| Fan Fiction |
by Amethyst
“I want to arrange the second transplant operation for her. I want to put her name up in the list of waiting for heart donation…. again.” His words shocked everyone in the room. Everyone looking at each other unbelievable of what they heard.
“What are you thinking you are doing, Dr.Kibum? You know we can’t do that. It will go against our policy and the law. She got her chance, even she deserves for another chance, she has to wait for her next turn. There are so many patients waiting for their turn to come. They probably need it more than her…”
Dr.Leeteuk reminded Dr.Kibum. He gripped Kibum shoulder and shook him but the other doctor ignored him.
“You are wrong. She needs it more than anyone else…Look at her. She’s dying…I’ve to save her…” Kibum acted like he was being possessed and didn’t realized anything he uttered to the eldest doctor.
“Back to your senses Dr.Kibum! There’s nothing that we can do to save her…she rejected the new heart and it’s already affected her brain. She can’t wait any longer. At the moment her heart failed to let the oxygen flow into her brain, at that particular time it will damage her brain.”
“That’s why I insist to make another operation for her…!”
“Do you realize the consequences waiting for you if you proceed with your intention right now? Your license will get suspended for violating the rules, Kibummie… Is that what you want? After all the years you spent your time and strived hard to be in this position right now, do you want to let it go just like that?”
“If this is the last time I’ll be in this stage, so this is the last thing I want to do…”
“Kim Kibum!”
“Please…help me…to help her…you guys can take this as my personal request…”
With the said, Kibum bend his head, bow to everyone. Everyone’s mouth open wide in shocked. They never expected that the young surgeon they respected would ask them to lend him a hand like that. The word begging never comes into their mind when it involves Kim Kibum. Kibum always keep everything to himself, barely smile, put his status as a respective surgeon as number one and one thing he knew just to work harder each minute.
“Bummie-ah…would you listen to your hyung for one second…?”
Leeteuk tried to advice Kibum but Kibum just shook his head like a little child, refused to receive any more advice. Leeteuk could only sighs seeing Kibum’s attitude. Kibum still bow in front of them. Other doctors still in shocked and they don’t know what they should do or react. Leeteuk hold Kibum’s shoulder pulled him up.
“You should know how to differentiate between two things. We as a surgeon are advised to put aside our personal matters when it involved our professional career. And I believed you already know that.”
Looking at the stubbornness Kibum and knew nothing will affect his decision, Leeteuk turned around to face his other colleagues.
“If it’s what he wants…Dr.Kangin, put Miss Kim’s name back on the list. Make her name to be the upper one. If it’s cost our honorable surgeon to lose his job because of this… then I’ll be responsible for it. If anyone ask about this… If…the higher authority brings up the question about this, tell them that I’m with Dr.Kibum.”
“Then I’ll stand together with you too… and Dr.Kibum…”
Dr.Kangin replied with a smile... Everyone nodded in agreement. They unanimously agreed to give Dr.Kibum and especially Kim Joo Eun another chance.
And Joo Eun’s condition, her heart was malfunctioned. Her body was badly unstable. The new heart planted into the body caused her to suffer arrhythmia which results in a heartbeat that is too fast, too slow or too weak to supply the body's needs. Therefore, they have to apply an electric shock to the heart, which resets the cells, permitting a normal beat to re-establish itself. They cannot help but have to put on the wire, and the tube poking inside Joo Eun’s body in order to help the heart to be able to pump up the blood. This is the only way that can make her continue breathing and to make her to survive.
Kibum was sitting in his office after the surgeons were dispersed half hour ago. He stared blankly at his computer with his mind wandering to other place. He took off his glasses and put it on the table. He’s frowning while his hand flips through the patient’s report; to be précised Joo Eun’s medical report. He massaged his temple and lean back to his chair. There was a young tall man standing beside him, near the table. He bended down his head till his face was an inch closer to Kibum’s face.
“I miss you so much…I miss your tender smile….”
But he got no response from Kibum. He then walked towards the cabinet where Kibum decorated it with all his pictures and friends. He touched the face of Kibum in one picture, the picture at the time of graduation. It can be seen clearly the wide smile showing all white and shining teeth of Kibum that now totally disappear from his face. No more smile, just a dull face.
