| Fan Fiction |
by Ifah_chan
I had a long day at my part-time job. I had to covered all of invalid days so that I could get an extra day offs. I looked at my watch. It was almost 7 in the afernoon, My stomach had already making noises. I sighed heavily. I streched my body. Suddenly, someone tabbed my shoulder. I was startled. I turned around. It was Ohno-senpai.
"Ohno-senpai...."
He smiled. "Yo! Aren't you finish yet?" He asked.
I shook my head. "No..." I pouted.
"Well, that's too bad... I wanted to treat you a dinner..." He crossed his arms.
"EEhh??!! I'm hungry...."
"Well, hurry up then! Finish your work and we can have dinner together..." He smiled.
"Hait...!!!" I enlightened.
After few minutes later, I finished my work and immediately headed to my locker room to change my clothes. And then after that, I went straight to the main door and met Ohno-senpai. He smiled. He then kissed my cheek and held my hand. I cheekily hugged cuddled his arms and leaned over. We walked happily along street and he told me where we were abou to have dinner. As soon as we reached the place, I was startled. I saw Tomo-kun, was sitting on the seat and waving at us. Ohno-senpai, of course was happily waved back at him. He then dragged me along with him and near Tomo-kun.
"Tomo, have you waited long enough?" Ohno-senpai asked. I was surprised. I turned to him.
Tomo-kun chuckled. "Nope... I have just arrived anyway..." He then turned to me. "Hi, Horikita..."
I turned to him and smiled. "Hi..."
Ohno-senpai let me sat and then he sat beside me. He then apologized to me for not informed me about having dinner together with Tomo-kun. And then, after a few minutes later, there was a lady approached us and smiled. I looked up at her. She was tall and pretty. Her dressing was quite popped out but stylish in her own ways. She then turned to Tomo-kun and sat beside him.
"This is Asako... my friend in my university. She's like sort of of my quite close friend..." Tomo-kun introduced her to us. She nodded and smiled at me. "Asako, this is my cousin, Ohno and his girlfriend, Horikita Maki...."
She smiled and handed out her hand to me. "Hi, Maki-san...nice to meet you..."
I took her hand and smiled back at her. "Hi... Nice to meet you too, Asako-san..." Then, my smiled faded away. Without my knowing, I had become solemn for some reason. I felt like I was out of place. Ohno-senpai, Tomo-kun and Asako-san were happily talked to each other. I felt that I was redundant. I looked away and sighed heavily. I was hungry before and after that I was full. I had no appetite. I didn't know why... I turned to Ohno-senpai, he was busy talking with Asako-san that he was totally ignored me. And then, Tomo-kun... was also the same. They talked as if I wasn't there. I slowly ate my food but then, I suddenly stood up. They stopped talking and looked up at me.
"What's wrong, Maki-chan?" Ohno-senpai asked.
I smiled. "I want to go to toilet... I'll be right back." I walked away. When I was far enough, I turned around. They continued their talking. I pouted and stomped on my feet. As soon as I reached the toilet, I washed my hand and stared at the mirror. I sighed again. "I'm acting like selfish and spoilt brat... Baka, Maki..." I slapped softly my cheeks. And then, I went to back to my seat. From a far, I could see they were having fun. It seemed that Asako-san was really good and fun to be with. I shook my head and walked towards them. I sat back on my seat. "Gomen..." I smiled.
"Maki-chan... You should listen to this. Asako-chan is a really great. She used to be a model in the magazine cover for casual wears. Isn't it cool? I bet you've a lot of clothes..." Ohno-senpai laughed.
"No... Not that much... I'm just doing what I like. It's only a hobby. Actually, I wanted to become a lawyer.." Asako-san smiled. Then, she turned to me. "How about you, Maki-san?"
"Me?" I pointed out at myself. "Ohh... My hobby isn't that great. I love drawing... and arts. That's all..."
"Wow! That's cool.. Arts is cool!" She chuckled. "Well, I have a model friend who just like you. He loves arts and now, he become the most wonderful photographer. Currently, he's staying in London and pursued his career there..."
I chuckled. "Oh really? That's great..." And then, she turned away from me and talked to Ohno-senpai. She was ignoring me. Not only that, she was intentionally leaned over on Tomo-kun's shoulder. She whispered at his ear and giggling around. And she even wipped off the food on his lips and they smiled closely at each other. I looked at her disbelieve. I pouted and continuing ate my food. As I was eating my food, suddenly I noticed Tomo-kun was actually staring at me. I felt uneasy but, I pretended not to notice anything and just ate my food. Well, suddenly, my phone rang. I took out my phone and noticed it was Aya. I picked up...
