Fan Fiction

Maybe This is Goodbye [completed]

by lunaxsol

Chapter 1

Thoughts

All five of us are sitting in the living room watching T.V well one of us is really watching. I glace to my down and see JunSu watching the clock, weird it’s like he’s waiting for a date or something. Next to him I see YooChun staring intently at the show. I glance to my right towards the cuddling couple, I feel my heart clench at the sight, and I feel prickling behind my eyes. I turn back to the T.V screen before I start crying. I need something to get that image erased from my head, I stare at the T.V and finally notice what’s going on.

There is a young women, looking at a man and a women exchanging hugs; I’m guessing it’s her crush. But that’s not what indulged me into watching this scene; it’s the older lady next to her and what she says, “If you really love him, let him go. He deserves a life without a hidden love; without a burden. We both want what’s best for him; we both want him to live a peaceful life without living a lie. Let him go.”

I hear a dolphin-like voice breaking me out of my trance.
“Well, it’s getting late, so…I think I’ll turn in for the night!”

I glace up from the T.V and stare at JunSu.

“But JunSu, it’s only 9:30,” I heard ChangMin say I turn to him and I see him pouting his eyes were teary and YunHo is rubbing his back.

JunSu yawned, he stretched and said, “Even so I’m really tired, plus, we all have morning practice tomorrow.”

Trying to act normal I gave him a skeptical look. I heard a honey-like voice speak that never fails to catch my attention.

I look over at YunHo as he stood up “He’s right, you guys…morning practice is really early tomorrow so I think everyone should go to bed now.”

Groaning, I whiped the TV remote at him hoping it will hit him so he’ll know one quater of the pain I go through every time I see him with ChangMin.

“But hyung!” ChangMin protested. “It’s not that late!” I heard but my attention was on YunHo.

Catching the remote before it hit him square in the face, YunHo shut off the TV and reached down to pull ChangMin up off the couch, putting an arm around his waist as he did so.

“Shh…come on, sweetie. I’ll put you to bed.” And he guided the still protesting ChangMin off down the hallway, calling a good-night back over his shoulder.

I roll my eyes, got up as well and walked towards the room that YunHo and I share; saying good-night to the remaining two as I pass them.

I shut the door and fall right onto my bed; I still smell the scent of him from this morning linger in the air and on my bed.

I think back to the movie; “Leave him if you love him.” “He deserves a life without a burden.””…him to live a peaceful life without living a lie.” Am I a burden to him? Should I leave him? I Love him so much though.

I felt my eyes growing heavier and my mind hanging onto those thoughts.