“I miss your smile…like this one…I really do…”
Kibum got up from his chair. He went towards his couch in front of his office table and sit down weakly. He looked around. The room was so silent, no one there except him. He felt so lonely and tired. He lay down on the couch slowly resting his right arm above his forehead. The tall man approached him and bended his left knee on the floor sitting closely to Kibum. He caressed Kibum’s cheek and Kibum closed his eyes tiredly. He needs some rest.
“You have to sleep. You must be really tired doing all this things. Repairing every single mistake I’ve done. Are you doing all this things because of me, Bummie? I’m truly sorry I put you into this. Don’t worry. Take your time because I’ll be waiting for you.”
Changmin pecked Kibum lips lightly before he disappeared from the room in one blink.
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Junsu was sleeping on the couch with Yoochun snuggling to each other at the time Junsu heard the sound of bed shaking. He woke up immediately just to see someone standing right beside Joo Eun’s bed. Junsu can see that man’s body was trembling and having trouble to stand straight properly. His left hand gripped tight at the bed sheet to get some strength to help him stand up while the other hand was crumpling his shirt specifically at the left chest. His face showed the unbearable painful with his eyes just wait its time to let out the misery tears but he holds them back. Junsu lifted Yoochun’s arm from his body slowly and walked step by step approached that man.
“Jae-Joong?” and the other man turned around to face Junsu.
His face was so pale, much more paler adding with his lips that no longer shading in red but more to bluish. So pale with the crack covered all over his lips that used to be so attempting for anyone to kiss. His eyes swollen diminished the beauty of his eyes. Without waiting for Junsu’s permission, the tears flowing down from his eyes to his cheek easily. No words that can describe how hurt he felt seeing his dongsaeng suffered like that. He hugged Jaejoong and rest his chin on Jaejoong’s shoulder, transferred some energy to Jaejoong’s weaker body.
“I thought you’ll never come out. I was so sad. I’ve been waiting for you to come out… but with smiling…. happily and not… with this condition…” Junsu’s sobbing.
“Oppa…it’s…. hurt… I can’t breathe…”
“Owh I’m sorry…did I hug you so tight…?” Junsu let go of Jaejoong but his hand still placed on Jaejoong’s shoulder. Jaejoong looked at him smiling weakly and he put both his hand on Junsu’s face; wipe out the tears with his thumb.
“No…it’s not because of you….but….” he touched his left chest…
“I’m so sorry if I make you guys worried about me. I’m so sorry for not coming out earlier…I wanted to…but I can’t…my body…my condition not allowed me to….I….”
A drop of tear fall down…followed by another…and another….it’s hurting Junsu’s heart so much…he knew no matter how hard it was, no matter how bad the situation Jaejoong fell into, Jaejoong will never cry. He always gives his charming smile and never ever gives up and breaks down so easily. But now, in front of his brother, Jaejoong’s crying showing how fragile he was right now.
“I don’t want you to cry…but I’m the one who is crying in front of you right now. Oppa, I don’t know for how long I can stand like this. I can’t hold back any longer…I can feel every sharp pain that burst into my heart…it’s so hurt…! I…I…”
“No…No…No…! You have to be strong! You got something to fulfill and you’ve to finish it. You cannot give up….! Please Jaejoong-ah…”
“I really want to…But the time is running out quickly…I just want to make sure that you’re okay…and…I…I want to meet him….I’m afraid…that I’ve no more time after this and I can’t even say good bye to him…I know he must be waiting for me…but…”
“Jaejoong-ah…you can do it…I know you can do it…you’ll be safe…you’ll live longer than me with your husband and kids…” Junsu said that while sobbing. He knew the truth when he feels the other man was trembling, shaking, but he don’t want to accept it and he wish for the miracle to come…
“Look at me! oppa…I can’t even stand straight! I don’t know where I can find the energy… I feel like my heart being ripped harshly…I can’t even breathe properly…I can’t….I can’t do anything…I want my Yunnie…”
His words become lower and lower eaten by the sadness and he was like mumbling at the end; swallow the words along with the pain…Jaejoong dropped to his knees. He’s still holding his chest while crying…
Yoochun woke up from his dream when he heard the yelling came out from Jaejoong’s mouth. He rushed hurriedly towards the siblings and pulled the paler man up. Junsu was crying with his hand cupped his mouth…he doesn’t know what to say anymore….then a tall young man appeared out of nowhere in front of them but only Jaejoong can see him.
