard a small noise in the back of the dressing room.
No amount of preparation or deep gulp of air could have saved me for what I was about to witness.
”I don’t know what else to say to make you believe me, Rain!”
“Then prove it! Prove to me what you say is true! Until you do, I’ll never believe a word you say.”
And then it happened -- right in front of my eyes. Fung bent down and kissed Rain on her lips.
One drop of tear fell down my eyes, then came another one, and soon my eyes were filled with salty tear drops blurring my vision of them kissing. My heart felt as if it had been ripped apart. I couldn’t stand looking at them any longer, I wanted to run away – as far as I can. But my legs were weak and did not obey my command. I couldn’t move and although I cried no sound could be heard. It was as if my entire body had stopped functioning – stopped wanting to live. And soon, I could no longer see or hear anything. Several minutes has passed before my vision became clear and I was able to move again. I started to leave the dressing room when Fung walked out from behind and saw me.
“Qian!” Fung said shockingly.
I could see it in his eyes – the guilt and the fear.
“Get away from me!”, I exclaimed and quickly reached for the door knob.
Fung ran up and blocked me from opening the door and said desperately, “Qian, listen, it’s not what you think.”
I stepped back way from him and the door and exclaimed, “Not what I think??? What could I possibly think that is not true?? You kissed her and you lied to me!!”
Fung stepped up and tried to reach for me, but I quickly pulled away, “No! Get away from me. How could you do this to me? And last night? Was all that just another lie too?”
“No Qian! Last night was real.” Fung raised his voice.
“And Rain?” I pointed to the back of the dressing room. “And that kiss back there? Don’t deny that it wasn’t real too!”
“Qian, I’m so sorry I lied to you about Rain.” Fung pleaded, “Please let me …”
“No! I don’t want to hear you lie anymore. You always have an excuse. Just when I thought I could trust you, then you go and do this.”
“Qian, you’re not even giving me a chance to explain!” Fung yelled. “Would you stop acting like a kid and just hear me out?”
”So now I’m kid, heh?” I retorted. “Lam Fung. I gave you many chances to tell me about you and Rain. Yet, time and time again you lied and denied it. Why should I sit here and still listen to your excuses? You always expect me to be upfront with you, but you. You’re never upfront about anything. You obviously lied about you and Rain. She told me herself this morning that you used to date each other secretly. At first I didn’t want to believe her and so I came looking for you. And what did I find? I find you kissing her. ”
Fung had stopped talking and only stood there silently. And since he obviously had nothing else to say and no more excuses to come up with, I finally said “And you know what else she said to me? She said you were still in love with her and that I should let you two be together. She doesn’t know what is it you see in me in the first place. And she said soon you’d be back with her because she’s the only who understands you. I’m beginning to think maybe she’s right.“
Fung finally spoke again, “Qian, please don’t tell me what she says anymore. I’ve heard enough.”
As I looked at Fung and his pitiful face right now, I felt a big disappointment. I wished he would tell me that I’m wrong. I wished he’d shut me up and tell me it was all a misunderstanding. But he didn’t. He only stood there. Perhaps he has nothing else to say because I finally found out the truth – that he and Rain were still in love with each other. And now, I just don’t want to be a third wheel in this relationship.
Ripping off the necklace he had given me for our 1 week anniversary, I handed over to him. And without another word, I pushed him away from the door and walked away. I dare not look back to see his face at that moment, for I fear I’d be weak again. And so I kept on walking and walking until I couldn’t stand it any longer and ran as fast as I could --- With tears in my eyes, I ran as fast as I could -- away from him forever.
“Ooh why,Why did you have to lie
Cause I felt the trust start to die
Why o why,When I still love you
It's so hard to say goodbye“
===============AUTHOR'S NOTE==================
OK, I already know i'm gotta get some complaints on this chapter =)
I would have love to end the story @ Chapter 8, but I gotta stay true to my title and contine with the story.
NOTE: This is not the ending!!!
Up until now the building up and climax is base on Celine's song WHY OH WHY (part of my title)
So here's the lyrics for this song.
============WHY OH WHY (Celine Dion)============
Don't you know that your my reason
For my love, my life, my being
So secure and so damn sure my
Heart would surely die without you
I tried to swallow my pride
But I felt my heart start to tremble inside
Wish I didn't know cause I can't let you go
Tell me
Why
Why when I looked in your eyes
I felt my heart start to cry
My o my
When I saw you with the other girl
Ooh why,
Why did you have to lie
Cause I felt the trust start to die
Why o why
When I still love you
It's so hard to say goodbye
How can you tell me it was nothing
Cause you took away everything I dreamed in
Just a night and I held you tight
When you know you were sleeping in my bed
I tried to swallow my pride
But I felt my heart start to tremble inside
Wish I didn't know cause I can't let you go
Tell me
Why
Why when I looked in your eyes
I felt my heart start to cry
My o my
When I saw you with the other girl
Ooh why,
Why did you have to lie
Cause I felt the trust start to die
Why o why
When I still love you
It's so hard to say goodbye
[Solo:]
Should I quietly leave through the door
Or maybe pretend the way things were once before
When I met you
I'll never forget you, so
Why
Why when I looked in your eyes
I felt my heart start to cry
My o my
When I saw you with the other girl
Ooh why,
Why did you have to lie
Cause I felt the trust start to die
Why o why
When I still love you
It's so hard to say goodbye