"Aya, what's wrong?" I asked. As soon as I picked the phone, everyone turned to me as if I was disturbance. And well, I thought it might be the best time to escape from here. I looked away. "Really, Aya? Ok...I'll be right back..." Then, I hanged up. I turned to Ohno-senpai. I bit my lips. "Ohno-senpai... Aya had just called me. And it's urgent... I need to go home now..."
"Is that so?" Ohno-senpai said sadly. "Well, it can't be helped then...."
"Gomen..." I said timidly.
"Well, I'll send you home..."
I shook my head. "No... No... I can go home myself. You just enjoy your dinner. Don't worry. I'll be fine..."
"But..."
And again, I shook my head. "That's ok... I'll be fine. Don't you trust me? Have a good dinner... I'll call if I reach home..." I smiled. Ohno-senpai sighed and nodded. Then, I picked my bag and kept my phone. "Well, I guess I'll get going then... Nice meeting you, Asako-san. I'll be seeing you around."
"Yes..." She nodded.
Then, I kissed Ohno-senpai's cheek and turned to Tomo-kun. He smiled at me, but I smiled bitterly at him. And then, I left. I took a taxi nearby and went straightly to my home. As soon as I reached there, I immediately opened the door and slammed it. Aya, who was sitting and wacting tv, was shocked. "Oi, what's wrong with you?" she asked. I walked towards her and dropped my bag and sat beside her. I pouted and I snatched the remote away from her and changed the channel. I sighed heavily. She then snatched back the remote from me. "Maki, you're early? Aren't you supposed to have a dinner with Ohno-senpai?"
"Hmph...!!" I pouted and leaned my back againts the table. "I'm just not hungry anymore...."
Aya was surprised. "EEhh?? Not hungry? Why is that?"
"Well, actually, we did have a dinner together with Tomo-kun...and this Asako model girl..." I then sighed and turned to tv. "My dinner appetite was disturbed by that..."
Aya snorted. "You're acting like a spoilt brat...."
"I did..." I smiled sarcastically. "Well, I don't know why I did that but, I'm just glad I did it...." I sighed again and then turned to Aya. "You know what, that Asako is acting as if she's Tomo-kun's girlfriend. Just looking at her, made me sick... She was ignoring me all the time. She's this, she's that....Whatever!! I hate her guts..."
And again, Aya snorted. "You were pissed off just because of that?" She asked. I nodded. "Well then, so what? This thing had nothing to do with you anymore... That's Tomo-kun's problem."
I sighed. "You don't understand the situation, didn't you? She's acting as if she's someone to Tomo-kun, I told you...."
"That's why.... So what if she is? You're not his girlfriend either, you're Ohno-senpai's girlfriend...." Aya wailed. I was startled. Aya was right. Ohno-senpai was my boyfriend, not Tomo-kun. But, why do I have this uneasy feelings? Why do I have to jealous? That wasn't my problem... But, I kept had this.... feelings. I shouldn't have this kind of problem. I was out of that list. But, I couldn't ignored it. It had become stronger and even more stronger, and it had also became more complicated and uncomfortable. I couldn't stop it when I looked at Tomo-kun... I felt that I had betrayed my own words and wishes. I leaned over my head on the chair. I turned away from Aya...
"Maki... What's wrong? Don't tell me that.... you are...." Aya stared at me. I bit my lips. I didn't dare to say anything now. But it hurts just to think about it... I took a deep breath. I couldn't be fall in love with the same person for a second time... It was just unreasonable. Moreover, he was someone that I wanted to avoid the most actually... "Maki..."
"I don't know...." My lips trembled. I looked away. Without my knowing, suddenly, I felt my tears were trickling from eyes. I was surprised. I wipped away my tears. And then, I looked up at her. "I don't know... I don't know why it's happening to me again..." I shook my head violently. "I don't know... No, not again...."
Aya was surprised. "Maki..." She immediately crawled towards me and hugged me. I leaned over on her chest and wept. She then stroke my hair. "Don't cry, okay?"
"Aya... I don't know what is happening to me, but I can't stop this feelings.... It feels like it's all coming back to me. I keep telling myself to not to have this feelings again, and to avoid it as possible but, it's just become unstoppable." I wept. And then, I pushed her away slowly and looked up at her. "My feelings for him has just become more stronger than before...."
Aya looked at me sadly. She had become speechless....
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"Horikita...!"
I was startled and turned around. My eyes widened. It was Tomo-kun... I smiled. "H-Hait..."
