| Fan Fiction |
by Cammie
I smiled happily as I walked down the street on my way to school. I looked and smiled up at the blue sky. Hearing the soft wind blow and the school children running past me, I loved it. Everything was so peacful.
*HONK!*
I jumped up startled at the sudden loud noise. Totally interrupting the peacful nature around me. I looked to the right, where the loud honk came from. Seeing who was in the car I immediately smiled.
"What are you doing here?" I asked Jonghyun, even though I knew the answer.
He slightly chuckled and smiled back at me. "What kinda question is that silly?" He ruffled my hair as I jumped into the passenger seat. "I obviously am going to bring you to school." He smiled cheekily at me then he started driving. We were almost to school, and neither of us said a word to each other. I looked over at him, he was looking forward, very focused on the road. But everytime I kept looking over at him he seemed to look more worried. He looked nervous. Millions of questions started to pop into my mind as I wondered what was wrong. I wanted to ask, yet I was scared to. Thinking that maybe his answer would change everything about our relationship.
Once we reached the school he parked his car and both of us sat there for what seemed like forever. He then let out a deep sigh and looked over at my with sad eyes. Of course, I became more worried. I gave him a worried look. "What wrong?" I said in a lifeless voice followed by a sigh. He weakly forced a smile on his face.
"Nothing. Let's go. Class is about to start. " He tried to brighten up the atmosphere with his tone of voice. I heard the click of his door opening as I reached down and picked up my school bag. I straightened up again and was about to open the door. But before I knew it, Jonghyun was at my door opening it for me. I looked up at him and smiled at him. "What a gentleman." I commented then laughed.
"Bye Jae Eun~ I'll see you later." Jonghyun hugged me then walked in the opposite direction.
"Bye!" I yelled back at him since he was now somewhat far away from me. He stopped in his tracks and turned his head to me then gave me a smile. I turned around and we then went our seprate ways. While I was in Biology, he was in P.E. As soon as I reached the classroom I sat down in my assigned seat. Seeing that the teacher wasn't here yet I rested my head on my desk and waited. My classmates scattered in groups all over the room chatting and gossiping, while I just patiently waited there.
I didn't have much friends, but I was completely fine with that. Most of the girls in my grade didn't like me for going out with Jonghyun. He wasn't a kingka or anything, but he seemed to be pretty popular around the girls. I only had 2 close friends, Jang SeungMi and Kwon SeongHee. They were one year older than me so I was like a little sister to them. That's why when I had classes I never really talked to anyone. Cause my only friends were a grade higher than me.
Hearing my classmates scramble back to their desks I lifted my head seeing the teacher was now in the room. I then started to embrace myself for another long boring class. Lazily switching from class to class until it was finally lunch time.
I went to the lunch room and scanned the cafeteria in search for SeungMi and SeongHee. I saw them sitting at a table and I happily skipped over to them.
"Hello~" I said happily. They smiled back at me.
"Hello~" They both said in unison. I took a seat and took out my lunch and started to dig in. We talked for a bit then something came to mind.
"Have any of you seen Jonghyun? I haven't seen him since this morning." I asked both of them.
They looked at each other, then back at me. "No, haven't seen him at all today." Seonghee said.
"I don't know, but when I was on my way to lunch I saw him going out the gate of the school. After that he went in his car then drove away." SeungMi gave me a different answer. I looked at her, surprised. Something was weird about today, ever since Jonghyun picked me up in the morning.
I looked down sadly and took another bite of my food. "That's weird, ever since he picked me up this morning he has been acting kinda weird. I'm getting worried." I said to them.
The gave me an encouraging smile. "It's gonna be okay Jae, just don't worry about it. I'm sure he'll tell you later." Seonghee said trying to cheer me up.
I forced a smile on my face. "Thanks."
After a few moments of silence and more eating, SeungMi changed the subject, trying to get my mind off of Jonghyun.
. . .
It was the end of the day now, and SeungMi was coming over to my house to work on a project. We said our goodbyes to SeongHee then took off for home. Right before leaving the school I stopped at the parking lot. With almost no effort I looked left and right trying to find Jonghyun's car. But in the back of my mind, I knew I wouldn't. With no sign at all of his car, SeungMi and I started walking over to my house.
Once we were there SeungMi and I ran up the stairs and into my room. Both of us plopped down on the bed. I grabbed one of the pillowed and rested my chin against it while I looked out the window that was next to my bed. I sighed. "Where the heck is Jonghyun?" I asked SeungMi, or maybe even myself in a frustrated voice. "If he was gonna leave school early, he at least would have texted me~" I continued complaining.
SeungMi sighed then sat up. "Jae Eun, I'm sure everything is fine. If you're so worried about it you should just call him." My face brightened up at her great idea.
