| Fan Fiction |
by Autumndreamer
The first wedding night..
Everyone left the house after celebrating, and Jae was being pulled away by Junsu. Junsu told me he will stay with Jae for the night and take care of him. I felt relieved because I know Jae won’t be along.
The whole house was left with Ji Hyun and myself, I turned around and found Ji Hyun standing behind me still in her wedding dress. She looked down and whispered: “I will go get out from this dress. It’s so uncomfortable.”
I nodded, and watched her going up the stairs. This is the first time she in wedding dress, and no one thought it would end up just like this. The dress will be stored in the closet forever without touching ever again.
A wedding is just like this? What is the point of it? I see nothing in this wedding without love. I started to miss Jae already.
Walking up the stairs, I saw Ji Hyun walking out from the bedroom in her normal clothe already. She washed those make up off from her face too, and everything looked just normal as if nothing happened.
“Jaejoong will be fine, right?” She asked worried.
“He will be fine.” I replied.
She nodded: “Are you hungry? We can go eat something down stairs.”
I nodded and we both walked down, but none of us had the feeling of eating anything complicated. We just wanted to get our stomach filled. We hated two bowls of instant noodles, and sitting across from each other on the dinning table. None of us said a thing to the other, but we both dig into the noodle. This is our first dinner together on wedding night.. instant noodles..
My heart felt heavy, soon, it was night time. Without talking to each other, she walked into the bedroom and I walked toward the guest room. How did life turn out this way? Laying on the empty bed, I sighed and started to miss Jae again. How is Jae doing?
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The next day, I woke up very early because I know Jae should be coming over today. Ji Hyun cooked breakfast and she passed a tray of food to me.
“I already cooked extra for Jae.” She said.
“Thank you!” I replied.
Ji Hyun shakes her head and asked while eating: “When is he coming over today?”
“My dad said he will send Jae over, but I don’t really know when.” I said and started to eat food.
“School is going to start in less than a month..” Ji Hyun said.
“Yea..” I replied dryly, from now on, outside of this house, I will have to act as Ji Hyun’s husband but instead this house I am still Jae’s lover. How complicated can things get?
Ji Hyun started to clean the house, and I just wondered around the house doing nothing. I sat by the window and stared out waiting for Jae to come.
Ji Hyun mops the floor in the living room, and after that, she sat down in front of the piano while playing a slow yet beautiful song. I felt my head getting heavy again, but I kept my eyes open, because I want to see Jae soon.
“Do you want me to give a call?” Ji Hyun asked while playing the piano.
“No.. he will come.. I know he will..” I replied and walked over to her watching her playing.
“When did you learn how to play piano?” I asked.
She stopped and looked up at me: “Ever since I was five.”
I nodded: “I wished I could know how to play, but Jae was always the better ones playing instruments.”
Ji Hyun looked down at her hands and didn’t say anything, just then, the sound of a car pulling through the drive got into my ears.
I rushed over to the front door, and I opened the door found a car from my house. The driver got out from the car and then opened the back door. Jae stepped out, and he looked ever more beautiful now.
The driver helped Jae to carry his suit-cases in the house, and Jae stepped in while looked up at me then quickly looked away.
“Yunho shi, Jaejoong shi arrived, do you need anything else?” The driver asked.
“Tell my parents I said thanks.” I said.
“Yeah! Have a nice day.” The driver said and drove away.
I quickly hugged onto Jae: “Why did you come so late?”
Jae pushed me away and looked toward my back, slowly, I turned around and found Ji Hyun staring at us. She found me staring and she quickly smiled: “Jaejoong ah, welcome! I will go clean up the bedroom now, and you and Yunho can stay in there.”
“No, Noona! I will stay in the guest room.” Jae said.
I quickly said: “Yea, Ji Hyun! Jae and I should stay in the guest room. You sleep in the bedroom.”
Jae said: “I will go clean up and settle myself, you don’t have to help me Noona!”
Jae pulled his suit-case up the stairs, and then he turned over: “I have to thank you Noona!”
Ji Hyun smiled and shake her head, then she turned to me: “Go to him!”
I nodded and walked up the stairs with Jae, but I could imagine how Ji Hyun looked at our back while standing down the stairs all by herself.. I know I own Ji Hyun a lot, but I can’t help loving Jae..
