| Fan Fiction |
by Autumndreamer
It’s been three days after I broke up with Jae, and I still could remember that scene in front of my eyes when Jae was about to kiss another guy. I just feel the anger building up inside my heart and my body. I can’t believe Jae would ever cheat on me, and I don’t care whether he wanted to kiss the guy or not, he is a guy after all, so there must be ways that he can prevent that close contact from happening.
I know if Jae didn’t want to do something, then he will have the strength to defend himself from others also. Jae isn’t as weak as he looked like, because after all he is still a guy. I never expected to see him with another guy until that day, but I swear I saw tears rolling in his eyes when we called the break up.
What else can I do? I already gave him my whole heart, but he only ignored me and avoided me. Maybe he is right, we really shouldn’t have this abnormal feelings between each other since we are brothers. But how can I live my life without him? I see him everywhere at home, and the feeling of sleeping alone on my bed was so empty for me.
I don’t know whether he slept while in the room next to mine, or he cried the whole night because of his fear of the darkness. I hugged onto my a pillow every night and told myself to pretend that is Jae, but how can I? The pillow doesn’t smell or feel like Jae, it doesn’t have Jae’s scent and temperature. Whenever I open my eyes from my dream, I felt even emptier. I want Jae back, and I know I really want him back. But I can’t open my mouth to tell him.
“Jung Yunho! What is wrong with you? You have been staring at the same problem for ten minutes already. It is not hard!” Ji Hyun’s voice woke me up.
I looked over and shake my head: “Sorry.. I was thinking about something..”
“What’s wrong? Mind to tell me?” Ji Hyun sounded more caring than usual.
I looked over at Jae who is studying at another table beside ours with his head down, and then I shake my head: “It’s nothing!”
I thought I saw Jae glancing over at me quickly, but when I looked up at him again he was still looking down at his textbook. Ji Hyun: “If you are not feeling well, then I guess we will cancel today’s tutoring. Why don’t you take a rest?”
I nodded and closed my head as I leaned back on my chair. Ji Hyun stood up to pack her books back in her begs and then she nudged me: “Are you busy now? Do you want to go take a walk outside? It is the beginning of spring already and I want to feel the breeze.”
“A walk?” I asked and not sure that Ji Hyun, the usually bully noona just asked me to go to a walk with her.
She smiled and nodded her head: “Come on! You still own my a favor, and at least you should go take a walk with me.”
She pulled me up and I walked toward the door with her, then I looked back at Jae and whispered in a low voice: “Hey.. I will be back later..”
Jae didn’t even look over at me, and I stepped out with my heart sinking down even more. Did he get over me that fast already? He doesn’t even care about me anymore?
End of pov..
Walking outside, Ji Hyun was smiling at the slowly setting sun and she turned over to Yunho who seemed to be thinking about something he whole time. Ji Hyun stopped and patted on Yunho’s shoulder: “Yunho ah.. do you mind telling me about your lover? I am actually very curious!”
Yunho looked up and Ji Hyun said: “Remember? You told me about her once, but you never said anything. I actually do see a lot of the girls go for you in school, and of course, including that Tiffany, but you never pay attention to any of them. Who is the special one in your heart and make you so determined the whole time?”
Yunho bits onto his lips and felt sad that this person is no longer with him, “I..”
Ji Hyun seemed to really want to know, and she kept on staring at my face. I looked up at her: “I once thought I was the luckiest person in the world for having my love all to myself. I think our love is the most beautiful thing in the world, and I want to be able to protect and cherish our love for my whole life.”
“So who is she? Do I know her?” Ji Hyun asked more questions.
Yunho looked up at Ji Hyun pov- Since it is already over, I don’t think it would hurt if I tell her. She doesn’t look like those gossiping girls anyways, and I guess this secret will have to get out sooner or later. Maybe talking to someone other than keeping all the sadness to myself would make me feel better.
Yunho sighed: “Yes, you do know ‘her’!”
Ji Hyun widened her eyes and then was about to say something, but Yunho said: “Ji Hyun ah.. can you promise not to tell if I tell you this?”
Ji Hyun nodded: “I promise! I will forever keep your secret!”
Yunho looked down and whispered: “The person I love.. is..”
Ji Hyun listened carefully..
“Jaejoong..”
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Jae’s pov..
