| Fan Fiction |
by amelila
»I’m sorry that I just ran away like that. I had no idea how badly off you were«, Yunho said with a breathy voice. At the thought of the black rings under Jaejoong’s eyes he just wanted to embrace him even tighter. All of a sudden Jaejoong seemed so fragile to him. Yunho could feel Jaejoong shivering but later considered it an illusion or something. He didn’t know for how long they stood there in this position. After a while he loosened his grasp and let go off Jaejoong. But he just kept on standing there motionless and stared into space.
As they were standing so close to each other Yunho could feel the natural desire for more, and made some space between them. »I would say we should go to bed.« Panic were showing up in Jaejoong’s eyes and Yunho realized his little mistake. »Just sleeping. I can sleep on the couch if you want, or talk to Junsu until you’re already asleep.« He found it cute that it was so strange and new for Jaejoong.
Jaejoong nodded and walked to their bed where he took of his shirt. On his shoulder blades was the big tattoo and muscle were visible under the pale, soft skin. Yunho looked away before something bad could happen. It was so weird, so fascinating to see this perfect human being and to know at the same time that he loved him. The perfect being put on an older shirt and slipped out of his pants before he sneaked under the blanket.
»Well, I’ll go then...«, Yunho was starting to talk but cut off by Jaejoong. »It’s alright. I shouldn’t make such a fuss and just get used to it.« Yunho couldn’t suppress his smile and walked over to the bed, too. He walked as if it was normal for him so that it wouldn’t turn into a special event that they were sleeping in the same bed - as lovers. He took off his shorts and didn’t make a striptease out of it. Then he laid down on the other side of the bed. Jaejoong had used only one blanket, so there was none for him, but that didn’t matter. Jaejoong immediately attentive and sat up.
»You need a blanket. How stupid would that look if you sleep like this?« »That’s alright. It’s warm enough in this room anyway.« Jaejoong didn’t believe him but didn’t want to make a scene. They laid there in silence for a while and stared at the ceiling. Even though it was new and tense, it was the best night Yunho had for a period of time.
»What are you thinking about?«, he asked in the silence. At first he thought Jaejoong was asleep because he didn’t answer but then he inhaled noisily and sighed. »Nothing. I’m just relieved«, he said and turned around to face Yunho.
»Really? Me too.« Jaejoong laughed a quiet laughter. He did a strange move that Yunho could only feel but not see in this dark night, and suddenly he felt Jaejoong’s head resting on his chest that was raising and sinking slowly. It was a weir feeling to know that he could hear his heartbeat now.
»I know that you don’t like to hear it but...you can be very gay if you want to«, Yunho said smiling. Jaejoong hit him softly. » If you ask me, it could stay like this.« »If you want a clingy, cuddly person, then you should get you a girl.« Now it was Yunho’s turn to hit him softly. »Ok, ok. As far as I’m concerned I can stay that gay. I think I could get used to it.«
Yunho was happy, as he heard that. They didn’t seem to have any problems with overcoming any awkward blockades. Everything was like before, just better. He placed an arm on Jaejoong’s shoulder and the other one laid on the mattress behind Jaejoong’s back. He definitely didn’t a blanket and they fell asleep seconds after, now that they were in peace.
As he had reached a deep sleep he was awakened by a clicking noise and he opened his eyes blinking. Inches away from him was someone holding a camera that just took a picture.
Only as he sat up, he felt the heavy body laying on his chest. Before he had even the time to memorize what happened, Jaejoong was already in shock because of the camera and pulled himself away from Yunho. »Sorry, guys. I just wanted to check if everything’s alright and then...«, Junsu said and laughed. »Sure, no problem.« Yunho was angry because he had been waiting for this moment of peace for so long. Junsu stopped laughing and realized the situation. »Err..ok. I’ll leave then. Sorry.«
As the door was closed Yunho turned around to Jaejoong but he was already on the far other side, his back facing him. »Idiot.« Yunho was annoyed. »That was really embarrassing«, Jaejoong murmured. The door opened again and Junsu came in a second time and Yunho got up. »Hey do want me to delete...« Junsu couldn’t come further because Yunho slammed the door and locked it. »What are you doing?«, Jaejoong asked.
»Junsu won’t wake us up again tonight, I think.« He went back to bed. »Good night.« »Night.« Just because of Junsu they were separated again and the atmosphere was tense. That figured. »You know, Junsu’s just worried about us...« »Us?« »Er...yes. You know what I mean.« »No, what do you mean?« Jaejoong kept silence for a while. »I don’t know, either. What are WE anyway?« Yunho smiled. »Well, that’s up to you.« »Great...I mean, are we like before? Mates? Or are we...like...«
»What do you think?« »I don’t now it. I’m not sure.« »Do you really think I would share my bed with someone who’s just my friend?« »I was never just a friend to you.« »Oh...« »Just don’t worry about it.« Jaejoong gave him half of the blanket and Yunho felt cosy and warm.
Jaejoong’s alarm clock rudely awakened them. They needed some time to actually realize what happened the day before. It was 7 a.m. »Morning...my family comes in about an hour«, Jaejoong mumbled. »Morning. Why don’t you drive by yourself?« »They insisted on taking me and going there as a family. I think that’s a good idea.« »Ok, I’ll try to make some breakfast. Seems like you still have to pack.« Jaejoong nodded and closed his eyes again. »Come on, get up!«
He pulled the blanket away and Jaejoong jumped up. »Alright, alright. I’m up.« He got out of the bed with heavy limbs and began to pack random things. As he was about to change Yunho remembered that he should make the breakfast now so that he didn’t get a chance to look at Jaejoong’s body.
He made pancakes and Jaejoong came to the kitchen after 30 minutes of getting ready. He was realy hungry and ate all the pancakes by himself. »Shoot, I still have to shower«, he remembered and with a stuffed mouth he stood up. »Then you should take a shower.« Jaejoong nodded and went to the bathroom with another pancakes in his hand. As time was getting short he was ready to leave.
»Don’t you want to wear something black?« No, I’ll change when we’re at the funeral.« »Ah, ok.« Two cars were beeping on the street. Yunho looked out the window. »Pretty big turmoil.« »Yeah. I should probably leave and meat them downstairs. I don’t think they want to come up here.« All eight of Jaejoong’s sisters came out of the car and began to wave.
»Yep, I guess they’re waiting.« Jaejoong grabbed his stuff. »Do you need help?« »No, it’s fine, thank you. So... I see you Sunday night.« Yunho nodded. The mood was tenser again. Now that Yunho got jaejoong back he had to leave again. »See you Sunday night.« Jaejoong seemed indecisive and erratic as if he forgot something.
»What?«, Yunho asked and tilted his head. »Err...bye«, Jaejoong said and now suddenly looked Yunho straight onto his eye. Yunho stared back and waited for Jaejoong to say something but he just stood there looking.
»Is there something you forgot?« The cars beeped again. Suddenly Jaejoong leaned forward. For a short moment he could feel Jaejoong’s shy, gentle lips on his own, and it gave him goose bumps. Jaejoong quickly turned around to leave and Yunho smiled. »Ok, I see you on Sunday.« »Ok«, Jaejoong shouted back over his shoulder and waved a hand.