| Fan Fiction |
by Ifah_chan
I had never been so sad in my life. There was always a smile on my face but, not since I met him….
He was the one and only guy who turned me into a different person. I had become more quiet and sensitive towards everything ever since. He took the best thing in me, and my heart, and then he broke it into pieces. He was not my first crush and love… but he was the first one who made my heart pounded so hard that I could hardly breathe… I still remembered when he smiled at me and took my hand. But he never ever noticed my feelings for him. His eyes were only for her. For him, she was the first and the last girl… I thought I would change him but he certainly didn’t want to change his way. Everything he did, he had always remembered her. Everything he said, her name will always played on his mouth.
Whenever he thought of something, he would always thought about her. The roof where he used to stay on, he would gazed around and looking far away. He had always said that the more he spent there alone, the more he would think of her because that place where they used to spend their time together. My heart hurts every time I saw him smiled as he looked at her. He looked happy and secured but when he smiled at me, he had always showed his bitter smile. Not even once, he smiled at me with his sincerity.
He cared but not as he cared for her. He worried for me but not as he would worry for her. He held my hand but not as he held her hand. And he would spent his time with me but not as he spent his time for her. I hate her… I hate her a lot but whatever I did, I will never win her. I knew that she had a special place in his heart even thought she will never belong to him… I heard that confession numerous times from his lips. He would cry on my shoulder for her. From time to time, I thought he would give her up but still he would look at her in many ways. But, she had never had that kind of feelings towards him.
And that was when I had decided that I shouldn’t force him anymore. I kept telling myself I should go. And that was a time I had finally realized that whenever I did, I would never have a place in his heart. I should have known earlier but… I loved him… Even he had never looked at me that way. I had always loved him. Even now, my heart still was beating for him. Since that time, I had never seen him again. Both of us had never called even once. I didn’t know where he was, neither had I wanted to know… but… Deep in my heart, I had always wanted to find him and tell him how much I had missed him.
3 years were a long time… Here, I stood in front of the university I studied in. I tried to move on and still I couldn’t see any guys in front of me but him. I didn’t know why but I just couldn’t forget about him. I had always ended up walking and spending at the place where we used to spend together. I'm such a stupid for hoping something like that… Remembering the past, would make my heart wrecked and breathless. I missed when we used to walk together. I missed it very much… I love walking with you….
When it was going to happen again…? When will we be walking together again…? And it started at that time… The time, when I met him for the first time…. Our eyes were locked at each other. For the first time, I had my heart pounding so hard….
~*~*~*~3 years ago~*~*~*~
"Daijoubu?"
I looked up and startled. And again, he asked and reached out his hand. "Daijoubu desuka?"
Slowly, I smiled and nodded. "Hait…. Daijoubu dess…" he then pulled me up and helped with my things and gave me a slightly smile.
"Next time, don’t run too much or you will be fall…" He said. That was the first words he had ever said to me. He then took his bag and made his move towards the gate. I was sighed in happiness. I smiled and looked at him. He then suddenly tuned to me and looked at me, straightly into my eyes. And he turned back and ran towards the main door.
Suddenly, my heart pounded so fast. I clutched my hand and put it on my chest. It was so fast that I could hardly breathe… it was the first time I had ever felt that way. Right that moment I knew I had fallen for him. The first guy I had fallen in love with…
And his name was Yamashita Tomohisa….