I cried for hours and hour in TOP Hyung’s embrace the day when Yunho broke up with me, and I couldn’t help but told TOP Hyung everything about me and Yunho. He was shocked at first, but then he patted on my head and comforted me. TOP Hyung is a person I felt that I can really trust. He told me that it is a good thing we ended our relationship, because it would be too hard for both of us in the future.
I listened to TOP Hyung and I felt that I should stay away from Yunho, because then we will not pick up any time in the future. I know it is too easy for us to make up, if either one of us just give in a little, then we would make up in no time. But this wrong love should stop already.. I think this way it is better for both of us..
I started to hang out with TOP Hyung, Junsu and Changmin more like before. I want to forget him, and at night, I would call TOP Hyung or Junsu to talk to them till I am too sleepy that I just fall asleep. I think this way I will avoid Yunho.
It is too hard to forget Yunho though, because I see him everyday. Ji Hyun Noona still comes to our house to teach Yunho, but I just sit away from them and pretend not to care. But I swear, whenever they are together, I don’t think I can concentrate on my own homework at all. Even though, Ji Hyun noona mostly just yell at Yunho, but I still feel the tenseness in me and jealousy feeling. If only I was a girl and not related to Yunho, then I could have a equal chance to compete with Ji Hyun or other girls.
This day, Ji Hyun asked Yunho to take a walk outside. I of course was affected, but I pretended that I don’t even care. I found Yunho’s eyes showed a sign of hurtfulness. Yunho ah.. this is the only way we can end our wrong relationship.. and you can find someone else.. same goes for me..
I sighed out when I found them walk out from the house, and I walked into my room to search for my cell phone. I dialed TOP Hyung’s number, and he answered immediately.
“Jaejoong ah..”
“Hyung, I am feeling sad again. Can I talk to you?”
“Do you want to eat ice-cream Jaejoong?”
“Ice-cream?”
“I am in front of a ice-cream store right now, and the first person I thought was you. I want you to taste these ice-creams. Come quickly!”
“Oh okay! I will be there!”
I hanged up the phone and felt a little excited, then I rushed out from the house. Good thing the store was just by my house, I guess it must be new because I have never seen it before.
I saw TOP Hyung holding onto a chocolate chip ice-cream and a strawberry ice-cream in his hand. He smiled at me sweetly, and rushed over to meet me.
“Jaejoong ah..”
“Hyung!” I smiled back at him.
“Which one do you want?” He asked me.
“I want.. strawberry..” I took the pinkish looking ice-cream with fresh strawberry on it. “Thank you Hyung!”
“So tell me, why are you sad again?” He asked me and started to walk and eat the ice-cream in his hand at the same time.
“Ji Hyun Noona came over again, and I just feel very sad looking at them together!” I said.
TOP: “I know it is hard to forget Yunho right? Well, you have to Jaejoong! He is your brother! Your parents would never agree on that.”
“Hyung! How come you always say we are brothers but you never say anything like.. you two are both guys or.. boy and boy can’t love each other.. don’t you feel weird that I and in love with a guy?” I asked.
TOP suddenly stopped walking and I could see a slight blush on his face as he looked away from my gaze, he stuttered: “Erm.. the ice-cream I going to melt if you don’t eat it..”
I know he is just avoiding my questions, so I looked up at him even more so stop his gaze from wondering around the space. Finally, he looked over at me and whispered: “Because.. I don’t see anything wrong.. with that..”
I widened my eyes and asked: “Hyung.. you..”
“Jaejoong ah.. I just think everyone deserves their special someone doesn’t matter age or gender..” TOP answered me seriously. I think I understood what he meant already, so I nodded my head, but the next thing came out from his mouth made me almost choked.
“Jaejoong ah.. what do you think of me?”
I widened my eyes and stared at TOP’s face, and part of me wanted to laugh a little, though most of me was in shock. I have never seen TOP blush so much, and he looks like a tomato in front of me, but why is he asking me this? Does this mean.. he.. likes me?
“Hyung..”
TOP suddenly smiled and scratched his head: “Nevermind! Just pretend you didn’t hear that!”
I sighed out a little when I saw him walking ahead already, and then after a few steps, he turned around: “Come on! Why are you still standing there?”
I caught up with him and kept on looking over at him.. what do I think about TOP Hyung? He has always been a Hyung.. and.. nothing more to me.. but.. does he really like me?
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