“Changmin! Changmin-ah…help me…I want to see him…but I can’t…”
“I know…” Changmin cut him before he can continue with his words.
“You can’t go there just like before; in a blink of an eye…you have no strength and energy and that is why you can’t do it anymore….but don’t worry…I’ll bring you to his place…you can be with him all night long before the sunrise come…I’ll bring you back here after that.”
Changmin give his hand for Jaejoong’s to hold. Jaejoong look to his left and right to Junsu and Yoochun and he promised those men that he’ll come back later on. He grabbed Changmin’s hand tenderly and they disappear like a wind not long after that. When they open up their eyes, they have already standing in front of Yunho’s house. Jaejoong pressed the bell couple of times but he received no answer. He looked at Changmin curiously not sure what happened to his loved one. Changmin took his hand and they emerged in the middle of living’s room but the room was left so dark. Not a single light can be seen. Jaejoong felt something was wrong. Then Changmin took him to yunho’s bedroom.
Jaejoong turn on the light in the bedroom. To his surprise, he saw a weak body lying on the bed helplessly. He rushed to touch Yunho as he put his long index finger under Yunho’s nose to feel that man’s breathing or not. He felt so much in relieved when he knew that man was still breathing but fell unconscious. Jaejoong sat on the bed near Yunho. He took Yunho’s head and placed it on his own laps. He shook Yunho’s body lightly to wake him up. Yunho stirred and his lips mouthed something that no one can hear it clearly. Jaejoong put his ear close to Yunho’s lips to hear what Yunho is saying. All he can hear was Yunho calling his name…he felt like he want to cry…he knew he was the reason for Yunho to be like that.
“Yunnie… wake up, Yunnie…I’m here….” Jaejoong put his best effort to wake him up. Yunho’s eye lids open up slowly adjusting with the light that shining each part of the room.
“Jae…? Is that really you…? Or am I just dreaming…?”
“Yunnie…it’s me…it’s me, Jaejoong and you’re not dreaming…”
Jaejoong ran his hand through Yunho’s hair. He then pecked Yunho’s lips gently. When he want to pull back, Yunho hold onto his neck, pulling him into another kiss. The passionate one. But the kiss was not last long enough because of Jaejoong having trouble to breathe. He felt a sudden pain shoot into his heart that makes him bite his lips to reduce the pain. But he ended up tearing his soft lips a bit making it bleeds.
Yunho panicked seeing the blood oozing out from Jaejoong’s lips. Changmin that was paying attention to the loved birds from far away at the corner of the room just now also shocked. But Yunho’s reflex was fast; he grabbed the blanket folded at the edge of the bed to wipe it off.
“Boo…what happened to you? Why are you looking so pale? Your hands are so cold…is there something wrong? I’m so worried about you. You’ve been missing for a couple of days already. I thought you left me….” Yunho pulled Jaejoong’s fragile body into his and hugged him dearly afraid of losing that man once again.
Jaejoong just smile, feeling calm sneaks into his heart. He can feel the warmness of Yunho’s body transferred to him, giving him the strength. His pain slowly disappears from his heart. He felt like the energy was boosting up into his body when Yunho hugged him. Jaejoong then sneaked out his hand through Yunho’s waist up to his back and replied the hug. They both hugging each other, spreading the scent of love to each other. Yunho ran his hand to Jaejoong’s silky black hair. He’s totally lost in the love of Jaejoong.
“I’ll never leave you and I’m not going to…I just want to be with you….forever…if it’s possible.” Jaejoong whispering the words of hoping and promise to Yunho’s ear.
Changmin was staring at them, never look away from the very beginning. He whispered something to himself.
“I never knew that you really love Jaejoong that much, hyung…Jongmal mianhe…but one thing for sure, I’ll return him back to you…he’s belongs to you….only…not me….”
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Yay! another update...hope my dearly reader will like it... = )