I got into the room with Jae and closed the door, Jae turned over and looked at me. I rushed over and hugged onto Jae’s slim body while sniffing his hair: “I missed you!”
“Don’t..” Jae pushes me a little but I hugged onto him tighter.
“Jae! Don’t push my away! I am so weak now!” I said, “I missed you so much and I always have dreams about losing you. Do you not trust me anymore Jae? But I can’t help it and we are already in this situation. I promise you, I will love you as much as before. This marriage cannot make me change my feelings for you. We have been through so much, and I am sure from now on we won’t face any more obstacles.”
“Yunho.. we can’t be so selfish! What about Noona?” Jae asked, “Have you thought about her yet? She has feelings too, and she must have feelings for you if she agreed to marry you. Yunho! How can we be so selfish?”
Hearing this, I am staring to get angry: “Jaejoong! Are you trying to push me away now? Are you saying you want me to stay with Ji Hyun and leave you now? Do you remember why did I agreed to get married? Do you know it is because I love so much and I don’t want to lose you so that’s why I get myself into this marriage, and now, you want to push me away? You want me to go right? Fine! I will just go kill myself, you don’t even want me anymore and I don’t want to stay in this marriage and lie to the world anymore.”
I rushed toward the door, but Jae hugged onto my back: “No! Yunho! Don’t! I.. I don’t even know what I am feeling now. I love you and I don’t want to lose you, but how can I stay here and look at Ji Hyun’s hurt face.”
I turned over and hugged onto Jae: “We will tell people the truth one day, and one day will be stay together normally. I will let the whole world know that you are mine!”
Jae nodded and slowly he kisses on my lips, slowly, I pushed him down on the bed and whispered: “I missed you so much Jae.”
“Not right now Yunho..” Jae blushed.
“But.. I can’t help it..” I said and continued doing my job.
“Ah.. Uh..” Jae moaned and unable to stop my hands..
End of pov..
Ji Hyun stood outside of the guest room, and she could hear the loving sounds coming from the inside.
Ji Hyun closed her eyes and leaned her body on the wall, she doesn’t even know why did she get herself into this mess now?
She loves Yunho, and she wants him to be happy, but is this the only way to make Yunho happy? Having Yunho be with Jae and have herself suffering alone?
Ji Hyun opened her eyes and cried silently as she hugs onto her own body: “Is this going to be the way I live for the rest of my life? Am I just going to be like this from now on?”
Ji Hyun slowly supported herself up and she walked down the stairs and started to clean the kitchen and cooking dinner. She wants to do as much things as possible so she would stop thinking about everything, though her tears were unstoppable and they kept on rolling out from her eyes.
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Jae’s pov..
I woke up around Mid-night, looking at Yunho’s naked upper body next to mine and hugging onto me tightly. I could still feel the way Yunho touching me and making love to me.
But, this is not right! We both know this is not right! I can see Ji Hyun’s stare.. I can hear Ji Hyun’s crying sounds.. I can feel Ji Hyun’s sadness.. this is not right!
I slowly got off from the bed and I walked out from the room to go to the bathroom, but then I saw there were light down stairs.
Slowly, I walked down the stairs and found there were lights in the kitchen. I then stepped toward the kitchen, then I gasped..
Ji Hyun was still up, and she didn’t seem to notice me. I saw her crying hard but still stuffing her marriage cake into her mouth none stop. Her face was all messy with the cake and he tears.
She kept on crying and eating at the same time.. I suddenly grabbed onto my chest.. she is really hurt.. of course, because she loves Yunho too. Being able to marry the man but not to have his love is worse than having the man’s love but not able to marry him.
“Noona..” I called.
Ji Hyun looked over and she quickly wipes her tears away and said: “Jae.. Jaejoong ah.. you didn’t sleep yet?”
I handed her some tissues, and she took it while wiping her face slowly, then is said: “Noona.. I am sorry..”
She smiled a little: “It wasn’t your fault! I was the one who got myself into this. Just stay with Yunho and be happy together, then I will be happy for you two too!”
“But you are not happy!” I said loudly and she looked over at me. “Maybe, we are all wrong..”
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