| Fan Fiction |
by Ifah_chan
"Maki-chan!!! Where have you been?" asked Aya.
"Eh? Hehe…. I was just…." I scratched my head.
"Ahh!! You have been to that roof again?!" asked Aya, pouted her lips.
"Hehe…. Hait…." I smiled innocently.
"How many times I told you…." She scolded me. Ueto Aya, that was her real name. She was in the same class as me every year and she was also my best friend since we were in the kindergarten. She had always been there for me, for better or worst. We always shared everything we had, we were like sisters. My parents knew her as she had always spent her time at my place most of her time. Well, she didn’t like Tomo-kun that much as she said that he looked suspicious and cold. Therefore, she actually forbids me from hanged out with him as she felt that he wasn’t meant for me. Further more, he wasn’t showed any reaction feelings towards me. I guessed she didn’t want me to get hurt, and that was why she insisted that I should stop looked up for him. But she had never talked bad things about him; she was only reminded me to be as cautious about it. What I loved about her was she had always respected all of my decisions. Never ever even once she forced me or made me sad. She was my best friend ever…. I loved her very much….
"Aya… Don’t worry about me. I will be all right!"
"Hmph…! You told me that numerous times but in the end, you get hurt…" Aya pouted her lips as she crossed her arms together.
I pretended to laugh. "Daijoubu…. Look! I'm fine here…." I patted her shoulders.
Aya didn’t even laugh. She looked at me with a sad expression. "Maki-chan.... You're not fine. Your eyes are full of sadness. Your eyes are red and teary."
I rubbed my eyes violently and forced myself to smile. "No, I'm not! Look! My eyes have dust in it so that's why they are red. That's all!"
Aya shook her head. "You're not Maki-chan I used to know. You used to be cheerful and lively. But now, you have change. You’re not lively and cheerful Maki-chan. You have change into a different person. Sensitive and more fragile…."
I bit my lips. Truth was hurt after all. Aya was right. I was not Maki that I used to be, more cheerful and lively. I was transformed into the different person, my heart easily broken and hurt. I had become more sensitive with every little thing and my eyes…. They were easily filled of tears. I didn’t know what had happened to me but everything had changed since I met Tomo-kun. I didn’t want to blame on him for my changes but this was his entire fault that I had fallen for him like this…
"Aya… What had happened to me?" I asked Aya. My voice was trembled and not clear. "I don’t know why but my eyes…. These tears keep falling from my eyes. My eyes always full of tears… I want to stop it but it didn’t…."
Immediately, Aya pulled me closer and wrapped me around her. "Cry if you want… I'll be here for you…. We're best friend, aren’t we?" asked Aya as she stroke my head.
I hid my face on her shirt and cried. Slowly, I wept… and wept….
"Maki-chan, you shouldn’t be cry because of him… he isn’t worth of your crying. I'm sorry to tell you this but I don’t trust him… Right from the start, I knew he will make you cry. And now, he really did it."
I wiped my tears and looked up at Aya. "I don’t know, Aya… the more he hurts me, the more I wanted to be with him… he took away everything in me. I love him…. I just love him a lot…."
"But… you had just met him, Maki-chan. You don’t know him that well. He told you too many lies…"
"He didn’t… He just still stuck in the past. Masami-san was his first love. He just couldn’t get over her and still have hopes for her." I denied.
"That's why I told you…. Leave him! Or he will hurt you even further! Look! You confessed to him before. You told him that you like him and he knew it but…. He let your heart wondering around about him. He had never appreciated you! He was just using you, Maki-chan… Why can't you understand?"
I closed my ears. I didn’t want Aya said those things about him to me. I knew it all along that he was just using me. He was just playing with my heart, using me as someone he could turn on to. That was all for him. He had never returned nor noticed my true feelings for him.
~*~*~*~Flashback~*~*~*~
"I'm hurt a lot…. My heart hurts a lot because of her. She always showed me her loving way. But I never know her true intention of doing that. She had always cared for me and worried for me but…. When she was Shun, she acted as if she didn’t care for me or worried for me. She smiled at me and even holds my hands but…. she had never told me anything…." He cried.
I forced myself and bit my lips. "Did you tell her your true feelings?" I asked.
He shook his head. "I don’t want to confuse her even more. And further more, she already got Shun. He's my best friend too. I don’t want to hurt him. I know he loves her more than himself…."
"Tomo-kun…"
"Maki… Can I hold you?" asked Tomo-kun politely. But he didn’t look at me. He cried like a lost child. He was certainly a lonely guy.
I startled. Then, I looked at him and smiled. I opened my arms for him. He looked up at me. "You can always come to me if you need me…. I will always be here for you."
His lips were trembled. His eyes were teary and red. Slowly, he wrapped around me. He cried. I stroke his wet hair and rested my chin on it. Then, he pulled me closer and hid his face in my hair. I could felt his tears dropped on my neck. And then, I heard he called her name….
"Masami…."
~*~*~*~End of flashback~*~*~*~
"Please… Don’t say that about him…." I cried.
"Maki-chan…."
"I already knew about it… he had never noticed my feelings. I knew everything and yet, I don’t care as long as he's happy. I don’t mind if that's make him feel better. I saw him cry that day. He was totally hurt. He feel regret for letting her go. He told me that Masami-san was playing with his heart…. She confused him. I felt sorry for him." I explained to Aya.
"Okay…. I will give him a second chance again…." Aya suddenly said but was looking away.
I looked up at her and began to smile. "Thanks Aya…."
"But…. That doesn’t mean I'm fully forgiving him or accept him. I only did it because of you…." Aya pouted her lips. I hugged her happily. Aya, she was my best friend ever….