"I shoud've thought of that!" I exclaimed. I punched his number into my phone and put it to my ear anxiously waiting for Jonghyun to pick up. But as soon as I heard "Please leave a me-" I hung up.
"JAE EUN!" SeungMi and I jumped at the sound of my mom yelling for me from the bottom of the stairs.
"God, what?" I muttered under my breath. "Yes mom?" I yelled to her in my loudest voice as I stood up from my bed and walked out of my room as SeungMi followed.
"Someone's here for you." her voice quietted down as I was halfway down the stairs.
Who the heck could be here?
My mom moved aside and went into the kitchen. Reaching the foot of the stairs I looked straight ahead at the couch. My eyes widened seeing who it was. "What are you doing here?" I asked surprised and worried. I looked behind me looking for my moral support, a.k.a SeungMi, but she wasn't there. I walked over to the couch and sat next to him. Leaning my head against his shoulder since I was a bit tired. Jonghyun put his arm around me and pulled me closer. I felt his lips against my hair, as he inhaled my intoxicatingly good scent.
"You were probably wondering why I wasn't there at lunch, huh?" He said in a soft voice. It wasn't like him, he wasn't the cheerful Jonghyun I knew. Something has to be up.
"Yeah. SeungMi said that she saw you leaving the school right before lunch. What was that about?" I tried to cotrol my voice from trying to sound like I was accusing him.
"I...uhm" He said nervously."I just had an appointment to attend...y'know."
I wanted to believe him, but how could I when he sounded so nervous? When he sounded like he was trying to hide something? When he sounded like that, how could I even try to believe him?
"C'mon Jonghyun. Really it's okay to tell me."
"Jae Eun...it's just t-hat, that I'm s-cared t-to t-tell y-you." His voice cracking a lot. He wasn't being shy now. It obvious something was up.
I lifted my head off of his shoulder and looked him in the eyes sincerly. "Jonghyun, please tell me. If you don't, I wouldn't know how to help you."
"I'm scared what you'll think. I'm scared you'll ignore me. And mostly, I'm scared as to what might happen to me." Jonghyun responded in a very scared voice. Now I was really worried.
"No, you have to tell me." I said in a stern voice now. That was the only way I was going to make him answer.
"Never mind, I'll just come back when I'm really ready to tell you." He was starting to get frustrated now. He stood up an was about to walk out the door but I immediately grabbed him tightly by the wrist.
"I'm sorry I'm getting mad, and I'm sorry you're getting frustrated but I think if you come to my house to tell me one little thing, it has to be important!" I blew up at him.
He looked hard at me, almost glared and it made me scared. He snatched his wrist away and opened the door. I followed him out the door and grabbed his wrist again. I wanted to apoligize. Both of us had a big temper, and that was the flaw in our relation ship. Our temper. But this is the first time it has gotten this far. I was really worried for Jonghyun.
But without even letting my apoligized he whipped himself around and slammed me againt the hard plaster wall of my house. As I hit the wall my head made a loud thump. He held on to one of my wrists and as well slammed it hard against the wall, causing it to bleed. His hands were shaking nervously and his face was scarred. One tear slowly crawled down my face as another one followed. I looked down at the floor watching my tears fall onto the floor. "All I wanted to say was..." I looked back up at him as my tears started to flow. "I'm sorry." I said in a soft tiny voice.
We stood like that for a few seconds that seemed to last forever. My head throbbing from the pain, and the blood trickling down my fingers onto his trembling hand. He held onto my wrist even tighter as if he was a scared little boy, causing my hand to be in even more pain. I looked him in the eyes. He was extremely worried and was very scared. Like something bad was about to happen. His eyes trembled, and suddenly, tears strated to pool in his eyes and fall down the side of his face. Looking at each other cry, I think we both realized how much damage we had done to one another. And just thinking about the situation made both of us feel even worse.
He finally let go of my wrist, but for some reason I missed his tight grasp on me. As if when he let go, he would never be there again. He gave me one last sad, lonely look. "I'm sorry." he said in the same soft voice as I did.
I stood there watching him drive away. I looked up at the blue sky thad had now become gray as I started to weep out loud. Why was I crying? Was it because I was worried for Jonghyun? Or was it for how much pain he gave me when he slammed me against the wall? It was probably a little of both, but what these tears were really for was for what I did. I was crying because I was dissapointed in myself. I was crying because I regretted what I said and did to him.
The pain in my head was still there, but what was happening now was taking all that pain away. It was making the pain invisible, because this was a bigger kind of pain. A pain that could never be healed.
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A little bit about me, the author :My name is Camille, but you can call me Cammie. I am 13 years old, turning 14 next year. I live in California and my ethnicity is Filipino. I LOVE SHINee, Super Junior,Epik High DBSK, Big Bang and A LOT more K-pop groups. Thats not much about me but we'll start at that. If you have any questions about me, or anything just ask :]
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