He ran towards me. He smiled. "Horikita, why didn't you turn up at the class? Funaki-sensei is searching for you...."
"Well, I have something on and it's urgent... Gomen..." I made up the reason. I chuckled.
"Is that so? Well, I've already made notes for you...." He handed out the notes to me. I looked up at him and smiled. Then, I took the notes. "Are you going to the next class?" he asked.
"No... I'm on my way to the library now. I have a assignment to finish... So, I've got to go. And thanks for the notes...." I smiled.
He chuckled. "No, it was nothing..."
"Well, I'll be seeing you around... Bye!" I walked away.
"Horikita!!!"
And then, I turned around to him again. He was smiling. "Gambatte ne...!" He waved at me. I nodded... Actually, I was lying. Everthing I said, was just a made up. I didn't actually wanted to go to library, either finished up my assignment because I didn't have one... It was only plain lie to make excuses. I wanted to avoid him as possible as I can.... I didn't want to be jealous because of him. And neither that I wanted to involve anything with him. He was just my past.... The past that I wanted to forget. I followed my heart and got away from him, and now, that efforts slowly became useless for me to hinder... I looked at his notes that was made for me. His writing was still the same... so neat yet scribbled. I didn't even understand it well.... I chuckled, even without my knowing. Then, I placed it on my chest and clenched it hard. Why was he had to appear in front of me again? Why he had that bond with Ohno-senpai? If he hadn't, I wouldn't be hesitate now, even to my own feelings....
I was ready to forget him, but now he reappeared. And I was ready to make my life peaceful without him, but now he completely ruined it and entered my heart again. I didn't hate him but I hate his guts for appearing in front of me again... It was all his fault... It was... He made me fall in love with him again. Even though I knew he wasn't intended to, but I felt that fate was playing with me... I looked far away at the wide field. I dazed away for so long that, in the end, I skipped all of my classes for today and sat here at this bench instead... I sighed heavily. I didn't have any mood at all... I looked at my watch, it was almost six in the afternoon. I stood up and walked away... Suddenly...
"Horikita!!!"
I was startled. I looked up. "T-Tomo-kun...."
He was running towards me. He panted. "Where have you been?" he asked.
"EEhh?? I was at the field, sitting on the bench... Why?" I asked innocently.
He panted and coughed. "Well, everybody is worrying about you.... I've called you so many times. And you didn't even answered. Ohno-chan is searching for you everywhere...."
I smiled bitterly. Then, I fumbled my bag and took out my phone. My eyes widened. "Aahhh! So many..." I sighed. "I've forgotten...! I have silent my phone and I forgot to turn it off.... Gomen..." I laughed bitterly. And then, I looked up at him. I was startled as he stared at me. He looked angry.
"It's not time to laugh... How can you be so light-hearted when everybody is worrying about you?" He suddenly snapped.
I bit my lips. "I told you... I'm sorry. I didn't mean to... I was sitting here and doing my things. How would I know that everybody is looking for me?"
"You should know that by yourself. You've made people worried about you, and you made me worried about you as well...." He wailed.
I pouted and looked away. I pressed my lips. "I didn't ask you to worry about me...." I turned to him. "I don't need you to worry about me...." I swifted around and walked away from him.
"Horikita..."
"And stop calling me that....!!" I shouted. I turned to him again. My lips were trembled."Why are you calling me that?" I blurted out that question.
He looked at me confusingly. "Why, you ask...? But, it's nor..." He walked slowly towards me. His eyes widened as he saw my teary eyes. I didn't realized it then.."M-Ma...ki..."
I bit my lips. "Baka!!!" I ran away and left him.
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I opened my eyes and yawned. I rubbed my eyes but it was still blurry. I was so sleepy that it made me wanted to sleep all over again. I forced myself to sat up and stretched my body widely. I sighed. I turned to left and grabbed my phone. There was no misscall was made. I sighed again. It was a boring day. I had no classes and no work. I stood up and headed to the toliet right away. After taking a great shower, I went to the kitchen and prepared a breakfast. Before that, I went to Aya's room. She wasn't there... I went back to the kitchen. I saw a note attached to the refrigerator. So, she went early in the morning, saying she got a date. I pouted...
"Since when she've got a date?" I mumbled. I poured the milk on the cereal and I immediately went to sit in front of the tv. Usually, I loved news but right now I wasn't in the best mood to know what happened to the world. I rather wanted to watch comedy or cartoon. I laughed and enjoyed my day off. It was fun actually... with nothing to do. Ohno-senpa had called me before that he would be busy at his work place. He would call me later after he finished his work.
