| Fan Fiction |
by angelynnnnn
“It’s my fault that you are stranded here with me, away from the people that are dear to you, away from Jaejoong. I’ve separated the both of you; she must be waiting for you painfully. I’m selfish to keep you here by my side by fooling both of us that you owe me and must repay them before you are free to go. It’s all my fault, I should bring you back to them,”
She sounded so real, I think she should audition to get into SM entertainment. But from the way she is acting right now, she must mean it.
“Ri in ah,”
She looked up at me, peering her eyes away from her feet. Somehow, this little devil inside of me wants to pull her close to me and never let her go, even if it means giving up everything I had.
That devil won.
[End of recap]
Tears were threatening to fall out of her eyes as she looked up at me. I wasn’t thinking straight, nothing was going through my mind. Nothing, except her crying face.
How is it that every time she cries, my heart aches along with her?
How is it that whenever she laughs, I couldn’t help but smile?
How is it that once she is here, everything seems so right?
I tried to fight back the urge to show her the soft side of me, but I lost.
I tried to resist pulling her into my arms, but to no avail.
I am always trying, but never succeeding when it comes to her.
I pulled her into my arms and stroked her hair, hoping to stop her sobbing.
“You’re really a dummy. Why apologise when you have done nothing wrong at all? It isn’t your fault, really. I did all of that on my own will, you’re not to blame,”
“But still, I separated you from your love,”
“My love?”
I chuckled and broke apart from her.
“A dummy will always remain as one. Jaejoong is a ‘he’ not a ‘she’ even though he looks like a girl. He is my brother, a very dear one indeed. And, I want a time out for a while. So it isn’t your fault, stop blaming yourself,”
She nodded and turned away from me, trying to hide the tears from my eyes.
“Yah, I know it seems like I’m crying, but I’m really not. It’s just that –,”
“Something got into your eye? Okay, I get it,”
I smiled at her innocent behaviour. Someone as fragile as her acting as someone who is strong. Something must have happened to her in the past that caused her to be wary of the people around her.
“Ri In ah, will you…”
[Ri In’s POV]
Great, I just proved to Jung Yunho that I am such a weakling. Aish, why did I cry? It wasn’t even that sad. I’m saying this now, but why do I feel as if a thousand knives just pierced through me heart when I said I was going to bring him back to where he truly belongs?
It seemed so hard to say goodbye, even though it was only yesterday that I met him. I don’t believe in fate, yet Yunho was making me doubt the existence of destiny.
He was able to make everything seem perfect. It sounds weird that I was just wishing him to be out of my life a few minutes ago and now when the time to get rid of him is here, I don’t want to make him disappear.
So this was why they said women are fickle.
“Ri In ah, will you…”
Will I?
Will I be his girlfriend?
Will I allow him to be that shoulder I need to lean on?
Will I what?
“Will you spend the next 3 days with me?”
3 days with him? Isn’t that too short a time? Can’t it be 3 weeks, months or even years?
Aish, snap out of it Ri In. He is the leader of a boy band. He is busy, he can’t possibly be entertaining you all the time.
“3 days?”
“Just 3 days, and I’ll leave,”
It’s not that I want him to leave so soon, but I felt bad about keeping him here with me.
“3 days it is then,”
I faked a smile and gave him an “OK” sign.
“So, what do you want to do during these 3 days?”
I sat on the bed and tried to make the atmosphere comfortable.
“Have fun?”
He stated and sat on the bedside table in front of me.
“Fun? Then you have found the right person! I’ll bring you to the carnival,”
I smiled and raised an eyebrow at him. He looked at me with a blank expression and thought for a while before smiling.
I took his hand and ran out of the hotel room.
“Wait,”
He ran back into the room and scribbled something on a piece of paper.
“Done,”
He came out of the room and we both ran out of the hotel, in search of happiness for a short period of 3 days. After these 3 days, it’s goodbye for good.
We ran like 3 days were going to pass by quickly. There wasn’t a taxi in sight except for one and there was a young couple getting ready to get inside it.
“Want to do something bad?”
Yunho asked me as I nodded my head, quiet sure of what he was going to do.
As soon as the taxi stopped, Yunho dragged me and we went into the taxi, beating the young couple to it. The guy was wearing a cap and Yunho wind down the window and grabbed his cap, telling the taxi driver to start driving.
He put the cap on his head comfortably and started laughing at the silly thing we just did. I laughed along with him. This must be the first time I saw him laughing so heartily and not like he had something up his sleeves.
“Why do you need the cap for?”
“Fans might recognise my charming face,”
I laughed at his obsession with himself. Somehow, I am feeling more secure with him.
“It has been 4 years since I’ve done something like that,”
“I could tell. By how crazy you were, seizing that guy’s cap like that,”
“It’s part of my definition of ‘fun’,”
He clicked his tongue and pointed to the cap, sitting on his head right now.
“For these 3 days, we’ll put aside everything and just have fun,”
I nodded and looked outside. The taxi was heading off to the carnival. Although it was obvious where we were going now, it seemed to me like we didn’t know where we would be arriving at.
Everything was happening too fast, like the trees and signs passing by our sight swiftly. I hope that this would continue on and we would never arrive at our destination. But reality was never this good. It always stops abruptly right when you think you are on the top of the world.
[Yunho’s POV]
It’s just 3 days, nothing can go wrong. If I don’t do something to drag the time I have to spend with her, I will live to regret it.
I turned to her and saw her looking outside of the window. Nothing special, just trees and signs and disappearing to the back as quick as they came to our sight.
This could be the best example to describe how we both entered each others’ lives suddenly. The feeling when we just saw each other was ordinary. Yet we never imagined it to be this hard when we have to bid farewell.
We would try to catch just one more glimpse at the beautiful scenery before it vanished. Although it was always there, when we have to move on, time doesn’t stop for us.
We’re not Gods, we can’t change the fact that we both live different lives. And our lifestyles clash against each others’.
We always tend to take things for granted and only realise its importance when they are slowly retreating away from our lives.
It was only a day and a half, yet I have grown so attached to her. I’m afraid that the following 3 days spent with her would make the feeling much deeper.
I guess, she and I aren’t meant to be, no matter how I wish for it to become true.
Jang Ri In, stop controlling my mind.
Keep out of my mind.
Give me back my senses.
Stop invading my heart.