| Fan Fiction |
by _niXIAH
"AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!" I screamed on top of my lungs.
When suddenly, Jaejoong popped out from the kitchen.
"What happened?!" he asked, looking at me.
My mouth opened wide. I immediately hid behind the covers as he turned around.
"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?!" I asked, I mean shouted.
"Duh, you brought me here last night." he answered.
"B-b-b-brought?! What do you mean?!" I asked again.
"Oh my God. Do you always have amnesia in the morning?!" he answered as he tapped his forehead and turned around.
"DON'T YOU EVER DARE LOOK HERE!" I shouted as I threw a pillow at him.
"I don't have any intentions of seeing your body!" he shouted and went back to the kitchen.
"DAAAAAAAMN IT!!!!!!!" I shouted in anger and embarrassment.
I stood up, covering my body with the entire bed cover. I hurriedly went to the bathroom to wear clothes. As I wear my shirt... I was thinking, why the heck am I naked? Did he sleep with me... beside me... naked?! And then... I remembered something.
"Oh my God" I whispered as I covered my mouth.
I hurriedly went out from the bathroom and stood behind Jaejoong who was eating his third pair of sandwich.
"Hey, alcoholic pervert, tell me, did you rape me?" I shouted, pointing at him.
"Huh! Raped? Come on, you did not stop me." he answered, not looking at me.
"Did something happen?!" I asked again, to make sure.
He stood up and looked at me.
"Damn it! I said it already! Are you listening at---"
I slapped him... his head moved to the right, his fists are clenched and his anger was already raising... that slap... the same with Romeo... I was burning with anger... the first minute I woke up. Tears went flowing from my eyes as I bit my lip. Regretting what might have happen... or what I have heard from him.
"What did you do that for?!" he shouted back.
I was crying... already. Not just because of what he answered... but because of that slap.
"Tell me... did something really happen?" I asked in a bitter voice.
"I'm sorry." he muttered. “I really didn’t want that to happen too.”
I started to cry harder... I punched him on his chest as I cry... he didn't stop me... he never stopped me from doing it...
"Okay, fine... hit me as hard as you can... as many as you want. But I don't want to see you crying anymore later okay?" he said sweetly as he receives my punches.
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I was seated at a couch, TV opened, but my face... my face was buried between my knees. As tears fall down from my eyes to the couch... I couldn't think of anything but that scene... the scene which happened last night... surely it was my first time... to feel such kind of pain... with lust at the same time... I was stricken... aware of the surroundings which seem to play pranks around me. Why me? Why happen to me? Why Jaejoong? Why now... now that... I'm really full of problems. And how I wish I was home... how I wish I never accepted that moron's offer... how I wish I never brought Jaejoong here... I'm so stupid very stupid… stupid, damn, idiot. Three words which really suits me.
As I cry… Jaejoong watched me… from the kitchen, not eating… but just seating… distant from me… waiting for my anger to be gone… completely gone. He was flawlessly looking at me, taking a glance at his wristwatch for a while and back at looking at me again. I could feel his stares… and it seems like I could hear his thoughts too.
I wanted to move… but the nature would stop me. I don’t want him to come closer to me… but I want to hug him. Wait, what’s this? Why am I saying such words? I wanted to know the answer… but I’m also afraid I might hear those words… love… the most stupid thing I’ve ever knew… I wish… as I remembered someone… as I remember his stares… as I seem to hear his voice at my mind… I wish, I never knew how to love… I wish I never know how to love Romeo… for he thought me how love hurts people… how love sucks… how love make someone suffer.
Finally, I was able to escape this gloomy feeling. I moved an inch and I know Jaejoong saw it. As I stood up, he stood up and immediately went beside me.
“What do you want?” I asked, looking below, trying to ignore his stare.
“Talk to me.” he answered directly.
“I’m already talking to you.” I answered.
“Face me.” He commanded.
“We can talk without me looking at you.” I said.
It seems like were battling with words. And anger… the first armor we only have… with sorrow as our guardians.
He held my wrist, tightly like he doesn’t want me to distance from him. He looked piercingly at me… as I just did the same thing, ignore his stares… staring blankly at the bathroom’s door.
“AJ.” He seriously called.
“Say everything you want to say.” I answered, but not to his call.
“Can you show a little of your maturity in this matter?!” he asked, standing in front of me, still looking at me with his piercing eyes.
I know it, he’s really serious now… but, I can’t do it… I can’t be strong enough to face him. Why in this kind of matter?! Why?! I felt like I’m already having a hard time breathing… and my tears, they just want to fall again. No! Not again, I just ended up crying… and then, they’ll fall again? My eyes are swollen now… and I don’t want him to see it.
“I… I don’t know what to say… seriously.” I said bitterly.
“Huh?” he asked.
“You heard it. And I’m serious with that… matured enough to say those words. Are you happy now? Now that I did what you want me to do?” I asked back.
“AJ, what’s the matter?! It’s just something last night! Then you’ll be acting weird already?!” he shouted, shaking me as his hands both gripped at my shoulders.
I was looking at him already, with my large swollen eyes… and my trembling lips… as tears started to flow again. Not again!
“Something?! Just something?! Jae… it could be ‘just something’ for you… but it would be totally different for me!” I cried.
“Look, I’m sorry! I’m really sorry!” he detached his hands from my shoulders already, looking below, with his fists closed tightly.
I can feel regret from both of us. I know… he didn’t want that to happen either… but, it already happened. And we can’t turn back the time to take it away.
“Sorry is not enough.” I answered bravely, as I fought with those tears.
“What do you want me to do?” he asked, looking at me.
“Stay away… I don’t want to hear anything from you anymore.” I answered, as brave as I can…
Even though I know I want him beside me… now that I feel closer to him. Was it a feeling brought by that happening? Or… do I just… love someone again?
“I can’t.” he said. “I just can’t… I just can’t leave you.” he said.
“Why?” I asked.
“I… I feel different.” He answered and went immediately to the kitchen.
Different? From what?
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REPLIES:
•JaeSu fan: ahihi.^^ wala naman… medyo naisip ko lang:))
Lalo na nung napanood ko yung Odyssey.xD LOL. Sa English namin.xD
Dami kasi rated dun!:)) awts, need any help? Hehe.xD
Parang nakakaaliw sumulat eh:))
Okay na sya nun. Medyo di na siya lasing.:D
•kaje_purple: TSK. Mahirap talaga! Wala ako background sa ganun eh:))
LOL. Thanks sa Odyssey… may naisip ako! HAHAH!:)) baliw.xD [ako]
•ajaeluvsjoongie: LOL. E hindi butterflies eh… DOLPHINS!:) heheeh.xD
Tsaka palagi tumitibok puso ko. Edi ibig sabihin, inlab ako parati?! LOL.
ONGA EH! Di ko din naisip na nagawa kong isulat yun. LOLZ. Hahaha.xD
Aywow. Sige, just put the details in your mind!:)) Kayo ni Jaejae ha.xD
Adik, kawawa siya sa The Way U Are… nagbabakasyon pero nagging waiter.
LOL. Anlandi nung girl. Hinalikan siya tas si Jaejoong pa yung tumakbo!
Mas babae pa siya eh!:)) grabe, ang ganda ni Jaejoong.xD no problem!:)
•~Jaejoong Lover~: it’s okay:D heheh.xD I won’t kill you.:| Promise!:)
Heheeh.xD Updated!:)
•Lucia: Ahehehe! They were really crazy!:) LOL. Good luck with your vacation, Junsu!:)
Anyways, they’re not stars here…:D So vacation would not be random.:D
Hmm.. yeah, a bit happier..:D but not yet here.:|
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