After I bored watching tv, I switched on the radio. Listening the radio while reading magazines, and laze around at the house, was the best moments and past time. For a moment, I danced once I listened to my favorite songs. It was enjoyable.... Then, suddenly there was knock on my door. I jumped from my bed and ran towards the door. I was startled as I opened the door.
"T-Tomo-kun...."
He smiled and winked. "Having a good day?" He asked me.
I looked at him and slowly nodded. I pouted and bit my lips. We had quite big fight for something small. That day, I just walked away from him just like that. I was so annoyed with him that time. And then, my eyes looked away from him. "What are you doing here? How did you know where I live?" I pouted annoyingly.
He chuckled. "Who else would tell me about your add if not for your only friend?"
"Aya...? She told you about it...." I asked innocently. He nodded. I wondered why she did tell him about our place. I pouted again.
He then chuckled again."Why are you making that face?" He asked me again. I didn't say anything but just stared at him. "Maki, are you still angry about the last time?"
I waggled my lips side to side and shook my head. "Nope..."
"Then, why are you making such face?"
And again, I shook my head. "I did not... So, what are you doing here anyway?"
He smiled. "You sounds harsh... Well, I was told that you would be lonely on this day off. So, do you want to play catch ball with me again?" He asked.
"Who told you that?" I asked. But, he shrugged his shoulders. "Well, I'm not in the mood to play catch ball..." I crossed my arms.
"So, what do you want to do today? You can say anything..."
I pressed my lips and pondered. "Anything...?" I asked. He nodded. "Hmm.... How about we going to the zoo?" I suggested.
"Zoo?" He looked at me confusingly. "Why zoo of all place?"
"You told me...Anything..."
He chuckled. "Okay-Okay.... We're going to the zoo...."
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It had been a long time since I stepped into the zoo. Since I was 12 years old... It was a long time ago. I had waited for Tomo-kun to buy the tickets for quite sometime. I turned around and ran to him. "What took so long?" I asked annoyingly.
He snorted. "What's wrong? Are you excited to go in?"
I pouted. "Of course..!!! It has been a long time since I stepped here...It's normal that excited about it."
He chuckled and looked away from me. "You're sure like a kid..."
I pouted again and looked away. Actually, I was still angered about last time. But I could forget about it for awhile. After a few minutes later, we had finally get our tickets. We entered the main door and immediately went to the monkey cage. I happily looked and pointed out at them. I looked around the place excitedly. Maybe I was quite pitiful as I looked as if I had never entered the zoo before. But, who cares... I loved animals... excepted for lizards. Most of the time, I walked alone, leaving Tomo-kun behind. He didn't do anything, just following me around anywhere I went... But, sometimes I stole a glance at him. He was so... what could I say... so cool in his own way. Sat around, waiting for me and even played around with me. It was so generously cute guy. I chuckled when I looked at him.
"Tomo-kun... Do you want ice-cream?" I asked suddenly.
He looked up at me. "Hmm... Yes..."
I smiled excitedly. "Wait for a moment..." Then, I left and went to buy ice-cream. After a minute later, I came back... But, Tomo-kun wasn't there. I looked around me with the ice-cream on my hands. I pouted annoyingly. I walked towards the bench he was sitting before, and I sat on it. "Where is he?" I mumbled. After minutes later, he re-appeared. I was looking at him and pouted.
"Gomen..." He said as he approached me.
I pouted and stared at him. "Where have you been?" I crossed my arms. "Because of you, I had to eat two ice-cream all at once...."
He chuckled. "It's good for you.... Because you're so thin, and you need a little bit of fat food."
"I'm not joking, you know...." I pouted angrily.
He chuckled again and took a seat next to me. "Okay-Okay.... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for doing that to you.... Well, I was just helping people, and they need a direction there."
"Is that so?" I looked at him and he nodded. And then, I looked away.
"Maki, are you still angry about last time?" He suddenly asked.
I sighed. "I'm not angry about last time...And why should I be angry with you? I have no right to be angry...." I smiled.
"Well..." He suddenly stood up and faced the sky. And then, he turned to me. "I'm just glad to meet you again... Although, back then I don't understand why you're just left like that... I've finally realized that it was for the best. And I'm glad that I can see your true smiling face again..."
I pressed my lips tightly. I didn't know but my heart was aching. The look of his face when he said those words, was making me speechless. He was right. I didn't even tell him why I was leaving him just like that. I didn't bother to give him any explanation... No... I just didn't give him even one chance. I was selfish back then and even now... I couldn't bring myself to give him any chnaces. It was over between us and I wanted to believe that. But, he changed my belief... He made me wavered with my own feelings.
"Maki..." He called me suddenly. I was startled.
"Y-Yes..."
"I'm sorry that I made you angry back then... Maybe you wanted me to be normal around you, and I shouldn't be too formal with you." He smiled. "Actually, I just wanted to put a gap between us. A limit of friends..."
I slightly chuckled. "Yeah, you're right... There should be a limit of friends between us..." I looked up at him. I had to admit that I felt surprisingly dissapointed. I didn't know why but it was just a feeling. Then, I smiled at him weirdly. I then looked away and pretended to fumble in my bag to get my phone. Then, after a while, my phone rang. I picked up. "Hello..."
"Maki-chan.... It's me, your Ohno..." He laughed.
I was startled and smiled. "Ohno-senpai...? What's wrong?"
He chuckled. "Nothing... I just want to hear your voice, that's all... What are you doing right now?" he asked.
"Well..." Then I turned to Tomo-kun, and he turned to me too. And then, I turned away from him. "I'm doing nothing... Just lazed around at home and watching tv.." I smiled.
"Is that so?" He asked. "Well, I'm sorry that I couldn't my spent my time with you... I'll make it up to you later, okay?"
"Okay... I'll be waiting then..." I smiled again.
He chuckled. "Okay then.... I'm going to call you later again... Bye." He hanged up the phone. I kept my phone inside my bag and then I turned to Tomo-kun again. He looked confused and wondered, but he didn't say anything to me. He then turned away from me. "What's wrong?" I asked.
He shook his head and smiled. "Nothing... I just wondered why are you lying to him... You could just tell him that you're with me."
I smiled. "Don't get the wrong idea... It's just I don't want him to think otherwise."
He chuckled. "He wouldn't think that way.... He's not that kind of person. I just knew that...." he looked away. He then crossed his arms and leaned his back against the bench.
I turned to him and smiled bitterly. Actually, I lied. Everything I said to him, was a big lie. That was only my excuses. The truth was, I just did that purposely. I wanted to find the truth when I was with him. Spending time with him, right now, was the moment I had been waiting for. It had been a long time since we could stay like this. I was kind of missed those days. During that time, I was really happy when I was with him. I didn't deny that I enjoyed those times. Even though he didn't look me that way, it was enough for me just to stay beside him. But now, it was totally different... I could see him only as a friend.
But just now.... was different. He looked at me as if he was begging me to tell him why didn't I give him a chance. I knew I was wrong... But, I couldn't even bring myself to betray Ohno-senpai....
"Maki..."
"Yes..." I turned to him. "What is it?"
"Later, can we have a walk like this again?" He suddenly asked.
I was surprised. I snorted. "What are you talking about?"
He smiled. He then slid both of his hands inside his pocket. He stopped walking and faced me. "Actually, I'm kind of miss walking with you like this... It brings back the memories. As you know, I love walking with you..."
I looked away. I didn't dare to look at his sharp eyes. "Why are you saying this? It was all in the past..."
He chuckled. "Gomen... Yes, it's all in the past." He sighed and turned away. "Gomen...." And then, he slowly walked away. I followed him from behind. I bit my lips. His sad expression showed it all. No matter what, I had to do that. There were no longer us, it was disappeared a long time ago.
"Jaa... I'll see you later then..." Tomo-kun suddenly turned to me and smiled.
I was startled. "EEhh?" I looked around me. We already arrived at my house. I smiled awkwardly as I turned to him. "Yes... I...I'll see you later again..." I chuckled awkwardly. He smiled and walked away. I looked at him as he walked. My smile fadded away. I bit my lips. "Tomo-kun...!" He stopped and turned around. "I hope we can have a walk like this again..." I smiled widely.
He didn't answer right away. From his looks in his eyes, I was sure he was a bit shock too. Later, he slowly smiled and then chuckled. "Is that so?" He nodded and walked slowly towards me. "Well, how about tomorrow? I'll pick you up here... We will going to school together."
I smiled and nodded. "Mata ne..." I walked in at the stairs and waved at him. And then, I ran upstairs and left him. As soon as I reached my house, I immediately went inside my room. Aya, who was sitting in front of the tv, was surprised. She did knock the door and called my name, but I ignored and slammed myself on the bed. I sighed. And then, I stood up and went stand in front of the mirror. "Why are you doing this, Maki? You break your own promise..." And again, I sighed. I really broke my own promise and I couldn't stand that part of me... Because no matter what I do now, I just couldn't bring myself to push him aside. Tomo-kun had beginning to become a part of my life....
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